Motivation

final's around the corner. in fact, i'll be doing my first two papers this thursday.

and, i am really glad that i've found a new source of motivation to push me.

hoping that i am doing better in my finals compared to the last two tests.

really hoping that i'll be able to grab the opportunity that i've long for.

will i still be given the chance?

i am working on it...wait for me! Motivation, please stay with me, always and forever.

Today's the last day...

...of swimming curriculum! woohoo!

very tired. spent 6 hours in the pool today. but, i enjoyed myself tremendously. yes, swimming has always been fun!

previous semester, i took tennis as my co-cu, just because i think that tennis's a popular sport and people who play tennis are COOL. basically, tennis players wear all whites, from head to toe...with exception for the under wears...

then, whenever me and my friends walk to the court, we can feel the people that we pass by on the way looking at us. kinda glamorous...like a super star

i still remember what our tennis coach told us, "mesti ada gaya dulu, tak dapat sambut bola, lain cerita". hahaha! damn true. i definitely pick up more balls than hitting balls. *doink*

now, swimming is a different story.

swimming is an expensive sport, swimming suits are costly!!! squeezed my wallet dry.
but, i am glad that a lot have been learnt throughout the semester.

and i get to jump on the spring board. niceeeee!

we were in the pool, looking at the others doing their bottle jump from the spring board and we were like "wow! that's fun! i wanna try too..."

and finally, when we have the opportunity to do the pseudo-commit-suicide-jump, we were like so anxious...

it's funny how we change from being heroins, who cheers on people to "jump! jump! just jump!" to trembling little girls, who constantly check if the swimming class assistant is down there with the float to save us before we jump!

anyway, i tried the compact jump, where i am supposed to jump up, and curl my body into a compact ball shape in mid air but, i guess gravity's a lot faster than my actions.

i only managed to hug my legs before i fell into the water like a giant watermelon!
aww...wrong techniques, painful stinging butts! =.="

it's a pity that mobile phones aren't made to be water proof.

i have not a single picture by the pool. or the pseudo-corpse-floating-on-surface picture.


yeah, and one more thing...
swimming makes people slimmer...but, how come i am still so plump wan?!!!

The Liar

#so...

you are the jerk, i am the "stupidee"

why? because i trust you..

" harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi " #

there's this guy whom i asked to help to hand-in my data structure 4th assignment. it was friday, before the raya break. i was in a hurry because i was going back to ipoh in my friend's car, at a promised time.

i was desperate, frantically looking for a friend who's in the same class to help me, and i saw him...he seems to be a responsible guy. "don't worry," he said. and, i was relieved, thinking that my assignment will reach the demo's pigeon hole.

that was 3 weeks ago.

then, last wednesday, our demo handed back our assignment papers.
i was shocked to see that my 4th assignment scored only 3/10!!!
on top of the cover, the demp commented :

Late 15/Oct
6/10 -------------------> 3/10
late 50%

this means that my paper is either handed in on the 14th or the 13th!

how can this happen?!

i told the demo that i handed it in on time. and the demo replied "really?"
i think he doesn't really believe. i mean, who will?!
but, he still make an asterisk near my name on the score sheet.
*sigh* poor demo...

now, come to think of it...DON'T WORRY MY ASS!!!
pardon me for my rudeness but this guy, i tell you is a LIAR!

i asked him, very politely, about his score for 4th assignment.
he said " forgotten. why?"
and i said nothing..but then, i really cannot TAHAN anymore!
i ask him straight to the point " when did you pass my assignment?",to which he answered :

"THAT DAY"

fullstop. i asked no more...

running in my mind at that moment : that day...it could be any day!!! OMG!
i STRONGLY SUSPECT that he didn't pass up mine.

the moral of the incident:
1) don't do things last minute
i admit that i didn't print out my assignments earlier...my own fault

2)hand in your own assignments...that's a 100% guarantee

3)don't trust people to do things for you (only if he/she's someone you can really really trust)

4)if HE ever ever ask me to help handing in his assignment, i'll BURN his!!! muahahaha!
revenge is swweeeeeet~!

"no-title-i-wanna-talk-bout-anything"

finally...

the sim4200 database implementation is done. many many thanks to almaz! Banzai!

i get to play a few rounds of spider solitaire before i start on the other three assignments. =.=

i get to surf the net! i have not been surfing for weeks due to the poor line. uspot, ich hasse dich!!!
(me and my friends taking german class this semester and 'ich hasse dich',meaning i hate you is the most famous line among us, thanks to kai leng. she likes to add 'ich hasse dich' at the last line of every messages she types. kai leng loves to abuse it! haha!)

i get to check my mail box, delete junks and replying '' mrs. grace johnson's '' hoax mail.

i get to blog...the best place for me to crap endlessly.

so goodd..wahaha!

yea...and i dunno why i am getting more and more forgetfull these days.
this afternoon, i went to my HCI class at 3.00 pm. thinking that i've reached on time, i walk in very casually (selamba, they say...) than, suddenly i felt some sudden silence hitting the room. i turned around and found the others staring at me, and the lecturer suddenly ask me if i've forgotten today's class. i was like 'huh?'. then, hoo keng said that today's class is at 2.00 pm! i was still blur then, thinking that the lecturer started our class earlier.

then, suddenly henry said 'today's monday' and a great pang hit me. WTH!!! i've forgotten that HCI class is at 2 every monday and in fact, HCI class never start at 3! i was 1 hour late and i walk in such a..*sigh*..manner=.="

damn 'paiseh' lar!

geez...what a day.

EMHO!

went to mid valley with wei leng yesterday because i wanna buy my grocery stuff (kononnya...and why i want to buy groceries at, of all places, mid valley? *haha*)

yeah, i know that i can buy biscuits and chocolate drinks at the local convenient stores. save time and cost. BUT i simply love to go to shopping centres and spend money on food and some inedible stuff despite me knowing that my wallet is already as dry as salted fish. call me the ignorant and imprudent consumer, but i am still loving the bad money squandering habit of mine. after all, that habit occurs only during certain period...(however, i don't have pre-shopping+eating syndrome. it comes suddenly!)

so, out of the blue, i asked wei leng to go shopping with me. thanks wei leng!

went sushi-ing at sushi king. nah, not all sushi king's good though. somehow, those sushi that we ate are just normal, can't make us fly and explode while eating them.

oh, but i love dinner!

it's my first time being in this eatery. awesome.

picture #1 : the clue
this is actually part of the table!
but, when captured this way, it looks more like the dancing floor of some olden days disco to me.
...or those wall tiles from someone's house.

it's chilis! i finally get the chance to dine here.
but why's the name? chilis?
why not tomatos?

those normal eateries i've been to use maggi chilli/tomato sauce
and, while hawker stalls provide you sambal belacan/kimbal chilli sauce/cili padi,
chilis provides you with heinz chilli/tomato sause

heard the brand but never taste the chilli sauce before

this is my drink. must be wondering of-all-drinks, why lipton yellow label tea?
it actually felt a bit weird to drink tea at such place

anyway, this "mug" of tea cost me RM5.xx
(my thought : wah! so expensive!!! tea only mah!)
i am not a fan of tea and i don't buy tea sachets. therefore i have no idea regarding the market price of lipton's.

mental note: must remember to check those super markets for the price!

my plate. lamb shoulder.
interesting colour. there's protein, carbohydrates and greens.

except for the greens being slightly-too-soft, the rest is ichiban!
love the mashed potato and the gravy.
it's mashed and yet you will still be able to bite on some soft cubes of potatoes.

garlic toast...ok..it tastes like garlic toast lar...

lamb. just nice. tender and juicy.
oo la la!
it doesn't smell bad!

actually, i wanted to order that "portabella(?)" stuff because it looks delicious, and so is the price!

mental note(again): must try that dish on next visit...no matter what

wei leng's plate. forgetten the name but it's chicken breast something something

the corn has some salt and herbs sprinkled onto it
i planted some bites(not kisses) onto the corn
woo la la!
it's buttery...i like.

so? both us ate a total of 72 ringgit.
well, i think that's the value if you really want to taste quality
it may be much more than that in some other place, rite?

Who's This?!

my dear friends, i am now a changed person.

i changed my identity, but my i will still remember you people...*sob! sob!*

ok...seriously i love my own id.

but, everytime i login with my id, this ALIEN id is displayed!!!

who the hell is this???!!!


this system limits us to 40 hours of internet per week

look at the time remaining, 00:00!

and it's just two days from the reset-point day.


something is wrong with the system...
*can you please add more hours to my account? please*

Ich habe hunger!

i am currently facing the "grey" side of my life

why ?

1) because there's no food since the food court's still not opened yet.
(walked to putra and found out that it's closed. went to ktdi's. was given a glimpse of hope by the bright pendaflours lighting the ktdi cafeteria only to find that it's food-less too!)

2) because i skipped my breakfast this morning. (i eat slow and i have a bus to catch)

3) because i have not eaten a single grain of rice today...=.= (my root is china and rice is staple. typical "fan-tung" (rice cooker) haha!)

4) because the stupid and foolish me did not bring mom's luncheon meat sandwiches back to uni. (i thought i could survive on my own nerves...foolish!)

5) because i only get to munch on the 2nd half of my "zhu zhai peng" (piggy biscuit?) and that's all that's keeping me the whole day.

6) because i refuse to bring food stocks(milo, mooncakes, biscuits and fruits) from home back to uni. regretted when i stare at the "un-interesting" food shelf. my food shelf now has only an empty honey bottle, empty tupperwares, a pack of instant noodle with "euuw" flavouring(get me? get me?), empty milo tin, cereals and legumes powder.

7) because it's too late to order McD now. T.T and McD's expensive!
(Serdang's McD branch does not operate 24 hrs, i checked this from the McD Malaysia site)

8) because i am getting more and more hungry while reading food blogs.

9) because i am really hungry.

apart from food and groaning stomach : nope...all i can think right now is FOOD.

i have never been in such crisis before...the worst is because i don't have enough money to buy food and me skipping meals because i wanna sleep...

it's just one day and yet i am already feeling so bad. those african kids and kids from some other countries where food crisis is prominent must be suffering. of course, one couldn't really understand the devastation by just starving for a whole day. so, i am still a fortunate and lucky girl! thanks God!

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to mum and dad, sorry for being ungratefull.

i know mum purposely prepared the sandwiches this morning(although you're still recuperating from your eye surgery) so me and brother would be able to have something to munch on in case food stalls are not opened. i know mum and dad packed some fruits because i have unhealthy skin but i refused just because i my bag's already crammed. i know that dad bought wanton mee because breakfast's important.

mummy, hope you become well again. i love you and dad.

Let me crap!!!

today's colour is dark brown. my feeling's down.

got annoyed by somebody and later got into a quarrel with her, over something so trivial.

is this a routine in my daily life or what? can't pass a day at home without eating some bombs and stepping on landmines. *sigh*

for the first time in my life, i used the phrase "Don't FORCE me. Just leave me alone! i wanna be alone! i dunwan to be out with the crowd!!!". it's like i am clearing off everything in my chest. i thundered through my cell so loud.

then, an old friend messaged me:

#pls wear sexy n nicely tomolo. i will bring the professional camera to pizza hut. tomolo i'm becoming the photographer, so only i can wear casual wear #

somehow i think the message is funny. my emotion alleviated.
thanks sze teng, you have no idea how much this sms means to me, just when i need something to cool me down. kiss you!

oh~shall stop here. must sleep early to reduce puffiness in eyes.

two more days, and i'll be back to uni again. very unsure of how i feel. neither happy nor sad.
Neutral, pH 7.0.

ok...really must stop myself from crapping further.

Curse YOU!!!

this kick ass & drop ass guy really PISS me off!!!

sudah lah spoilt, some more so mengada-ngada!

think you very good ah? very clever ar? WTFFFFFFF!


you think you can scold with vulgar words, I dunno meh...go eat shit lar!!!

if you are made of gold, i will burn you, melt you until you become some useless shitting liquid!!!

so what, gold don't melt easily, than dun worry..i will take my own sweet time KILLING YOU!

in my eyes, you are not more than important compared to a piece of charcoal.


always also rely on other people to do stuff for you. damn useless.

always leave embarassing decission for others to make...smash you kow kow!


think you very great ar? people wanna take your second hand stuff...

you think you so important? like without you, it's the end of the world.

i wish that your laptop go flat under the tractor, got burnt, kena virus until it can no longer operates.

WTH...

i SERIOUSLY hope that you read this post. i DARE you!