bye bye 2008

early post to bid year 2008 adieu!!! cos i know once i am back in hostel, i'll have difficulty connecting to the tortoise uspot. i have not make my new year resolutions yet but i think it will be more or less the same as the year before and the year before that and the year before that year and bla bla...those stuff like doing better in academics, eat less and do more exercises which i always fail to follow. haha

no major celebration but might have some mini celebration to welcome 2009. maybe i'll fo get a few bottles of liqour...maybe~

hhm..i am now posting from the computer lab in my faculty, in the midst of attending my 1st java programming practical class. hehe. tzy chun and i plan to go to mid valley ealier. we were both counting and grumbling when time passes. wonder when the demo will let us go.

anyway, happy new year, folks!

just happy

i am very happy today.
why? because of the two naughty dogs. the breakfast in klang. the outing with kit nyin and everything. because suddenly i feel very close to my family.

having bak kut teh and tea for breakfast with family is totally enjoyable and warm. although the bak kut teh tasted so-so only, but the feeling is delicious. and, mum suddenly wanna learn sudoku. i was surprised. very surprise. then she said that she wants to exercise her brain to lower risks of parkinson and alzheimer's disease. so, now she's busy solving sudoku puzzles every night. haha

and today, i went to red box for the first time. my maiden redbox. in the gardens. i don't like singing much due to inner-complexity reasons like-i can't sing well. i am monotonous. i can't read chinese. i am not familiar with english pop songs and etc. i made my discovery today. singing is quite fun although most of the time, i sang off key, wrong tunes and goes nananananaa....really, actually i have no idea what i am singing. i am just having fun. i croaked as i like.

another discovery. hotel costes albums are damn expensive. 100+. not an album a student like me can afford. i'll have to go on bread for all three meals. too bad. eh, this is nothing to be happy about.

oh, and another discovery. i can get satisfied and happily easily too. i am not such a bitter guard that i think i am, or am i?

good morning, ohaiyou gozaimasu, guten morgan

another beautiful morning has risen again. nothing is more enjoyable than watching the two naughty dogs running around the house. really thanks god for all the nice things that i can see and touch. hero and danson are simply too adorable. i think i will miss little danson's small paws, will miss watching the two dog having fights and will definitely miss watching the two dogs running after my uncle...for food. haha

just now, someone left danson in the middle of the staircase. poor guy. the pup's afraid of height. he could only wagged his tail and stare at you. he was too afraid to move upwards or down the stairs. haha. naughty dog! yesterday he was caught biting away food from the altar. twice. and this smart pup hide under the table, chewing until an aunt saw him. he was caught red handed on his second mischief though. aha!

the dogs sooooooo cuteee...

i wonder...

if it's ok to peek at people's blog as anonymous.
there's a blog which i've enjoy sneaking up on for months and it's now a private blog. i can no longer read it. too bad. i wanna read the blog while still upholding the anonymity. *sigh*

from bad to "badder"

oh, no! i lost my temper again. and the outburst was witnessed by a father of a friend who happened to be repairing our roof top. now, i've earned myself a smellier reputation. but actually, things are not as it seems. i didn't just erupt suddenly, it's for a reason. i hate this-trying hard to be good, and get all efforts broken down by one single mistake. yarghhhhh! if only i could heighten my bloody boiling points and heat capacity!!! i hate this! i hate this! i hate this!

or, maybe i should just be me. trying to be good is just not-so-me. i cease to be myself when i try to be too good and too obedient. everytime. *sigh* whatever done's done, whatever said's said. no turning back. i'll just need to check my temper next time.

i am optimistic that things are going to change for the better soon. yes! go! go!

still not fine

things are still not going well. oh, what should i do now? i am sorry that i caused so much disappointment. fabulously exciting plan went awry. no barbecue grill, no skewers and no trips. promises flowing down the drains. i wonder if they will ever trust my words anymore. when will my holiday "wars" end?

To mummy

mummy's not feeling well and i am feeling very bad. sometimes, i wonder if she gets sick because she's not happy? because she's still angry with me? i want to help but she doesn't want it. this makes me feel depressed. will she ever talk to me again? i am really worried that our future conversations would be only nods and nos. initially, i drew this picture as a get-well-soon-card for mum. i hope it will be able to cheer her up again. but then, i am worried that she might not want to see it. then when i decided to print it out, alas, it came out in blue, black and white. dreadfully ugly.

so. mum, drink more fluid and rest more. get well soon


and ermm...mum? i'm sorry. i'll go hillwalking with you next time. ok?

my monday

hm...how should i describe today? it's monday yet i felt like sunday. i felt lazy yet i helped mum to clean the house. not very willingly, though. just do not feel nice being the only person in the house to relax. *oops!* we are cleaning the house because new year's approaching soon. dad used to joke about our house looking like a "house for human to stay" only during new years. meaning, in all the 365 days, there are only 7 days where the house is really neat and tidy. it's clean during cny and back to "normal" before chap goh mei. so, i wiped the cobwebs and the spidey away from the windows. it's lucky that the weather is nice. cloudy and cool for the whole day. it would be nice to switch into hibernate mode but no. the day was spent, instead, by wiping windows and wiping lizzards droppings that stick on the skirtings. damn the lizzards! shit so much and so randomly. you think my house is public toilet?! i hurt a finger and got minor backbone ache scrubbing off your by-products. hurted another finger while trying to shift some stuff. a sharp edge cut into the skin right under the lower nail. bleed immediately. @#$#% auch!

then,ealier, i got frustrated that my laptop suddenly doesn't carry out tasks as quick as it used to be. is it being overloaded? or i left it on for too long? or it catches a flu? but, thanks god! it's back to normal again. still, something bad happened. i thought i've made a dvd data disc. so, i deleted all the movies that i thought were transferred into the dvd. and, when i checked the dvd again...it's blank. @$#%^
arghhh! my darling movies! i lost my whole season of pushing daisies, the ratatouille and the zohan movies. sad! it took me a few days to finish downloading. "easy come, easy go..."

uhhhh...i miss the pie maker, cod, chuck and olive...

the late-nite "tok"

it's the wedding season. couples are taking vows to become husband and wife. pokok manggas at the juction of the road. bridal shop, restaurants and confectionaries having a boost of economy. dad's receiving a lot of red invitation cards a.k.a the red bomb. getting a lot of invitations means two things. one-you are a man with reputation, two-you are remembered by your friends, i mean close enough to get invited and three-getting ready to fork out $$. it's ironic. you get invited but you need to give red packet, which indirectly means you are paying too. dad said some host would prefer not to be given any but it's the tradition. so most will do that. haha..dad's like santa clauss this few days. nah, it's not the money really. i believe my father's a man who values his friendship.

but, one thing i can't "tahan" whenever he receives a "bomb": he and mum will start saying, "aiyo...when is my turn to distribute these cards ar?" or "when can i distribute "lou poh" biscuits to my friends?" funny, haahaa. pa, ma, faster ask sis to find a bf. your dream will come true. haha. if sis sees this, she will kill me. ><

mum and dad attending wedding dinner in haewaytian today, so sis and i went shopping in ipoh parade. except for parkson, i can't feel the christmas mood in parade. i thought i will be hearing christmas choruses echoing from the shop lots but what i heard instead were chinese new year songs! already? i told sis that maybe during cny they will be playing christmas songs. not that i am anti cny songs, but it's christmas!!! uhmm, maybe christmas's not the fashion in parade.?

yeah, and i've finally know what to get for amy this birthday.*happy!* i thought of d.i.y stuff. found the fabric dyes but can't find a blank t-shirt. just thought of this yesterday. but, when the t-shirt is washed, will the colour goes off? never did this before. someone, please give me advise!!! thought of finding the iron-on paper but not sure where to get it and i don't have adobe. arggghhh...

oh, and mum's calling me again, though it's just that one time. yipee! which means, her anger subsided. it really feels bad when mum doesn't ask me to do housework or help her in the kitchen anymore because it makes me feel useless and my days become gradually boring too. and it's sad to see that all my friends are good with their mum except me. hope that the darks clouds will dissapear soon. totally looking forward to the all-laughter-and-smile-days, uh,,perhaps until the day my final results are announced. *finger crossed*

be grateful and thankful

yee leng's right. what she said to me during the short conversation this afternoon is something i should not forget. i really felt ashamed of myself. all these years, i always complain about a lot of things, dislike a lot of stuff and being (still) jealous a lot of time. i always complain that i don't have this or that, lacking a lot of life's pleasures but i seldom take time to think about how lucky and wealthy i am, being blessed with a good family, responsible and caring parents, a sister and a brother, being given the opportunity to enrol in music classes, art classes, being dressed in kikilala during my childhood, being showered with gifts of barbie dolls, enid blyton books; and cool creative mp3, cellphone and laptop. i don't even need to spend a single cent on my laptop while some of my friends have to use their loans for their laptops. how lucky am i? if i did not learn music, i would not have proper music foundation, will not be able to read scores, play my favourite pieces and jazz. a lot of people wanted to learn piano, but they do not have the opportunity due to the expenses and parents factor. a lot of people envied me that i can play the piano(though not a pro) and if they discover that i am such an ungrateful brat, i think they will kill me.

knowing that i always complain about staying at home during the holidays, mum and dad always suggest that we go to pantai remis and penang, but i always complain that penang is plain boring and i've already been to pantai remis. i always forget that some people don't even get the chance to step out of their houses and that i am so fortunate that my parents took me to different states during every year-end school holidays. and, yet i will still feel jealous that some students, the same age as mine went overseas for vacations. i am so immatured.

when i complain so much about not getting to eat nice and luxurious food, i should remember that not everyone gets the chance to enjoy steaks in chilli's and the "fine" food in indulgence. at least, i've been to these places once. i should feel grateful.

sometimes when i complain that mum didn't cook this for me or do something, it seldom occurs to me that i seldom do things that she wanted me to too. maybe that's why the relationship between me and mum is not like any other family's. i seldom take time to understand mum and i don't think mum understand me too. me and my mum quarells very often. yeah, i dissapointed mum and dad lotsa times. they are sure sad. oh, i am not a good daughter...

so, from this day onwards, i wanna be more grateful, more thankful to god, for everything that i have, the people that i love and the stuff that i enjoy(that includes the streamyx..haha)


yeah...regarding friendship too. (confession: i use to think that my friends kinda few and i am always isolated) ok, i might not have a lotttttttt of friends, not popular among the guys and the girls but, i do have friends that i cherish, that love and remember me. for that , i am thankful too. peeps, i love you! (now, does this make your hair stand?)

james bond vs agent86

wadyahahaha! i've just finished watching an old movie, get smart. ooh...it's damn hillarious. it got my legs swinging in the air as i laughed at all the slapstick humour and fighting scenes. yaya, even the fighting and kicking scenes are funny. it's like watching a 007agent comedy, minus q and money penny, yeah, and the love scenes. i can't help comparing 86 to 007 all the way..haha

1) unlike all the generations of james bond who speeds gadget-modified aston martin, lotus, sunbeam alpine and bmw, max(agent86) didn't have a specific car until he "steals" and drives a sunbeam, out of the museum's main entrance. oh, well, at the beginning, he did steal and drive a ferrari too...

2)agent007 is rather the type of man that makes his speeches short and informative. agent86 is talkative!

3)agent007 will do things in a very precise manner, meaning chances for mistakes are slim. agent86 always makes funny mistakes that eventually ends well, accidental. budden, it's his maiden mission.

4)oh...i have more while watching just now. short of it now

haha, and some of my favourite scenes:
1)he used his mini harpoon for the 1st time in the airplane and got all the arrows fired back on him. one even went through his nostril and through the toilet's door!
2)him dancing with the plump lady. OMG!
3)agent99 and him do acrobatics to dodge the laser sensor grid
4)oh, the one part where he "innocently" he scanned left eye at the biometric security system and later heaved the guy he defeated earlier onto a table that a passer by thought they were having anal sex.
5)his two loyal sidekicks
6)the part where he eavesdropped on the two russians in the toilet. lol! he was urinating and whenever he tried eavesdropping, he stopped urinating., not reliasing that he is making his intention sooooo obvious!
7)the part where a big guy smashed into someone's living room while the residents are watching an action movie. the funny part is one of the resident saying,"see, mom? surround sound kicks ass, it's like it's right in the room!". wakaka!
8)the part where he bowed before the audiences and the orchestra members not knowing that his buttocks are exposed! haha

after watching this movie, i am suddenly interested in bombs and security system. weird. but, i've always like trivial knowledge like steam from your breathe sticks to nothing except the old fingerprints. whoa! is that true? it would be nice if i can pick locks...
found an interesting article.

oh, my dear friends, if you haven't watch this movie...quick!quick! watch it!

oh, i wanna add one more thing to my christmas wish list : Swiss army penknife. wanted that a long long time ago but couldn't afford it then..uhm..now too.


*laughing off~*

woohoo~Yuletide's in the air

the christmas atmosphere is here! advertisements with christmas themes are already adorning the daily papers. can't wait for christmas eve. can't wait to go "celebrate" in kl, can't wait to see the kl shopping malls' christmas decoration!!! i love going shopping malls during christmas because i enjoy the music they play, the decoration and the live performance by a string quartet. kyaaaa! actually, i would love to go some other places, like s'pore for christmas but $$'s the problem!

every year, during christmas, i'll ask mum to buy me christmas hats, christmas ornaments, santa's beard, mistletoe and christmas tree. i have the hat and the ornament, a treble but when i asked them to buy christmas tree, mum and dad would say, everytime, "buy for what? we are not christians, we do not celebrate also, so, what's the point". then when i asked again, they will say, "aiya, our house don't have space to accomadate the tree". then i told them that we can get a smaller tree, their answer, "aiya, later will collect lotsa dust!" ...=.= Ok...

my parents don't celebrate christmas, but i do! erm...in my own way lar..build my christmas wish list, listen to christmas songs(broadcasted on radio and tv) and getting myself a little gift.

speaking of my wish list: i want...
a Partridge in a Pear Tree
2 turtle doves
3 french hens
4 calling birds
5 golden rings
6 geese a laying
7 swans a swimming
8 maids a milking
9 ladies dancing
10 lords a leaping
11 pipers piping
12 drummers drumming

hahaha...kidding. influenced by the 12 days of christmas

i would love to have:
mistletoe
christmas jazz piano book
christmas jazz albums (jazz and blues are always special. christmas jazz is definitely better than the usual version, no?)
casio didital watch (puma also not bad, budden, i love the vintage look of fossil...oh! rolex's oyster perpetual! *greedy pig*)
canon digital camera
locittaine perfume
adidas bag & adidas shoes
stylish laptop bag
a pair of crocs & clarks
a super packet of imported chocolates & pepperidge farm's macademia chocalate chunks cookies.
christmas tree ( a small one to cheer up my study table^^)
john grisham's book
adobe creative suite 3
ticket to mpo
vacation to s'pore, thailand(despite the chaos), japan...
holiday cruise
dinner at the chilli's
ah! swim suit
diesel jeans
jumper(i've always wanted a knitted wear)
backpacking activities

my dear friends, if you happen to be reading this, this is my wish list..ehehehe. it's versatile, useful for christmas and birthday too. *wink* you do not need to crack your head thinking what to get for me.

i am thinking how long it takes to clear this list of mine before i grow more and more greedy, expanding my list like a list-maniac.

merry christmas in advance, dearie friends!


*humming off to a "Rudolph, the red nose reindeer" tune*