Her-story

move move move

2010-05-07T01:08:00.000+08:00

i 'm moving! to http://junkfoodheaven.wordpress.com

:)

on a boring sunday

2010-01-24T14:47:00.001+08:00

ah, sunday, sunday, sunday. such a sunny day. a good day to do your mounting laundry, take a stroll at the beach, basking in the sun, picnic in the park or escape into the coolness of shopping malls, spending on clothes, food and some unnecessary stuff and regret later, for spending too much money.

being the most uninteresting person in the world, i am spending all day within the four walls and eight corners of my room, sitting and typing with my right leg placed on top of the table. i've just realise, i have very few friends, but i am not going to sob about it la.

since i've been on hiatus for that long, and i am almost bored to death, might as well visit my own blog, read back what i've wrote so far, and write something, really something. when i first sign in for a blog account, i was hoping that by writing post regularly, my english and writing skill will improve. but so far, i don't see improvements and it seems my level has deteriorate. sigh.

a good writer is not him who uses thousands of bizarre words but rather him who uses his simple words but yet in a powerful and effective way.

on free days like today, i'll poke my nose on other people's blogs. but, somehow couldn't find the motivation to do it these days. too many kenny sia's and cheeserland's alike. sometimes i caught myself trying to write like them and i felt like screaming to myself, 'oi, you COPYCAT!!!' it works. i deleted my whole post soon after.

let me share this quote with you:
if you use the work of an author, it is called PLAGIARISM. but, if you use the works of several authors, it is called RESEARCH.

well, that brings a whole new meaning to research and plagiarism, isn't it?

and i also think my blog needs some renovation. it looks boring, sounds boring. i could fall asleep reading my own post. wth! i also need a specific topic for my blog so friends who read my blog are saved from having to hear my rantings and my frets. perhaps, i'll go for sex issues *hoho*. a friend lent me a book called urban tantra. maybe, after i read it, i can teach you guys how to have spiritual sex.

going short again

2010-01-09T02:16:00.005+08:00

it smelled like mushroom soup, seasoned with basil leaves and pepper, only, it didn't stimulate my appetite. rather, it cause me to feel nauseous. throughout the whole thirty minutes ordeal, my nose wrinkled, i am battling within my inner self, trying to console myself. i hate having extreme chemicals on my hair and i was more displeased that she insisted on treating my hair. her reason was simple: i want a short haircut but my hair is awesomely thick and coarse that i will need trimmings more frequently, every 3 weeks? that crazy?treating makes my hair more manageable in that sense, give it some sleekness so that it stick as close as possible to my scalp thus preventing some fly-away hair from jutting out, she said.

although the customers are always right, i couldn't bring myself to tell her, "can you just cut my hair short, just like how i would love it to be?" and i couldn't find any other reasons to say NO partly because she's the hairdresser and she knows best. partly because i respect her opinion as a hairdresser. for years, friends and other hairdressers i had been to suggested only rebonding which i rejected immediately. surely they are right about this technique being able to tame my hair down but unbeknown to them is why i choose not to go for rebonding. many perceive that it is just my sheer obstinatinacy-unwilling to face the fact that my hair is unruly. however, my opinion of the best solution for my hair is getting suitable haircuts rather than to go against my natural hair texture.

this lady, whom though i sometimes think is trying to cash out from me, is the only hairdresser who cuts my hair according to my face shape and hair texture and, she's my favourite hairdresser so far.

and there, snip snip snip. the almost-shoulder-length-hair i have been trying to keep long since last year was chopped off. and i was glad that it was done. having hair cut is what i enjoy a lot that i couldn't understand why some girls cry when their pony tails are snipped off. i mean, hair do grow back again. even if it takes a very long time to grow it back, it will still grow back. my head feel so much lighter now. and my head is the shape of oval now. before, it is square! can you imagine that bulkiness?

though i was aiming for the pixie look, my current hairstyle is not very pixie-ish and i think it is not short enough. but it suits me. cater to my laziness and messiness. oh, i just love short hair. if you have thick coarse hair and diamond/oval shape face, don't hesitate to chop your hair short. even better, if you have long neck and delicate eyes and nose. for me, i have neither slender neck nor pretty eyes, and my nose is broad, but i am quite satisfied. it's comfortable.

as usual, after each haircuts, my mum will give me comments-whether i want it or not. when i came back from the salon, she was quite delighted to see me, i think i saw some glints of approval in her eyes, and that's good. eight hours later, she told me my hair looks ugly! she prefers mine long. what a lovely lady my mum is!

dad was hoping that her daughter will be more lady-like, wearing long hair, and skirts. sorry dad, i prefer short for now. and, better tomboy then ladette isn't it?

2009

2009-12-31T00:24:00.018+08:00

it's soon the time for beers, chips, fireworks and a massive countdown downtown again. it is unbelievable. has time gotten by this fast? have i been blinking too much? 364 days then, i was typing a similar post, dedicated for year 2009 and downed my very first (or two! ) bottle of liquor and i should have predicted that 364 days later, i'll be writing one last post before year 2009 ends.

2009 has been quite a memorable year for me. there's tears but it's mostly filled with good memories. just two months ago, pui shan and i were carving pumpkin for halloween and last semester break, we had a fun-filled trip to langkawi, kedah and penang. i have also been living quite healthily-went for badminton and swimming on tuesdays and fridays. yes, healthy unless you minus all the good food i've eaten this year-klang's famous bak kut teh, honey-glazed pork ribs, the highly praised taiwanese food in the gardens, and the nicely grilled, juicy cod fish and salmon fish of tao's cuisine.

my wallet is always in crisis, thanks to my growing appetite and indulgence in food. everyday my friends hear me grumbling about being fat-fat thigh, flabby arms, fat face, fat here, fat there, fat everywhere fat fat! poor this poor that poor my wallet! i am so irrational when it comes to food, i can be on a tight budget this month, but in the middle of it, you will see me cutting lamb chops in chillis, another day will have me sitting at the sushi bar, picking sushi and sipping green tea. with such lavish appetite, i doubt myself that i'll have enough to last the whole semester.

2009 is really a gastronomic year. ahhh!

sigh, with 2009 coming to an end, i suddenly realise that my white digital casio watch is now 1 year old! looking at the watch now, it is as if i am watching a film that's reeled backwards.

i am quite reluctant that this is the last day of 2009, but we must move on! looking forward to a good year ahead. 2010, welcome. i am prepared for you.

a toast to 2010. woohoo!

of her facebook obsessions and confessions

2009-11-08T14:30:00.015+08:00

"social utility that connects you with the people around you”

***

prologue:

well, as much as i hate to admit it, i am quite amused with facebook. it's already been integrated into my routine. every time i surf the internet, i'll surely, inevitably type in facebook.com (i dun save facebook in my bookmark, just in case i could still be cured off the facebook syndrome) in the first tab and other matters come next. but, this post is actually triggered by a particular topic started in the famous facebook, which in turn, revoked my love-hate relationship with FFB (you are free to percieve the abbreviation) or any social networks of the like. so, you read and tell me if i hate or love facebook. thank you.

where should i begin? ah, right.

#1: friends in friendster-friends or not?

remember the chatting channels, ICQ and MIRC? remember ICQ's signature "uh-oh"? they hold such a nostalgic value in my memory. a memory of my teen years. like all other teenagers of my time, i grew up using icq and then mirc. but, after a year, i ran out of topics and decided that i would not be using icq and mirc again. then, comes along the frienster. soon, friends were talking about adding friends and sending testimonials to each other. i was curious. how could you not tell what you feel and what you want to say to your friends face to face, but choose to write all that in friendster, which requires more work and effort.

out of curiosity and undeniably, the popularity, i signed up an account and i have since became a victim of friendster. before long, i found myself checking out everybody's profiles and pictures while condemning those who lock their profiles as private. *damn, this guy is handsome. i wanna see his pics/ kedekut betul!* i even checked to see if people actually writes in my testimonial box. that's also the starting of the narcissism in me.

one of the most interesting fact in friendster is the number of friends you have. the friendly count is a measure to your own popularity. basically, the more, the better. if the count is 10, it means you are a newbie, judging from the date you registered. if you are in for a long time, but your count of friends is still between 20-30, it means you are not so popular. translation: you are not the pretty/handsome type that people feel you should be worthy of knowing. on the good side, you can invade people's privacy more then yours being invaded. if you have up to 400 friends, your popularity is rate #2. translation: you are the beautiful type/macho type. constitution of friends probably your old school mates, your collegues, your bf/gf's friends, and someone who thinks both of you have the same interest. if your count exceeds 400 to uncountable that some needs to open a few more friendster accounts, bravo. your popularity is un-questionable. probably, you are one hot/dashing/handsome/sexiest person alive. and your friends probably consist of your old school mates, your collegues, your bf/gf's friends, your bf/gf's friends' friends, and yadda yadda yadda. i doubt that this particular popular person even stay in touch with 80% of the friends in his libraries.

as you might have guessed, my count of friends falls between the range of 20-40. but, BUT, i do not have anything against these beautiful people out there. this is just a mere opinion, not biased or prejudiced. in fact i have a confession to make. i was one of those people who envy about the high count and who gets excited when someone sends in a friend request. even though i do not add people randomly but i admit that i did accept the friend requests-me and my twisted principle.

an embarrassing piece to leak: i even edited my friendster profile two or three times to make it look "friendly" and "cool", all for the sake that it would catch some attention. now, looking back at the profile, i felt like puking. blerggghh! elaborating further will only have me dying of "geli-ness".

#2: facebook-starts with the letter F too!

so, it's the era of facebook, said a friend. whatever happens to friendster? is it joining the icq-mirc league? but, never mind that. facebook is much much more cooler and nicer then friendster. it's the in thing now. it's like a drug. you can get pms if you were denied access into facebook.

the term facebooking is a netlingo now but who knows, in the long run, it's a legal word and you can search it in dictionaries. perhaps something like this:

facebooking verb
/ˈfeɪs.bʊk.ɪŋ/
the act/process of logging into facebook, [copy-paste tagline] and indulging in its various activities such as restaurant city, pet society, happy farm town, updating and commenting on status, uploading pictures and videos; and etc.
E.g: She was facebooking in the lab when the lecturer wasn't looking.

truthfully, i enjoy facebooking very much. i think restaurant city is pretty childish but i am childish enough to play it. without fail, i water my plants next to my restaurant, feed my workers, answer the quizzes, visit my next-door-restaurateur and the next next next to see if i missed out my chance to collect free ingredients and redecorate my restaurant when my restaurant is profitting. wtfish!

reading friends' status and comments has been a favourite pastime too. nothing entertains more than reading these. commenting is even more entertaining. you can choose to agree, or to disagree or sometimes to black-humour someone. *evil evil grin*

the thing with facebook is that it is quite the same as friendster. the problem arises here. so-called friends aren't even sincere about befriending you. there is a reason why they added you. agree? well of course there are always some exceptions. but if you add this person, maybe you can get free ingredients if you are visiting his restaurant for the first time or what? (i only play restaurant city) no harm right? that's the whole point of facebook.

and oh boy! i do love the quizzes. 'naff said.

although facebook isn't really personal or claimed to be getting less personal, it has been a source of entertainment to me.

epilogue:

my writing here is not to prove that facebook is a piece of useless junk. no, of course! and i think i need to take facebooketamol pills to ease my fever.

time has it's own way of softening the rough edges. i can almost imagine myself chuckling at all those silly comments made and the bombs threw at each other in a very long long long time to come. i think this is what that defines part of our early 20s. oh, gosh. i am laughing now!

*this post is something i had in mind sometimes ago, but with many thoughts dissipating away in the end. as much as i enjoy writing this, i hope you enjoy reading it too (if there's someone :))*

academic slides vs blog posts

2009-11-08T00:56:00.010+08:00

academic slides: read me! read me! exam coming soon. this monday!
blog post: eh, i just arrived in the blog. check me out. i am very interesting.

academic slides: oh, read me first. i am of higher priority. needs to go into processing first.
blog post:oh, i won't take a lot of time. don't worry.

academic slides:don't fall for that! First-in-first-out concept! i came in first. i've been in the queue 2 minutes ago.
blog post:shortest job first! remember. i have minimum turnaround and service time.

ah. ok. the blog post wins. "reading blog post" thus went into execution. *imagine abba's "the winner takes it all" playing in the background.*

***

after reading the post, the eye found another interesting post and thus fired up a new message to the brain.

again the battle between the slides and the post begins:

academic slides:it's my turn now! yay!
blog post2: you know i can be done in a jiffy, don't you? besides, a few more minutes won't hurt. that academic slides is boring!

sigh. fall prey to blog post again. ok. just one more. last. *"the winner takes it all" playing in the background again*

***

well, the loop goes on and on without terminating. the academic slides are now suffering from starvation. its existence in the queue is shrinking, forgotten and insignificant.

insignificant? that's a sad word.

i should implement the round robin that distributes processing time equally among requesting processes. eh, but wait! round robin might not be that efficient all the time.

so after all, priority-based scheduling is the best option now. sigh. i always ignore priority. that's always my problem. intensive focusing class in need.

if only the slides are in comic form. i'll be able to read once and remember for a long time. :)

quotable quotes

2009-10-12T16:35:00.003+08:00

"The greatest tragedy in life is people who have sight, but no vision."

Helen Keller

All that jazz and electrifies

2009-10-09T05:21:00.009+08:00

Simply Jazztronicked!

i am in the impulse of rushing to rock corner in Gardens, for cd shopping again after listening to FreeTEMPO. hard not to, especially when 4shared.com is blocked [again] and i fail to bypass the proxy.

anyway, i think i might have a thing towards music produced by dj's, but not the overly hyped type, of course! to name one, clazziquai, a fantastic project by a korean dj whose genres are a mixed of groovy, classical, jazz, electronic, house and some bossa nova. on the other hand, FreeTEMPO which is initiated by japanese dj takeshi hanzawa fuses jazz and electronic and most of its music blends in some element of sway, lightness and some kind of "wanna-break-free". schweet. i love the album covers' concept alot. imaginative and vintage looking, like one of those laser discs i used to see in music stores.

to be fair, i think some of the pieces sound familiar to each other-mostly played around one main theme and style or start with a similar rhythm but given a different twist while developing. redundant they may sound but one can still make out the difference between two pieces. the only thing ordinary about FreeTEMPO albums which matches the other albums out there would be this fact: "in every album, there will be only one most distinguished track". haha, i can't deny that favouritism is hard to avoid.

simply put, FreeTEMPO delights me. the first track i listened to should be immaterial white. this makes great listening because it feels fresh, something different from the usual tracks played in my player. speaking of the media player, my music library is expanding exponentially, consisting of musicians whom i've never heard of until i downloaded their albums and savour their music.

how irony can that be? these musicians are internationally renown and yet we have no idea! and to add to that matter, it is almost impossible to find their albums in regular music stores here. perhaps, their fame is only defined among the jazz musician community and people who have been avid fan of the genre. one thing, malaysians are generally good jazz musicians. some of the malaysian band i heard in youtube is really amazing.

some of my favourites:
mercedes benz mixed tape-compiles works of new and promising musicians. genres-jazz, nu-jazz, tri-hop, soul, folk song, indie, house, lounge

hotel costes-i've only manage to download the 2nd and the 10th album. thumbs up for lounge and chill-out.

kenny-g -ahh...classic. who would've not know him? jazz, of course!

michael buble-nice voice, and good looking too. haha

ryuichi sakamoto-ahh, this man is genius. can't describe him. during my internship i listened to his forbidden colours everyday, every minute and second, for 2 continuous week. it's like caffeine. can't do without it. yeah, i was that crazy then.

clazziquai-korean music. thumbs up.

norah jones-i don't really have her songs in my list but i listened to her few songs and quite like it. she's really a jazz pianist.

yundi li-ok! this one is not jazz pianist. he's a classical pianist. virtuoso pianist.

i sense the list is growing and growing. it's always like that. once you browsed for one particular musician, you will inevitably stumbled across another musician. and it makes me itchy all over.

*scratch scratch*

random thoughts

2009-09-22T01:20:00.011+08:00

"mei, i've got a bad news to tell you"

it was 12.45 pm, when i was boarding the intercity train. my heart pounded at a faster rate hearing such words escaping from my mum's mouth and expressed in such a gravely tone. oh, God! i hope it has nothing to do with the family.

***

"uncle C just passed away this morning."
mouth gaped open, unable to register.
"who, u said?"
"uncle C. we are on our way to malacca now."
i was shocked. i couldn't imagine aunt C, cousin j and y's feelings.

***

on his last day, uncle C was excited about making a trip back to perak for a gathering and a celebration. he bought lots of malacca products-biscuits and noodles.

in his last 30 minutes, he chatted over the phone, happily, discussing about where we are going for dinner.

on his last minute, he was lying on his bed. perhaps, he never knew that his wife was frantically calling his name and shaking his arms, or how he was sent to the hospital.

in the wee hours of saturday, he was free from all the heavy medications and his pains.

***

suddenly, i felt that life is extremely short and unpredictable. not that i am not aware of the fact, but just that, i've never really feel it this deeply before. the termination in the human world could be that sudden. death is part of the life cycle, inevitable but it still feels as if it's a taboo word in my vocabulary.

suddenly, i feel like hugging my parents. i felt thankful that my family are still here. i can still hear their voices- sis's frantic voice, my parents' nagging, read those rude (at times, haha) smses from my brother and feeling their warmth. i think i should gather with my family more often. one never know when things'll start changing.

what if one day, i met with an accident or i died in my sleep, will i be regretful, that i've not live my life to the fullest, done anything meaningful and had not a single accomplishment? gosh! i gotta start now!

sometimes, i wonder how would a person feel when he discover that he is semi-transparent (let's assume souls are transparent like the movie makers do), floats instead of walking, and when he's starring at his own body like those near-death-experiencers claimed to have experienced. hmm, perhaps to the deceased, death is a new beginning for them.

being able to wake up every morning, to the chirps of the birds, the cock-a-doodles, to the buzzzzzz of the alarm clock and knowing that the person dearest to you are still with you is really wonderful.

i shall wake up everyday feeling grateful.

sentimentalist's silent night

2009-09-19T00:38:00.003+08:00

it's so quiet that you can even hear the alarm clock's arm moving and ticking, the sound of the swishing fan, the sound of a pin drop and you will notice even the tiniest rustle of the bin bag at the corridor as the cat digs in for food. the silence of the night is occasionally broken by fire-crackers exploding in the dark and starless sky.

it's a still and breezy night.

here i am,randomly typing (and also continuously backspacing) while looking out into the darkness of the night, lighten up by pin-pricks of lights. everything seems slow today, as if time has frozen. as if, the whole residential college is owned by me, only me. a few days before, laughter and the sound of slippers slapping on the floor could be heard from every dimension. today, i miss the music that blasted off yee ling's speakers.

it's indeed a quiet night.

i walked down the corridor of level 3 earlier, hoping to hear and detect signs of civilisation, well, accept for the cat. to my un-surprise, my room is the only one that displays excessive usage of electricity (powering my laptop, charging cellphone, boiling water for milo and charging my mp3 simultaneously).

it's weird. on such a quiet environment, i am still energetic. unable to sleep. i was totally indulging in the music enchoing through my new sonic gear earphones. i once complained that it's not superb enough to deliver the kind of sound quality i wish to hear. but today, in the complete quietness, it works amazingly, the bass lines are clear and the sound does not sound as if it is spreading randomly. my recommendations: the best genres to listen to with good speakers and earphones on such a breezy night-jazz, chillout and bossa novas, over a cup of hot and steaming coffee or probably a bottle of wine, nibbling on cheese crackers.

such night is to be indulged.

not entirely bored. partially delightful.

quiet is gold.

happy holiday, folks!

of laptop, coffee bean, convocation & glam night

2009-08-15T10:05:00.005+08:00

a cold war has been ensued between my toshiba laptop and me, which means i am deprived of my daily facebook-ing and my random surf, which also means that i am now spending more time reading then clicking, which also means i sleep earlier and although i still wake up late, my liver, lungs and colon are definitely healthier nowadays.

that just showed the impact of the internet and technology in my lifestyle. i used to poke fun at my friends who love scrubbing their pets in pet society, everyday, without fail until one day, when i started using facebook to kill boredom. and, i turned into a facebook addict. minus the facebook, i still spend most of the hours reading blogs and visiting random sites. it's weird, you know. sometimes, you spend so much time with the internet, up to the point you don't even know what you want to surf for anymore, but then, you just refuse to let go off your mouse.

ok. end of the introduction.

happy! yes, i am happy to be able to hijack yee ling's desktop. muaahahhahaa!

*****

the fact is i miss my laptop a lot. and it's kaput, just when i have so much to say, and, i don't have anywhere to channel all my thoughts and expressions. a lot of things happen within this short period of time, including the worsening h1n1 pandemic that "granted" us with the unexpected 1 week break, the day where i finally decided to try surfing the net in coffee bean and that same day was the day where my laptop started to get cranky. imagine this, you are in coffee bean, there's two ang mohs typing swiftly and their laptops are those of the cool and super-minis, and then, you found out that your laptop fails to operate, so you ended up pushing the laptop's power button 5 to 6 times only to see those horrible and painfull sight of vertical multicolour stripes on the screen, and then, you heard the customer behind you talking about h2n2 virus, acer and sony laptops-computing stuff. paiseh kan?

*****

the convocation. one of the happenings in upm recently. it's happening because it's the grandest event for all the graduates and secondly, it has caused traffic jam in upm main campus.

i like to see the seniors in their marroon robes. i especially like it when graduation caps are tossed high up in the air. it feels triumphant and successful.

bouquet of flowers with graduating teddies were everywhere. gift shops are on economic boom and are happily making profits out of juniors and family members around these few months, every year.

if you notice one thing very special in my uni is that, the malays love to have picnics here. it's a trend, i think. when i first came in to upm, i saw a lot of malay families spreading blankets, with tubs of food- i guess sambal sotong, fried noodles and syrup-some on the parking space and some on available green spots. i am truly amazed by this culture-the family bonding.

happy and proud parents, and close friends, waiting to snap pictures with the graduates-this adds to the cheerfullness and excitement of the event. it's a moment filled with warmth.

to my direct senior and to my sis who will be walking down the aisle to receive her scroll today in unimas, congratulations!

*****

yes, i still have more to express here. something about yesterday's event, our course night. the theme was "a night we gather, a lifetime we remember"-quite a meaningful phrase and the dress code was smart and beauty, but i think "smart and beauty" is the theme, more likely because the guys and the girls (or should i use ladies?) really dressed up well for the occasion. everyone is looking good in their own styles. the juniors really shocked us. what a glamorous batch! all dressed to kill.

with the help of my dearie coursemates, i finally own my first dinner dress. my gratitude goes to tzy chun, especially for enduring with my pickiness when it comes to clothings. if i have a stylist, my stylist will surely go bald for constantly tugging and scratching his hair whenever i rejected the dresses he chooses for me. know why? if you pick a dress with multicolours and abstract patterns, i'll tell you that the dress looks like my house curtains or my bedsheet. if you pick a dress with flutter sleeves, i'll tell you that i hate the sleeves. i don't think i am cut out for these sleeves. i like only polo t-shirts and jeans and bermuda shorts, and crocs (crocs are uglily beautiful!). therefore, i admit, i am quite monotonous, it's either black or white or checked pattern when it comes to preferences for dresses.

still, i wore a black dress and for the first time ever, i think i really dressed accordingly to the dress code. it's ok. wearing a dress is not as terrible and horrifying as i first thought. therefore, no regrets in buying that dress. it's a tad too expensive for a non-earning student, but it's worthfull. the fabric is nice and of good quality, but what's important is that, i felt happy wearing it. i may not look very pretty in the dress, but it's comfortable and i felt confident when i was wearing it. it feels not that bad being a girl. yesterday, i really thought that being a girl is wonderful: girls get to wear beautiful dresses. [though i don't behave like one. hohoho]

oh, my dear sis! hurry up! get a good guy and get married quick! so that your little sister can still wear that dress of hers for a second time before she generates more fat.

sigh, why does the clock ticks so fast when it's fun time?

*****

talk less is better

2009-07-22T15:08:00.005+08:00

for people like me, who couldn't stir up good topics, use proper terms and blend well in conversations.

for that, i am extremely grateful that i have a blog where i can pour all my emotions and true colours without causing much anger. the computer and the keyboard will not snap at me when i input in something riddiculous, unlike humans. you've got to be so carefull with what you are saying everyday, to ermmm...humans. (yeah, i am one too, and i am extremely sensitive)

so if i can reduce my display of naiveties, my childishness and nonsensicalness and rate of annoyances by talking less, than be it. i will try to keep my absurdity to myself. and, a mental note to myself, keep those "low class" comments to yourself.

i will try to accomplish this.

*ahhhh...i feel much better now!*

the thing with z

2009-07-11T03:00:00.004+08:00

i wonder why people like to add 'z' at the end of certain words?

last time, i thought adding z to a word makes you sound cool. the word that is dull looking seems to feel more futuristic when it has a z attached to it. i remember my friend's email, something like ...kidz@hotmail.com. it gave me the impression of someone outgoing and active. someone who has a drive for creativity. and then, i started to put z's in all my forum login names because i thought that that's the trend. but, after a few months, i grew bored of the z's.

unlike, e-bill, e-ticket, i-phone, ipod, i-fridge, adding a z to daily expressions is nothing more than a word deco. how on earth did these words-haihz, aihz, lolz, nitez, sienz, heyz, frenz sprout out?

"sien" means boring, in cantonese. sienz is no different from sien, just an extra z there.
who actually invented this z culture? how it become so famous among these few generations and well used in facebook and msn? i have to admit that, i am sometimes annoyed by the overusage of the letter (pms mah!).

imagine your whole conversation over the msn peppered with lots of z's.
will it sounds like this:
a : heyz!
b : heyz! whazzup?
a : kinda sienz here...
b : haihz
a : aihz, me too...
b : lotsa assignmentz to do
a : haihz...hahahahahaz. me too. ganbatte nehz.
b :gtg, ta. wanna catch baywatch
a :lolz. wakakakaz. k. nitez.

? i know it's a lousy conversation. does anyone actually chat like that?

money sucker

2009-07-06T15:24:00.005+08:00

who else can it be? my residential college la!!!

yes! yes! yes! it's you!

every new semester, you suck my purse dry. forcing me to buy your so-called "college-package" consisting of an awful looking college-t, a merit book and a buku panduan.

i thought i could have hide my money from you but then, i failed. you are more cunning than i thought. i fell into your trap.

no doubt that the college-t is of better material this semester, but what's the use if you keep on printing large amount of oversized t-shirts (last year they gave me a XXXL because that's the only size left!) and using the same design for the past two years?

here, let me show you my college-t. the beautiful and improved college-t:

pretty, ain't it?

ah...there goes 15 meals.

when you are getting older

2009-06-25T09:26:00.008+08:00

of late, i keep on reminiscing into the past, ah, the good ole' days, how energetic and carefree we used to be. jumping on the bed, the impersonating-super-heroes-days, draping yourself with a blanket while pretending to be the white halloween ghost, playing hide and seek where underside of the bed and the wardrobe are the two worst location for hiding.

and, do you ever remember that whenever you were listening to backstreet boys, 911 and bands of that sort, how your mum will ask you to lower down the volume? she will keep on saying that these "new" bands produce more noise than music and you will try to defend your musical taste while bombarding their beloved oldies.

today, you will, occasionally find yourself humming to one of those old tunes from your parents' era and sometimes you sigh and curse those loud noise, the ones with the singer screaming and yelling and yelling and yelling and forever yelling. then, when you get your own laptop and mp3 player, you start ripping all your parents' ABBA cd, the Carpenters and the like. well, i still like jay chou and lee hom but their old albums are still the best. haha. imagine 20 years later, you comment to your child that his favourite artists' songs' sucks and lousy, i think he would be responding to you just like how you responded to your mum 30 years back then!

oh, and you will find the actresses and actors in taiwan dramas, k-dramas and j-dramas getting younger and younger, cuter and damn handsome! *awwww* this applies notably to taiwan dramas and k-dramas where all the pretty boys left the female audiences swooning. in 20 years to come, maybe you will watch less dramas because you couldn't bear to look at those young and beautifull actresses anymore without having the thought of taking botox to make yourself looking like 22 again!

and, you also start to dislike fast food. given a choice, you'd not have kfc or mc donalds for dinner (oh, but mc donalds's sundae is creamy!). you start to enjoy restaurants or cafe with a certain ambience that fits your mood. what i mean here is more like us indulging in finer arts.

on birthdays? well, i think most girls (or should i say ladies?) still enjoy their birthday surprises but frown and shudder at the thought of the digits. your cake no longer reads the plain old "happy birthday!". instead it reads "getting older? wakakaa" or "for the 30 yo girl". or, you start to think of names for your birthday friend just to annoy her/him.

sometimes, you enjoy the company of your closest friends but on some days, you'd just love to be left all alone by yourself, secluding yourself at a corner of your room listening to quiet music. you start to appreciate the quietness, the loneliness, and the tranquillity. you like to be alone doesn't mean that you hate to be around people.

health consiousness certainly comes into you. you start checking the ingredients of the products before buying them despite not understanding most of the chemical terms used. just pretend you understand will do lar! hahaha!

oh, yeah and fashion! you start shaking your head and tsk-ing whenever you see teenagers wearing what seems to be like a pair of fish nets and very low-cut shorts, matched with shocking pink pumps. or, sometimes, you find yourself praising how well dressed some girls are, while you are wearing something that makes people think that you have not been updating your wardrobe for yonks.

one obvious thing is that, you keep on thinking of your childhood, wishing and hoping that you could turn back the time, like me. and, you are nodding in agreement with me while reading these or if you disagree with me, maybe that just prove that i am much older than i thought. oh, dear!

brooding over growing old does not mean i do not appreciate life. being older means having your own say to things and matters, control over your own belongings, social activities and your thoughts maturely. what's more important is growing old gracefully, happily and living life to the fullest.

hm...i think i wanna live with less hatred but with more love and forgiveness.

talented?gifted?

2009-06-23T09:37:00.007+08:00

someone quoted this over the net :

"talent is earned, it is not a gift"

this phrase totally caught me. many a time, we come the conclusion that we are simply "un-gifted" or untalented when we find it impossible to perform as brilliantly as the "gifted" ones. well, for example: watching jay chou's piano battle. we were totally awed by his skills and speed, and by how he managed to get over those quick passages so effortlessly. weren't we? but then, we tend to forget the hardship these people underwent before they reach to their current stage, how they dutifully practice the cherzny and hanon finger exercises, how they practice their scales to perfection. they earned their skills and fast fingers, through years of practice and perseverance.

once, a teacher lent me a book "dare to fail",and, i particularly remember this famous person (oh, whom i can't remember his name, sorry ><) who likened his success which we now see, to the tip of an iceberg whereas his failures and hardships, likened to the remaining 9/10 of the iceberg remains submerged under the water.

it's the problems and hardship that keep us strong and brings out the potential in ourselves. everyone is just as talented and gifted in their own ways.

duet

2009-06-16T14:30:00.002+08:00

duet is nice and fun.
hey, kit nyin, i found a new duet piece for both of us!!!

forbidden colours

2009-06-15T11:52:00.006+08:00

i fell in love. it's wonderful.

it started when these soft and delicate notes echoed their ways into my ears, whispering sweet melodies that caused me to shiver. the sparkly notes sent my soul wandering through the clouds, searching for something unknown. what would i be looking for? i am longing for more.

through the echoes, i see a girl wondering, alone in the quietness of the dark, when the church bells chime from afar, causing the ripples in the calm stream. as the ripples develop, the darkness disappears gradually. the arpeggios...

i felt a rush of emotions. it was painful, bitter and sweet at the same time. i felt happy and sad. my heart is aching but yet i enjoy it. the gumption and all. i am so drowned in it.

forbidden colours, huh? why though? i wonder. sometimes, i find myself lost in words when it comes to defining my own interpretations of such pieces. the words are swirling in my head but i just couldn't spew them out. too nice and great a piece, i am awed.

trully a music from the heart.

#thanks to the man who composed this wonderful music, ryuichi sakamoto. #

day 15 & day 16

2009-05-19T16:19:00.003+08:00

monday, day 15-we are now entering a new phase, implementation phase, where lots of codings will be involved. the period allocated for this phase is 6 weeks. but, our interface looks too simple and blank. so, we are still thinking of a way to fill out those blank areas, with functional objects. after all, we are building the system for the use of landscape of landscape and design, where design will be given emphasis. so, that means, we are still not "launching" into the next phase. to make matter worse, our presentation is scheduled to be at 0900 on tuesday. we were not ready on many things. but, due to some circumstances, the presentation was postponed to next month, i heard or, did i hear wrongly? never mind, that should buy us some time, though i am not sure if we will be able to produce spectacular interface by then. low productivity. my heave of relieve too, that i don't need to pass up my log book yet. i have not written anything yet, since day 1!

dinner was superb. reheated the dishes packed by mom on sunday. delicious. the taste of homecook food flooded my heart once more. missing home and parents more nowadays. never felt that way before.

tuesday, day 16-supervisor not available for the day! so, yeahhhh! i think i'll continue my work and updating my log book in my room. so far, i've written for only 4 days and is already facing some crisis now. nothing more left to crap about in the book. duh!

*when will friday arrives?*

day 14

2009-05-17T00:30:00.002+08:00

it was friday, the 15th of may. i kept glancing at the clock, watched as it's hands ticked slowly. my heart was feeling very rushed and unsettled. why oh why, does the time passed so slowly today? it's friday! FRIDAY!!! i wanna go home! never had i miss home so much.

throughout the whole day, i couldn't concentrate on my work. my browser tabs showed jsp tutorials, xml and etc but in fact, my soul had wandered to some far-far-away-land. when will it ever be 5pm?!

anyway, putting aside the homesickeness episode, it's already the last day of the interface design phase. however, there is some problem regarding the interface and the menu. and we still have not done the tabbings yet. maybe, we should just go with simple tabs that do not involve java scripts. not looking good.

now, i start to apprehend why my aunt always said the same "fond-words" to us while we were still in secondary school. the responsibilities and burdens are slowly climbing up.

also, i started to appreciate the "home-sweet-home" phrase. there's no place better than your home and family. my house and family is where my heart is. when i am looking for relaxation, i'll think of home, when i need entertainment, i think of the piano at home. when i miss mom and dad (miss those fights and arguments...haha), i'll think of home.

now that i am back in my shell of comfort, i felt that time ticks freakingly fast. in a glimpse, it's already saturday and next, sunday, and next? worrrkkkk...duh!

i guess human is greedy in nature. 2 days of holiday are just not enough.

#frankly speaking, i wish the other fridays will arrive fast. 7 weeks is enough. more than enough.#

day 12 & day 13

2009-05-14T13:46:00.002+08:00

by this week, everyone is starting to feel the heat of the training (and from the sun too). you will see tiredness, laziness, boringness, holiday-sickness, homesickness and all kinds of negative emotions. 3 weeks feels very longggggg. each day, i counted the remaining weeks left for training, the number of working hours i need to endure before i finally call it a day and rejoice with my bed.

the best day i had was tuesaday. a lot of positive things happened(minus a few negatives). i saw someone unexpected! and, i had a heart-to-heart talk with mmay. it's always nice to have someone to talk to. besides, sis called that afternoon saying that she will be back by the night flight.

thrilled is the word that best describe me now, as i type these words. i am happy that it's friday tomorrow. i've always love fridays. i am going home tomorrow! and, i wanna play the piano! i wanna eat mum's homecook meals! i wanna go for steamboat!

ehem...i realise i am now abit SS, but oh, yeepeeeeeee!!!

so, 3 more hours to go. duh!

for day 10 and day 11

2009-05-12T10:00:00.004+08:00

still working on it. very clueless on many things. i kept on thinking that the project would be easier to handle if only i paid attention in java and database class. i hope i'll gain something after this, or else the 10 weeks will be a futile effort.

the last trip to pahang with mien may was nice and enjoyable. her family is very generous. i had to say i ate quite a lot during my stay with them. i'll remember the simple meat-wrapped-in-egg dish. i love it tremendously. not exaggerating. also, not forgotten, the astro channel! kbsw! wah lai toi! and that spooky series-the strange tales of Liao Zhai! i would love to express my gratitude towards their generosity and great hospitality here.

during my stay, i found a lot of resemblance between mien may's family and mine. her mum's styles are just like my mum's. her dad's are like mine. i started to miss home, miss my sis and bro. sometimes, i think i dare not go home because i am scared that i'll have to leave again in the sunday afternoons.

there were days, when i went into total depression, weeping silently during lunch (lucky that no one's around at that time). i was having too many thoughts, negative mostly, missing home, worrying about the project which seems to progress slower than ever, being lonely without some close friends and etc. i really hate myself for being a pessimist, weak and slow.

well, i think that will be all for today. oh, God! i pray to thee that thou will shower me with courage and perseverance and that thy child would be more optimistic. (very shakespeare-nt?)

day 8 and day 9

2009-05-08T12:43:00.004+08:00

#can i do it?#

yesterday, a friend told me in her own subtle way that i complain too much and i don't have much initiative, after i launched my episodes of bad results, bad cgpa and unhappy training. i couldn't take it very well, at first but later at night, i started to feel a lot of what she said about me.

not exactly inspiring, and not exactly the way i would like to be comforted but at some point, it's true that i need to get out of my comfort zone.

but, one thing i disagree with her is that to let myself handle the tasks all by myself. i am not willing to let a group tasks being renamed into "individual tasks". and, i really would like to try to trust my group members despite how i always bad-mouth them. another reason is that, i don't know whether i can handle it alone. or, should i?

anyway, updates on my training. like i said, the supervisor's nice. she gave us too many hints and is strict at the same time. but, the guy just would not take it nicely. she already said not to use power point, TWICE. and, he kept doing it. by then, i was already too "dead" to "sound" him.

so, the interface's still NOT ready yet. the supervisor was a bit like " ... ". you know what i mean.
i don't think they will ever bring their work home with them. ah, that's just healthy.

as for me, i am looking forward to going to pahang this evening. maybe i should do a schedule like, when i'll go sight-seeing with mien may and when i should continue my work while in pahang since next presentation is due on tuesday. i can't bear to have the unbelievable-you-are-still-doing-the-same-page-since-friday look from the supervisor. i really hope not to dissapoint her too much, yeah my parents and me too.

she(supervisor) said something that motivates me a while..haha..(ya, i don't stay motivated for long). "your academic result does little matter, it's your skills that counts".

so, wish me luck that i will be positive for the next 8 weeks and the following.

till then, cheers from me.

#see, i am writting less gloomy stuff!#

a moment break from all the shit

2009-05-07T08:41:00.003+08:00

You Need Friends to Be Happy

You are a friendly, social person. You seek out connections and relationships.
Being close to others is very important to you, and you don't like discord.

You feel great when you're cooperating and working with others. You enjoy belonging to a group.
Nothing makes you feel worse that feeling alone or alienated. You want to be liked by those around you.

found this "what makes you happy" survey. since, i am already so mellow everyday, i wanna find out what's my problem and it turns out...hahaha. true. a bit lonely here. i am looking forward to tomorrow's trip to pahang with mien may. i wanna get out from this place for a few days, absorb some positive energy, gain more confidence and trust in my teammates, have more motivation to push myself forward and lastly, have fun.

i miss my parents too. but everytime they call me, i have nothing much to say to them. nothing is more soothing then a bowl of homecook soup, and the constant nagging of my parents.

i miss the piano at home too. i wonder if she misses me?

i think i wanna get myself a pet hamster-if i am able to feed myself well.

day 7

2009-05-07T01:58:00.004+08:00

#i miss my friends and many little things#

the day started well. the presentation went well. the discussion session was informative but when it reached to the later part, my head started spinning, i could felt my brain being heavy-too dense with the information. (in the end, i couldn't store anymore, the new ideas just dissipate out from my brain.) i was actually glad that what i did was well commented by our supervisor. for once, i felt positive during training time. however, when time progressed, the day was ideal no more.

following the discussion on the database design, we went on to discuss about the layout of the interface. here's when the event took for a turn, nobody prepare or draft any designs on layout. i only managed to draft the login page and the overall layout the other day. because you can't just keep quiet, i proposed mine and, i forgot most of the features, some still undecided-not so perfect, i admit. but this is still ok. our supervisor gave us some ideas and show us some examples which she would prefer. still ok.

then...she asked "you tau buat jsp?" --------i answered "sedikit", the "girl" was silent, the "guy" gave a slight nod. (he was busy texting his friends)

next, she asked "you semua tau mysql dan database kan?" ------to this i gave a very unsure expression (ok! i memang sucks in database and programming), the "girl" (dunno...i didn't pay attention to her expression), the "guy" (still busy with his phone, occassionally glancing up-i really can't tahan him already by this time).

and by now, you should be able to imagine the expression of the supervisor. can't blame her. we are really too "genius". i know that she's not very please.

she kept asking us to learn throught the net. do some research on it. yeah, there's no choice now. she's already being so kind, willing to guide us in improving the database designs and share with us her codings for some basic structures. at some point, i really felt lucky that i am not training in a big private company-or i'll be able to expect what the outcome would be.

then another horror was discovered after the discussion. we were installing dreamweaver to the workstation, and she asked if we have experience using this program. the thing is, if you are an IT student, regardless of your major, you are bound to do projects or assignments which require you to build a simple system (i.e: hospital online appointment system, e-library...etc etc) using dreamweaver, at least 1 time. and, turns out our "girl" has no idea at all. sigh.

we call this "human factor". i know it is very bad to talk so unkindly of one person when you yourself is not even that great but sometimes some of these have to get out, before i burp every single detest to them. really, no matter how many times i tried to remind myself that everyone is capable in their own way, i can't deny that my unhappiness while i am with them is like a balloon waiting to burst! that's one thing i dislike about myself.

the more i think about it, the more pretentious i felt. spending precious day time smilling (and some scowls) at them, and talk badly about them later. i think i'll go to hell!

"you should stop complaining because complaining will not solve any problems".

Day 6

2009-05-05T14:59:00.002+08:00

#i start to look at the bright side of everything that happens#

i admit that i have been very ego and arrogant for the past few days. i have been very naive, have been complaining to too many people about my unhappiness and this has reflects how unadaptive i am. my selfishness and arrogance has cause myself "blind".

so, what's the sudden ray of sunshine?
nature. the 30 minutes walk from my hostel to my training place is definitely a healthy one-you get the morning air, breathe in the scents of the dried leaves around, the wet moss, the greens (minus the carbons released from the zooming motorcycles and cars)-which is good for the lungs and your eyes. on my way, i spied 3 squirrels in 3 different places, and i find the landscape of the mosque and the new building much more captivating then before. undeniable is the fact that the walk is long and a bit tiring but it is not that bad at all.

***on progress***
day 6- still pondering over the same set of problems and still updating the diagram. it's a good thing that we are able to discover the mistakes that we made and the important aspects that we have left out. however, alterations were made without confidence and only 0.5% of effort is involved. now, do you still call that improvement?

uhm..people make mistakes and learn from the mistakes they made. so, does that mean we are lucky that we still have a lot of room for learning and improvements?

currently, the team still lacks of motivation. everyone spends some time on the project but most of the time on their own business-in 1:3.

i wonder if my friends who are training in the private factor are facing a very strict policy.

Day 5

2009-05-04T20:27:00.002+08:00

#some positiveness today, but i am still worried#

we made some progress in database designing, albeit the unsure relationships between some tables and attributes. anyway, we did the diagram, and it looks convincing, and smart. there's still some problems concerning the tables that we built, some mild arguments between teammates but otherwise, this is a much better day compared to last week.

our supervisor will not be around until this wednesday and when she's back, we will have to present out progress and works to her and some other staff of the faculty. that is when the panic comes in. so far, we have only done the first diagram. there are still 2 other diagrams to be drawn and we need to design the interface already.

huh? today i am a bit tired. i think i am now writing a very lousy post.

yawn....yawn...pardon me...

Day 4

2009-04-30T13:11:00.006+08:00

#sorry, you gotta face it.#

i am really depressed. my application for a transfer had been rejected. looks like i will be stucked here for 10 weeks, will have to endure pointless discussions with my teammates. i dunno. after the phone call, i just can't help feeling very bitter. tears start swelling in my eyes. the coordinator is very nice but she just wouldn't permit my transfer despite how i reason with her.

**teammates**
i think i have a bit of issue with them.
this team is really unbalanced in terms of skills and expertise-all very blur (including me).
and some really have a different eye on "standard". you would think an ERD comes with attributes, but some just think attributes are unnecessary in ERD. the leader of the group himself is quite unsure of what he's doing and writing. (and he's an ex-dip! isn't he supposed to be good-or at least knowledgeable?!) i am not born a leader, so don't ask me to lead the discussion as i am more comfortable in giving opinions! and, despite me telling him that the two entity that has the same attributes should be grouped into one, he still seperates them. come on!!!

i have to say there are no cohesiveness and bonding in this group at all. i think part of the reason is that i don't feel like bonding too. so, my bad.

what i regret very much is that i couldn't choose the right choice - going under Dr. Fatimah's wing (working in FSKTM) and instead, i agree to a place so far from my hostel. i am sooooo stupid!!! so, practically, i am doomed here.

very unhappy here. negative.

"yeah, you are right. it's part of learning."

Day 3

2009-04-29T13:35:00.002+08:00

#one will think that i have nothing positive to say about my training.#

no progress yet. the malay trainee is absent. she had stomach cramp yesterday and i suppose she's still having it. the other trainee went out from 11:00 am till now. he will only be back after lunch hour, i presume. meanwhile, i had my butt glued to the chair, firmly and fingers fixed at the keypad. since internet connectivity here is good, i might as well make some good use of it-download movies. (but, where the heck should i find for free direct downloads?)

oh, i am dying to change faculty. not that i don't like it here or i have some unspoken issues with the other two, i just think that it is not too convenient for me to "travel" from my hostel to this faculty. too far. but, at the same time i do not have the courage to ask for a transfer. i fear that my coordinator would not permit the transfer (e.g: no available position for trainee in fsktm), and also, that will be very cruel to the other two trainees. 10 weeks is very short. despite me telling a friend that i decided to face the challenge, on and off, i am still thinking of the possibility. oh, boy! i must be very weak. i can't even bear for a week!

let's just see how. till tomorrow. or, i'll ring up my coordinator and ask for her opinion.

Day 2

2009-04-28T10:23:00.003+08:00

#sorry that i am not very cooperative#

*** what we did today ***
we had our first discussion. it's a good start. at least we are going through the first phase of the project. i can't say that we are very productive but nevertheless, we came up with something. from this discussion, i can see that everyone's attention is not at the right place. one is eager to get back into the air-conditioned lab-and that's me, another is eager to get off to town for his "minum" session and the last girl seems very busy. well, at least the second guy puts in initiative to start the discussion, jot down details and give opinions. i just couldn't bear with the last person. her cellphone keeps on ringing, and the ringtone's noisy. it's just annoying and irritating. can't she just put her phone into silent mode? i find it irritating when somebody distracts the discussion.

another thing is that we are all "going to different directions". we do not own the same goal. i mean disagreements do happen, in fact, all the time, in group discussion but this is somehow different. how should i put it? hm...never mind. maybe it's just me.

maybe i am the problem. i am the kind who talks big, but do little. i admit that.
i am also very dependent on my programming-expert friends, but that doesn't apply now. the girl doesn't even understand html despite her taking java classes with us. not wanting to sound ego, but really, i thought i am the weakest, and here, i really do not know whether i should feel relieved that i will not be intimidated by the geniuses, or i should be worried that our project will be a mess, worst-a failure. right now, i think it would be incredible, if we manage to deliver the result in the end. it's looking bleak.

i just hope that i'll "grow up" from this training, stop relying too much on people and starts putting words into action.

*** lunch ***
after the tiring and exhausting walk from the faculty to the old flat, i am an inch wiser now. my resolution to having a good and healthy lunch is to become a brown-bagger. i am bringing my own lunch box. so, yay! no longer need to waste energy and money. say no to smelly armpits. hahaha. well, decided to alternate between chocolate sandwich, scrambled-eggs and sardine. the only downside is that, i need to wake up earlier to prepare them. *grumble*

so, that's day 2 for me.

i'll try to look optimistic.

Industrial Training

2009-04-27T08:59:00.002+08:00

Day 1

well, i know it's too early to judge but really...

it's barely 10 in the morning and i am already yawning in the lab. i am really "thrilled" to spend the remaining 7 hours and 30 minutes here. the lab is very quiet and there's only 5 people in the lab, that all you will be able to hear is the sound of mouse clicks. terribly bored.

we were asked to develop an academic system for the landscaping and architecture faculty. it sounds somewhat like our database project, only harder, i guess.

but then, what makes it even boring is the fact that you are stucked right here, and not having any specific task to do, and the two coursemates you are working with are someone whom you never talk to during lecture classes. all you can do is pretend to surf the internet for more information of the new programming language that you are about to use, browsing some portals for references and looking through some tutorials which do not look like a tutorial at all!!! ok, occasionally, flipping tabs to e-buddy and blogspot to kill some boring. ya, right, not occasionally, frequently. oh, i know i don't have the right attitude and motivation.

i am not hungry but i can't help thinking of lunch break. anyway, one of the staff mentioned to us that there is only one kiosk that sell some light food, not really a cafe. so, totally not looking forward to the lunch hours, just wanna breath in some "new" oxygen.

***pause. a guy's coming over! quick change tab!!!***

ok..he's gone now...
so, he said he noticed that we (the three quiet trainees) are not speaking to each other. he thought that we come from different departments. he came over an chatted with us for a while, asking who's our supervisor and bla bla. meanwhile, i kept on [pretending to] mouse over those bold letters-PHP, to look as if i am concentrating, focusing. than this other guy came, and he said we can do whatever stuff we like today, there's no official assignments yet. so, no more pretending. anyway, they already know what we are up to.

i start to appreciate msn more now. it's nice to be able to exchange news with friends, especially the time when u are growing moss in the lab.

i think that should be enough for now. if i continue writing, i'll be able to produce a novel-length entry already with all the craps. and last word...i still wish that money grows on tree! haha

the thing is:

2009-04-24T16:48:00.003+08:00

#1
i was thinking how great it would be if i could write interestingly like the gossip girl from the tv series "gossip girl" does, turning everyone's nasty stories into delicious cakes-(preferably tiramisu)-"cakes" for tea time, meant to be savoured together with a perfect cup of steaming coffee. oh! i should stop this gossip-girl-wannabe! #

the assignments and my final exams have prevented me from nosing into people's blog, leave aside updating mine and i am glad to say that the pressure has now subside-a little. well, some is better than none. for the past few weeks, Sleep has become a rare luxury to us. we were deprived of our sleep, and occasionally waking up in the wee hours, jamming all the theories and complex models into half-awaken brain, while trying to fight off the temptation of the bed. cruel. if u are suggesting caffeine, forget it. i've already gained immunity against it.

while going through those weeks, i can't help thinking about snuggling into the warmth and comfort of my comforter at home though the weather here has been (and still) insanely hot! ok, what's passed is history. all those exams, boy, i wish i can turn the time backwards, so that i can redo my papers.

and it's already "that" time of the semester, where everyone starts sealing their parcels, packing and dumping stuff. you know, one can learn a lot about their neighbours by looking at those stuff that they throw of. it's like a "fresh" surprise. (i should rob my opposite blockmates! you gotta see what they left outside their room to get what i mean.) anyway, at some degrees of the heat (why is it so hot in here?!!), i envy them-that they got to pack and go home, while i spend my 10weeks undergoing training. sob. i wish i've brought more instant noodles and biscuits from home. i wish i hadn't leave my external hard disk at home. this is unbearable! i wish that i can drink mum's soup every week. and i really wish that money does grow on trees-even if it's just for a short period of ten weeks.

still here

2009-04-20T00:58:00.002+08:00

phew! thanks god, i am still breathing.

*breathe in* *breathe out* *breathe in* *breathe out*

screwwwwwwwed 2

2009-03-12T18:36:00.001+08:00

you know what? i just flunked my lab quiz!!!!!!!!!

omg!

speechless. i've to admit that i've never felt that e-buddy and msn will play so much more role than just a tool for cheaper chit-chatting. my friends are actually interacting with each other, comparing some answers over msn during the 1 hour quiz? oh, geezz, i felt so left out. if only i have the habit of using msn. i might be able to fish out some answers.

huhu...

posted with much regret for being lazy and ignorant about technology.

how i blow [my] job (it's not what u think, i assure you!)

2009-03-11T13:15:00.006+08:00

sigh....the thing is...

...i just screwed my chance. thanks to me, myself for being so foolish!!!
what the heck is "i would like to know the answer of the application by tomorrow" ?!!!
how on earth, did i manage to sum up so much courage to speak like an ignorant and arrogant fool?!!
am i the employer or the student trying to apply for an internship in his company?!!
STUPID ME!!!

all i wanted to do is sounding calm over the phone-for a good 1st impression, displaying no sign of panicky but now i ended up sounding ego and impatient.

i really felt like shooting myself right now. erkkkkk...

it's over now. drink lotsa water and move on. should start searching for another company since due date is by this week.

go!go!go!

2009-02-13T08:45:00.003+08:00

Stress! but keep on going! go! go!

finding myself less time to peep at friend's blog and to read my books. also finding myself getting more and more random. e.g : i went into the toilet, and dingdong! i have something that i wanna post up here and when i hurried back to my laptop, it seems i've flushed all ideas into the bowl too.

but then, it's a rare occasion that i am "granted" a much speedier internet speed in my room, that i am even able to login, i wanna post something. no matter what. a;lsk;lkal;kfk;lk 'fmkalf'klsjkfl!!!

in two hours time i shall prepare for my last paper. java programming!!!
study till i wanna vomit. even have to resist temptation to eat maggi because according to an unknown resource, maggi makes you forgetfull. is that true?!

public class Server {
public static void main(String[] args) {
new Server();
}
public Server() {
try{
//create socket
ServerSocket server=new ServerSocket(port);
//listen to connection
Socket socket=server.accept();

//get i/o stream
}
catch (IOException ex) {
}
}
}

*sorry, multithreading just occured. have to remember how to write the Server class and have to determine what to type in here. the multithreads are ran by only a single cpu and that's my brain! and all threads are ran simultaneously. that's why! that's why!

i think i better concentrate.

darn! i am itching to read mangas.

2009-01-29T14:48:00.002+08:00

what's this feeling?

it's chinese new year but i'm watching home alone, again.
now, it feels like christmas once more.
starting to think that i am already in december. hohoho.

*eh, santa claus goes hohoho, i wonder how does the chinese prosperity god laugh*

anyway, happy chinese new year to all my buddies. i have yet to count my red packets. haha. but, i have my phone bill to pay. screw that.

2009 cny's rather interesting, albeit the new zits, the mild diarrhea on the very 1st day of cny...and the pile of assignment papers lying at the foot of my bed. learn to play "cho tai ti" again and again. drank a whole can of carlsberg in bright day light, which i regretted later. felt as though i am going to fall off a building. weird, last time i drank two bottles and i was ok. weird! ang pau packets are getting more and more attractive, less red and more "hua yang". that's why mum developed her "latest" hobby-ang-pau-collecting. after those mooncake boxes, now red packets. packaging is real important. food, as usual. i don't really favour cny meaty cuisine. i don't eat sea cucumber, do not appreciate chicken's leg and pork's leg?!!!

next cny iwansteamboat!!! und barbeque!!! mum, let's have steamboat&bbq next year. less work, more fun. ok?ok? steamboat und bbq sind sehr gut!

last note, hmmm...to the youngest cousin, welcome to the family. may you grow up healthily. we love you. mwaaaaah.

2009-01-19T13:20:00.000+08:00

yesss! internet! i have been denied the access to the internet yesterday. uspot stinks. ich hasse dich! since last week, my roomate and i were already counting days to cny and streamyx back at home. we miss the streamyx at home very very veryyyyyy muchhhh. we miss the water heater at home too. uhhh

this afternoon, i've just do my part as a "good" upm student. just did the election thingy..the registration system is quite efficient. no wasted time and heaty queue. but then, it's funny how me and my friends vote. to tell the truth, we have no idea on who we should vote for. we only know the candidates from the posters. so, we vote for candidates with the most appealing look(1st criteria), have better smile than mona lisa (2nd criteria) and who looks very dominant, brave and erm...etc??

while looking at the posters yesterday, i noticed one small similarity between the candidates. hey, all of them have high foreheads! i read from somewhere that people with a high forehead are generally classified as brainy and creative. just look at the proffesors, the scientist and the inventors. all of them have high forehead and lotsa them are bald. if they are not bald, then, they have white hair..true or not???

2009-01-05T12:48:00.002+08:00

the next class begins at 1400. friends are now chatting about carreers in the technology field, the possibility of venturing into another major. listening to their conservation always make me feel much more aware of my "situation". very worried. people now are now talking about capabilities, abilities and talent. having only enthusiasm does not help. sometimes, your enthusiasm is just not enough if you don't have the telent. no matter what encouraging words and motivation to inspire and to get you going, the fact is a reality. many graduates are still jobless and following the economy crisis and the severe cut-down in companies, it will be much harder.

no back-up plans yet. what should i do?

i'll never be late to classes again

2009-01-02T16:25:00.000+08:00

...because i just got myself a new watch, after i mysteriously lost the one on my 1st semester, which means i spent $$$ again, which also means i went over budget again. oh, but the watch is very nice. initially, tzy chun and i were just looking, and the next thing i know, i was trying on some digital watches, bargaining and paying 170 for the white watch. i think this is the most expensive stuff i've ever buy. that day, i went to the atm machine twice. considering the stingy person that i am, it's "terrible, horrible and vegetable" to see the numbers in my savings decreasing.

ok lar. i hope that i'll be able to wake up every morning at 07:15:25 and stop becoming "v.i.p" in lecture classes.

the watch: one of my darlings now.
look at her! look at her!

with the day stated so clearly at the bottom, i think i won't mistaken monday for sunday again.
which means, i can't "accidentally" skip monday classes...

oh, and, that day, i bought 6 bottles of liquor too! we smuggled these bottles into a friend's room to celebrate new year. we played poker cards, trading groundnuts and sunflower seeds. i personally prefer this to celebrating with such a loud and big crowd at dataran merdeka and bukit bintang. well, we didn't do the countdown thingy because we were too absorbed in the game, the chips and the liqours. oh, and, we were afraid that we would get caught for drinking in hostel room. haha, but that was fun. after all, rules are made to be broken, agree?

bye bye 2008

2008-12-31T12:55:00.005+08:00

early post to bid year 2008 adieu!!! cos i know once i am back in hostel, i'll have difficulty connecting to the tortoise uspot. i have not make my new year resolutions yet but i think it will be more or less the same as the year before and the year before that and the year before that year and bla bla...those stuff like doing better in academics, eat less and do more exercises which i always fail to follow. haha

no major celebration but might have some mini celebration to welcome 2009. maybe i'll fo get a few bottles of liqour...maybe~

hhm..i am now posting from the computer lab in my faculty, in the midst of attending my 1st java programming practical class. hehe. tzy chun and i plan to go to mid valley ealier. we were both counting and grumbling when time passes. wonder when the demo will let us go.

anyway, happy new year, folks!

just happy

2008-12-23T00:52:00.003+08:00

i am very happy today.
why? because of the two naughty dogs. the breakfast in klang. the outing with kit nyin and everything. because suddenly i feel very close to my family.

having bak kut teh and tea for breakfast with family is totally enjoyable and warm. although the bak kut teh tasted so-so only, but the feeling is delicious. and, mum suddenly wanna learn sudoku. i was surprised. very surprise. then she said that she wants to exercise her brain to lower risks of parkinson and alzheimer's disease. so, now she's busy solving sudoku puzzles every night. haha

and today, i went to red box for the first time. my maiden redbox. in the gardens. i don't like singing much due to inner-complexity reasons like-i can't sing well. i am monotonous. i can't read chinese. i am not familiar with english pop songs and etc. i made my discovery today. singing is quite fun although most of the time, i sang off key, wrong tunes and goes nananananaa....really, actually i have no idea what i am singing. i am just having fun. i croaked as i like.

another discovery. hotel costes albums are damn expensive. 100+. not an album a student like me can afford. i'll have to go on bread for all three meals. too bad. eh, this is nothing to be happy about.

oh, and another discovery. i can get satisfied and happily easily too. i am not such a bitter guard that i think i am, or am i?

good morning, ohaiyou gozaimasu, guten morgan

2008-12-22T08:14:00.004+08:00

another beautiful morning has risen again. nothing is more enjoyable than watching the two naughty dogs running around the house. really thanks god for all the nice things that i can see and touch. hero and danson are simply too adorable. i think i will miss little danson's small paws, will miss watching the two dog having fights and will definitely miss watching the two dogs running after my uncle...for food. haha

just now, someone left danson in the middle of the staircase. poor guy. the pup's afraid of height. he could only wagged his tail and stare at you. he was too afraid to move upwards or down the stairs. haha. naughty dog! yesterday he was caught biting away food from the altar. twice. and this smart pup hide under the table, chewing until an aunt saw him. he was caught red handed on his second mischief though. aha!

the dogs sooooooo cuteee...

i wonder...

2008-12-20T23:58:00.003+08:00

if it's ok to peek at people's blog as anonymous.
there's a blog which i've enjoy sneaking up on for months and it's now a private blog. i can no longer read it. too bad. i wanna read the blog while still upholding the anonymity. *sigh*

from bad to "badder"

2008-12-18T13:44:00.003+08:00

oh, no! i lost my temper again. and the outburst was witnessed by a father of a friend who happened to be repairing our roof top. now, i've earned myself a smellier reputation. but actually, things are not as it seems. i didn't just erupt suddenly, it's for a reason. i hate this-trying hard to be good, and get all efforts broken down by one single mistake. yarghhhhh! if only i could heighten my bloody boiling points and heat capacity!!! i hate this! i hate this! i hate this!

or, maybe i should just be me. trying to be good is just not-so-me. i cease to be myself when i try to be too good and too obedient. everytime. *sigh* whatever done's done, whatever said's said. no turning back. i'll just need to check my temper next time.

i am optimistic that things are going to change for the better soon. yes! go! go!

still not fine

2008-12-17T03:23:00.005+08:00

things are still not going well. oh, what should i do now? i am sorry that i caused so much disappointment. fabulously exciting plan went awry. no barbecue grill, no skewers and no trips. promises flowing down the drains. i wonder if they will ever trust my words anymore. when will my holiday "wars" end?

To mummy

2008-12-11T15:02:00.004+08:00

mummy's not feeling well and i am feeling very bad. sometimes, i wonder if she gets sick because she's not happy? because she's still angry with me? i want to help but she doesn't want it. this makes me feel depressed. will she ever talk to me again? i am really worried that our future conversations would be only nods and nos. initially, i drew this picture as a get-well-soon-card for mum. i hope it will be able to cheer her up again. but then, i am worried that she might not want to see it. then when i decided to print it out, alas, it came out in blue, black and white. dreadfully ugly.

so. mum, drink more fluid and rest more. get well soon

and ermm...mum? i'm sorry. i'll go hillwalking with you next time. ok?

my monday

2008-12-09T01:03:00.003+08:00

hm...how should i describe today? it's monday yet i felt like sunday. i felt lazy yet i helped mum to clean the house. not very willingly, though. just do not feel nice being the only person in the house to relax. *oops!* we are cleaning the house because new year's approaching soon. dad used to joke about our house looking like a "house for human to stay" only during new years. meaning, in all the 365 days, there are only 7 days where the house is really neat and tidy. it's clean during cny and back to "normal" before chap goh mei. so, i wiped the cobwebs and the spidey away from the windows. it's lucky that the weather is nice. cloudy and cool for the whole day. it would be nice to switch into hibernate mode but no. the day was spent, instead, by wiping windows and wiping lizzards droppings that stick on the skirtings. damn the lizzards! shit so much and so randomly. you think my house is public toilet?! i hurt a finger and got minor backbone ache scrubbing off your by-products. hurted another finger while trying to shift some stuff. a sharp edge cut into the skin right under the lower nail. bleed immediately. @#$#% auch!

then,ealier, i got frustrated that my laptop suddenly doesn't carry out tasks as quick as it used to be. is it being overloaded? or i left it on for too long? or it catches a flu? but, thanks god! it's back to normal again. still, something bad happened. i thought i've made a dvd data disc. so, i deleted all the movies that i thought were transferred into the dvd. and, when i checked the dvd again...it's blank. @$#%^
arghhh! my darling movies! i lost my whole season of pushing daisies, the ratatouille and the zohan movies. sad! it took me a few days to finish downloading. "easy come, easy go..."

uhhhh...i miss the pie maker, cod, chuck and olive...

the late-nite "tok"

2008-12-07T01:58:00.004+08:00

it's the wedding season. couples are taking vows to become husband and wife. pokok manggas at the juction of the road. bridal shop, restaurants and confectionaries having a boost of economy. dad's receiving a lot of red invitation cards a.k.a the red bomb. getting a lot of invitations means two things. one-you are a man with reputation, two-you are remembered by your friends, i mean close enough to get invited and three-getting ready to fork out $$. it's ironic. you get invited but you need to give red packet, which indirectly means you are paying too. dad said some host would prefer not to be given any but it's the tradition. so most will do that. haha..dad's like santa clauss this few days. nah, it's not the money really. i believe my father's a man who values his friendship.

but, one thing i can't "tahan" whenever he receives a "bomb": he and mum will start saying, "aiyo...when is my turn to distribute these cards ar?" or "when can i distribute "lou poh" biscuits to my friends?" funny, haahaa. pa, ma, faster ask sis to find a bf. your dream will come true. haha. if sis sees this, she will kill me. ><

mum and dad attending wedding dinner in haewaytian today, so sis and i went shopping in ipoh parade. except for parkson, i can't feel the christmas mood in parade. i thought i will be hearing christmas choruses echoing from the shop lots but what i heard instead were chinese new year songs! already? i told sis that maybe during cny they will be playing christmas songs. not that i am anti cny songs, but it's christmas!!! uhmm, maybe christmas's not the fashion in parade.?

yeah, and i've finally know what to get for amy this birthday.*happy!* i thought of d.i.y stuff. found the fabric dyes but can't find a blank t-shirt. just thought of this yesterday. but, when the t-shirt is washed, will the colour goes off? never did this before. someone, please give me advise!!! thought of finding the iron-on paper but not sure where to get it and i don't have adobe. arggghhh...

oh, and mum's calling me again, though it's just that one time. yipee! which means, her anger subsided. it really feels bad when mum doesn't ask me to do housework or help her in the kitchen anymore because it makes me feel useless and my days become gradually boring too. and it's sad to see that all my friends are good with their mum except me. hope that the darks clouds will dissapear soon. totally looking forward to the all-laughter-and-smile-days, uh,,perhaps until the day my final results are announced. *finger crossed*

be grateful and thankful

2008-12-04T01:49:00.002+08:00

yee leng's right. what she said to me during the short conversation this afternoon is something i should not forget. i really felt ashamed of myself. all these years, i always complain about a lot of things, dislike a lot of stuff and being (still) jealous a lot of time. i always complain that i don't have this or that, lacking a lot of life's pleasures but i seldom take time to think about how lucky and wealthy i am, being blessed with a good family, responsible and caring parents, a sister and a brother, being given the opportunity to enrol in music classes, art classes, being dressed in kikilala during my childhood, being showered with gifts of barbie dolls, enid blyton books; and cool creative mp3, cellphone and laptop. i don't even need to spend a single cent on my laptop while some of my friends have to use their loans for their laptops. how lucky am i? if i did not learn music, i would not have proper music foundation, will not be able to read scores, play my favourite pieces and jazz. a lot of people wanted to learn piano, but they do not have the opportunity due to the expenses and parents factor. a lot of people envied me that i can play the piano(though not a pro) and if they discover that i am such an ungrateful brat, i think they will kill me.

knowing that i always complain about staying at home during the holidays, mum and dad always suggest that we go to pantai remis and penang, but i always complain that penang is plain boring and i've already been to pantai remis. i always forget that some people don't even get the chance to step out of their houses and that i am so fortunate that my parents took me to different states during every year-end school holidays. and, yet i will still feel jealous that some students, the same age as mine went overseas for vacations. i am so immatured.

when i complain so much about not getting to eat nice and luxurious food, i should remember that not everyone gets the chance to enjoy steaks in chilli's and the "fine" food in indulgence. at least, i've been to these places once. i should feel grateful.

sometimes when i complain that mum didn't cook this for me or do something, it seldom occurs to me that i seldom do things that she wanted me to too. maybe that's why the relationship between me and mum is not like any other family's. i seldom take time to understand mum and i don't think mum understand me too. me and my mum quarells very often. yeah, i dissapointed mum and dad lotsa times. they are sure sad. oh, i am not a good daughter...

so, from this day onwards, i wanna be more grateful, more thankful to god, for everything that i have, the people that i love and the stuff that i enjoy(that includes the streamyx..haha)

yeah...regarding friendship too. (confession: i use to think that my friends kinda few and i am always isolated) ok, i might not have a lotttttttt of friends, not popular among the guys and the girls but, i do have friends that i cherish, that love and remember me. for that , i am thankful too. peeps, i love you! (now, does this make your hair stand?)

james bond vs agent86

2008-12-04T00:00:00.004+08:00

wadyahahaha! i've just finished watching an old movie, get smart. ooh...it's damn hillarious. it got my legs swinging in the air as i laughed at all the slapstick humour and fighting scenes. yaya, even the fighting and kicking scenes are funny. it's like watching a 007agent comedy, minus q and money penny, yeah, and the love scenes. i can't help comparing 86 to 007 all the way..haha

1) unlike all the generations of james bond who speeds gadget-modified aston martin, lotus, sunbeam alpine and bmw, max(agent86) didn't have a specific car until he "steals" and drives a sunbeam, out of the museum's main entrance. oh, well, at the beginning, he did steal and drive a ferrari too...

2)agent007 is rather the type of man that makes his speeches short and informative. agent86 is talkative!

3)agent007 will do things in a very precise manner, meaning chances for mistakes are slim. agent86 always makes funny mistakes that eventually ends well, accidental. budden, it's his maiden mission.

4)oh...i have more while watching just now. short of it now

haha, and some of my favourite scenes:
1)he used his mini harpoon for the 1st time in the airplane and got all the arrows fired back on him. one even went through his nostril and through the toilet's door!
2)him dancing with the plump lady. OMG!
3)agent99 and him do acrobatics to dodge the laser sensor grid
4)oh, the one part where he "innocently" he scanned left eye at the biometric security system and later heaved the guy he defeated earlier onto a table that a passer by thought they were having anal sex.
5)his two loyal sidekicks
6)the part where he eavesdropped on the two russians in the toilet. lol! he was urinating and whenever he tried eavesdropping, he stopped urinating., not reliasing that he is making his intention sooooo obvious!
7)the part where a big guy smashed into someone's living room while the residents are watching an action movie. the funny part is one of the resident saying,"see, mom? surround sound kicks ass, it's like it's right in the room!". wakaka!
8)the part where he bowed before the audiences and the orchestra members not knowing that his buttocks are exposed! haha

after watching this movie, i am suddenly interested in bombs and security system. weird. but, i've always like trivial knowledge like steam from your breathe sticks to nothing except the old fingerprints. whoa! is that true? it would be nice if i can pick locks...
found an interesting article.

oh, my dear friends, if you haven't watch this movie...quick!quick! watch it!

oh, i wanna add one more thing to my christmas wish list : Swiss army penknife. wanted that a long long time ago but couldn't afford it then..uhm..now too.

*laughing off~*

woohoo~Yuletide's in the air

2008-12-02T09:11:00.002+08:00

the christmas atmosphere is here! advertisements with christmas themes are already adorning the daily papers. can't wait for christmas eve. can't wait to go "celebrate" in kl, can't wait to see the kl shopping malls' christmas decoration!!! i love going shopping malls during christmas because i enjoy the music they play, the decoration and the live performance by a string quartet. kyaaaa! actually, i would love to go some other places, like s'pore for christmas but $$'s the problem!

every year, during christmas, i'll ask mum to buy me christmas hats, christmas ornaments, santa's beard, mistletoe and christmas tree. i have the hat and the ornament, a treble but when i asked them to buy christmas tree, mum and dad would say, everytime, "buy for what? we are not christians, we do not celebrate also, so, what's the point". then when i asked again, they will say, "aiya, our house don't have space to accomadate the tree". then i told them that we can get a smaller tree, their answer, "aiya, later will collect lotsa dust!" ...=.= Ok...

my parents don't celebrate christmas, but i do! erm...in my own way lar..build my christmas wish list, listen to christmas songs(broadcasted on radio and tv) and getting myself a little gift.

speaking of my wish list: i want...
a Partridge in a Pear Tree
2 turtle doves
3 french hens
4 calling birds
5 golden rings
6 geese a laying
7 swans a swimming
8 maids a milking
9 ladies dancing
10 lords a leaping
11 pipers piping
12 drummers drumming

hahaha...kidding. influenced by the 12 days of christmas

i would love to have:
mistletoe
christmas jazz piano book
christmas jazz albums (jazz and blues are always special. christmas jazz is definitely better than the usual version, no?)
casio didital watch (puma also not bad, budden, i love the vintage look of fossil...oh! rolex's oyster perpetual! *greedy pig*)
canon digital camera
locittaine perfume
adidas bag & adidas shoes
stylish laptop bag
a pair of crocs & clarks
a super packet of imported chocolates & pepperidge farm's macademia chocalate chunks cookies.
christmas tree ( a small one to cheer up my study table^^)
john grisham's book
adobe creative suite 3
ticket to mpo
vacation to s'pore, thailand(despite the chaos), japan...
holiday cruise
dinner at the chilli's
ah! swim suit
diesel jeans
jumper(i've always wanted a knitted wear)
backpacking activities

my dear friends, if you happen to be reading this, this is my wish list..ehehehe. it's versatile, useful for christmas and birthday too. *wink* you do not need to crack your head thinking what to get for me.

i am thinking how long it takes to clear this list of mine before i grow more and more greedy, expanding my list like a list-maniac.

merry christmas in advance, dearie friends!

*humming off to a "Rudolph, the red nose reindeer" tune*

My Indulgence Experience

2008-11-29T15:51:00.001+08:00

if it's not told by mum, i would not have know that the little white bungalow located next to Ipoh Specialist Hospital is actually a restaurant. i've passed by that place countless time, i saw the house but incredibly, never the name of the place...until we went there last night, only then i realised the name at the entrance: Indulgence, with a small caption beneath: restaurant & living.

i was like, ooooooo...so "this" is the place!!! very very excited because when mum mentioned this place few days ago, i went to google for this indulgence and turn out, it's a fine dining restaurant and boutique hotel. my typical perception on fine dining then were :

exquisite, luxurious, soft music, cosy seats, bottles of wine, small food portion served on larggggeee plate, raw fresh oysters, lobsters, foie gras, truffles and...$$$ ! true or not?

anyway, this restaurant really befits the name. nice ambience, be it for families or couples, accompanied by lounge music and nicely decorated. yes, to me and sis but no for mum, dad, and uncle. they were saying that the soft yellow light makes it hard for them to read the menu. lol!

actually, we didn't know what we should order. maybe fine dining's menus are always full of text and pictureless. i dunno. so, some terms are unfamiliar and we have no idea what's the signature cuisine in the house. what we should taste..than, the waitress came and she gave us a few suggestions. (phew! or we would be sitting there, still unable to decide while other customers coming in later than us begin cutting and sipping..haha..utter nonsense) so, mom ordered pasta and lemon freeze, dad's taking rib eye beef and magnolia ugly, uncle's having lamb rib and pineapple mint, sis's puffed chook(i think it's smoked pumpkin-stuffed-chicken) and ice honey lemon and i ordered salmon trout and passion mango. nobody order wine though.

the dishes arrived, yes, as expected, the plates are big but surprisingly, the portion served is quite large. but dad and uncle are big eaters so, it's not enough for them. (later of the day, both gulped down a bowl of curry mee, dry curry mee and satay...)

although what we ordered yesterday can be found in any western food restaurant[at cheaper price too!] but there's a big difference on how the beef, the salmon and the accompaniments are laid on the plates.

in "normal" eateries:
accompaniments/side dishes=slices of tomatoes, mashed potatoes, french fries, 1 or 2 pieces of lettuce, coselaw(neh, the type i always eat in kfc wan), jacket potatoes
main actor(s): overcooked(sometimes) lamb, beef, chicken, overfried(sometimes) fillet
gravy: mushroom, black pepper, mint, barbeque?
lay out: main actor in the middle, accompaniments beside. artistic arrangement :3/8

in "fine" places:
side=purple lettuce, small sized potatoes(dunno it's baby potatoes, ruby red, gourmet potatoes or what but it's the sized of cherry tomatoes), capsicums(i think might be one of the species), avocado balls, carrots strips, brocolli, corn, jacket potatoes..etc
main actor(s)=nicely cooked and grilled. i mean it's more standard and qc-ed and consistent...
gravy: avocado gravy, those cremes and english sauce...olive oil with herbs...etc..etc..
layout=nicely decorated, nice colours, beautiful and artistically arranged...

too bad i didn't bring along the camera to snap pictures. my cellphone's camera is not good enough to take pictures in dimly lit environment even though i've switch to night mode and turn on the flash light. the output is either to bright or to dark. sad...sad...

5 of us ate rm334.40 including service charge and tax. once back in the car, sis read out the bill. mom was saying the other day that i always order the most expensive food. yeah...it's true. my salmon trout is rm62.00. mom was laughing, "see, i am correct leh?! haha". then, sis announced the most expensive drink's rm18...passion manggoooo...*claps* i won again! haha.

so, my "new" perception of fine dining? pretty much the same although we didn't order the oysters, the lobsters, the chardonnay, the foie gras, and the truffles...

well, some said that this indulgence has been over-rated, but some said it's great. hm..i think it's ok lar...it satisfies my taste buds. dad, who hates western food and sushi, is not a fan. mum doesn't really like outside food but she wanna try. i, on the other hand, enjoy the experience.

this dinner really spark my interest to go savouring other luxury food. i think i am growing to like expensive food. geezzzz...too bad, my economy is limiting me, my budget is constraint because i want so many stuff-books, camera, shoes and watch. that makes me *the poor girl who likes expensive food*

sighhhhhing off~

Do i noe u?

2008-11-28T01:12:00.003+08:00

today, i finally learn the consequences of :
1) saving contact number in my cellphone with only one random alphabet. e.g, abc's no. is saved as A's. bcd's no as B's.
2) "deserting" my cellphone too often.

my cellphone is always left alone on my bed. i always go out for lunch, dinner and outings with family without my cellphone, unless i want to play games and do some random shoots with the camera.

so, when i checked my cell, i've got 11 missed calls, from the same person whom i've saved as A.
11? wow, who's looking for me so desperately? (makes me feel so important...haha)

the problem is, who's A???

i called back but nobody answered. so, i just sent a message to this A, pretending i still remember who's A.

me : yes? was not around just now. sori.
*new message came in. it's an unsaved number*
dunno-who: may i noe who r u?
*i thought :this might be the same A. if not, why sent such message?*
me: yee hieng. n u r? did u miss called me this afternoon?

then...

dunno-who: do i noe u?

i was like, "BOMB!" can't describe how i felt then...like wei leng always say, " zha dou!"
it's not funny but i can't help laughing at the silly mis-erm--dunno what-you-call-that.

haiya...so much for being a narcissist

My calculus days

2008-11-25T02:40:00.001+08:00

Found this picture of my calculus lecturer in my hp. Can't really remember his first name (oops! I always have trouble remembering names)but we usually call him Ibragimov. A kind and polite lecturer he is. Always make us laugh whenever he speaks his "fluent" bahasa malaysia. Oh, really mìss his funny expressi0n when he says, "kalau ada soalan, sila bertanya" and "jumpa lagi khamis ini". Aww. .he looks so cute and innocent! And, whenever i look at him, i am reminded of my grandpa, the pleasant smile and all that i so so so wanna hug him. One more interesting fact to share..he's d 0nly lecturer who's generous enough to give clues on the white board during quizzes and exams. There's one time where i've totally forgotten 'bout sandwich theorem and he gave us a hint! Really lucky. Haha. Well, proffesor, thanks ya!  

*actually i am trying to blög using my cellphone. For fun. Apparently, ìt's not that convenìent because sek550i's keypads are small.

Of ants and laptops

2008-11-24T03:04:00.003+08:00

ants do me no harm. when i am in good mood, i spare their lives, letting them go even though they have been lurking around my favourite muffins, egg tarts and milo. when i am in semi good mood, i squash them softly but not deadly enough so that i can still see them scurry away zig-zag-ly. but i will squeeeeeeezzzeeeee them kow kow when they crawl out from my laptop.

red ants have been crawling out of my keyboard and speakers for quite some time. at first i thought, there must be crumbles of biscuits somewhere on the table near my laptop which attracted ants. so, everytime when i see ants crawling out, i'll clear and wipe my table but the problem still persists. and this stupid-ant-crawling-out-of-my-lappie problem annoys me alot especially when i am watching movie. imagine you watching a movie, a few ants crawl out of your speaker, two or three crawl out from your keyboard every 5 minutes and a few more ants crawling on your screen which makes you wonder why the heroine grows a mole all of a sudden and dissapear the next second.

then today, having nothing better to do, i google for "ants in laptops" and voila~i'm not the only one having this problem. ants have been found crawling out of the keyboards of compaqs, acers and macbooks! apparently, ants LOVE warm surroundings..geeze..anyway, some forums suggested having the laptop dismantled, clean the components and essemble the parts. some solutions are rather funny.

one guy suggested shaking the laptop for about 1 minute to stimulate earthquake for ants before placing the laptop on the floor and placing a cube of sugar near the ventilation hole to attract the ants. another suggested placing a cup of honey to bait those ants. sounds weird but it might work. who knows? another funny answer: bring your laptop to the zoo and throw it to the tenuk(ant eater) because tenuk eats ants..lol! in that case, i'd rather trade in my "infected" laptop and buy a new one, ngam boh? then, i read somewhere a solution that involves placing the laptop in an air-tight enclosure to deprive those ants of oxygen. yeah, everyone knows living things respirate with oxygen. that's logic.

another interesting post:
title :damn ants creep into my laptop
post: my laptop has encountered a dangerous situation....etc etc...
reply: I would have thought it was more dangerous for the ants

lol! hahaha! true! initially, i thougth the same thing too. those ants are not afraid of the heat wan meh? don't they worry if they got fried up, all shrivelled up in the heat?

these ants are surely high-end ants. they choose to live in my toshiba instead of their usual habitat. luxury taste.

hopefully my laptop won't explode while i am engrossed in movies and surfing. shoo! shoo! ants..quit gnawing at my speakers and wires..this is no hansel and gretel story, y'know? ah...and please dun breed in my laptop,ok?!

*3.21am already? wow! my sis's already asleep on her bed with the portable dvd player on. so much for the advise and complains that i waste lotsa electricity. boo~*

Come on...

2008-11-19T23:56:00.002+08:00

have you ever been asked "what's your favourite school subject(s)?" during your primary school years? what was your answer then?

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i noticed an interesting misconception today while helping to guide the first years' class today. the students are asked to form simple sentences for words such as "matapelajaran" and "cita-cita". for the word "matapelajaran", the teacher wanted the students to write about their favourite subjects. so, the students busied themselves by forming sentences except for a few naughty students who simply will not want to stick their buttocks on the stools.

then, one of the student wrote, "matapelajaran yang paling saya sukai ialah pendidikan seni dan pendidikan jasmani". a very straight and normal sentence. but the teacher commented, "hah?! you like arts and physical education? everyday don't need to study lar!!!". 12 years back, when i was in my 4th year of schooling, i was asked about my favourite subject and i answered Arts. the teacher then said, "that's what lazy person like to do".

my point here is, why do people often perceive children who like arts and physical education more than any other subjects as lazy bums? what's wrong with having interest in drawing and painting, and doing physical exercises? how exactly is laziness linked to interest in arts and p.e? this is called prejudice! most parents hope that their children will have more interest or better, talent in more popular subjects such as math and science. from the parents' perspective, their children will have better future if they do better in math and science. is that so? i still remember, when i was still a little girl, i love drawing. although mum and dad encouraged me a lot, that they even enrolled me in drawing class, they dislike the idea of me dreaming to become a fashion designer. all they said is, "there's little future in the fashion line".

parents and teachers really need to change their perception. they should. if arts and physical education is so unimportant, why are we taking arts and p.e from primary school up to secondary level, and why the fact that if we fail arts in form 1, we fail in the overall aspect? why not abolish this two subjects in school and insert more slots for the other "useful" subjects?
yeah...i think the answer would be, "to release stress, to nurture the creative skills in students...bla bla bla...".

i think that even though these children might be too young to determine their own interest and their own path, but i believe it is not in the adults' right either, to determine for the young ones, about what they are interested in. wrong ideas should not be created in order to avoid forming more clouds and mist.

i believe that it is to early for the adults to label or to judge them. people do change.
remember how we need to fill in the 3 choices of ambitions when we were in standard 1? most of us will fill in -teacher, doctor, policeman, nurse, lawyer, fire fighter, postman...all the common and basic occupations taught to us. then, we have no idea of other occupations such as coroner, broadcaster, radio dj, anesthetist, actuarist and other "canggih" occupations. how many year one students will write down anesthetist for their ambition? but, when these students grow up, they will open their eyes to a wider view. a lot will end up doing different stuff from what they wrote years ago. what i mean to say here is that, interests are similar to the "occupation scenarios".
interests might change over time too, right?

Instant post...as instant as instant noodles

2008-11-17T23:28:00.004+08:00

my present lifestyle is very very normal. i still haven't discover any treasures, have not jump from an aeroplane or do hula loop skips on the roof top, still eating two plates of rice every meal, still yawn at the right time but sleeping at the wrong time (i started yawning at 10 pm but for internet's sake, i stay awake until 4 am), still blogging aimlessly etc etc etc ... the only abnormal thing is that i quarrel less with mom and dad. no bombs exploded so far. the landmines are safely marked.

because my everyday life is as normal as [butter and bread], i sometimes find myself imagining:
at this moment, when i am walking around leisurely, what are my friends doing?
when i am still sleeping, who discovers what, a new decision has been made, a new law has been constructed, an agreement has been signed ... and, i always get carried away. i dunno why.
a lot of things happen every minute.
when i am laughing here, someone in another part of the world might be crying.
when i am having supper, someone out there might be starving.
when something/someone wither away, a new life is delivered, a new bud grow, flowers bloom~
when i am watching tvb dramas, some wizards and witches in hogwarts might be concocting new potions, casting spells and hexes over some bogey trolls...frodo and his uncle bilbo are dancing somewhere in the meadows...uhh, if only fictions are real.

and right now, while i am typing these very words,....i wonder...how many cheese cakes had been eaten worldwide? (sorry...that's what coming out from my head now *sweat* ) eh, speaking of cheese cakes now, people do surveys on issues like, "how many guys will use condom during sex" and "what is the amount of waste produced by humans" but i never hear people surveying on "how much cheese cakes are consumed per year" or "the amount of profit generated by sales of the cheese cake industries per year in every countries". oh...but then, maybe these surveys exist but i am just too ignorant. anyway, i am not so keen in economics lar...

isshk...dunno what i can type in anymore. i wanted so much to end this post with an appriopriate ending but those stuff that i've typed above, it's hard for me to do a related end. at this point, i feel like deleting this post but then i've typed so many words. a bit waste lar. after all, i spent 15 minutes typing this post ! hnnggh, now, i don't feel like deleting "that" 15 minutes.

yeah...i am looking forward to swimming tomorrow. i miss swimming! and double happiness, dad promised to bring us out for steamboat tomorrow night. yipee! i am happy! no matter how many times i have steamboat, i'll never get tired of it. i am easily satisfied by steamboats....

what i am currently doing:
listening to rachmaninoff's piano concerto no.2

found a video at youtube.
a touching and beautiful piece, impressive opening
awesome conductor and pianist
i enjoy looking at conductor's expression while he waved his baton
love the virtouso pianist too...so allegro and vivace!

What makes my day

2008-11-12T13:51:00.005+08:00

...breakfast!

my hands twitching to play with pots and pans again.

continuing the spiral episode, today, i tried spiral salad. i am no cooking pro so the output is just like what i've expected, ok, a wee bit better.

this time, i played around with mum's organic apple cider vinegar and olive oil.

mum and dad's precious morning routine drink. it's good for health but i don't like it, even when mixed with honey.

the magical olive oil can be used as salad dressing, and marinating ingredient and hair oil...

i have the tomato slightly toasted with olive oil before mixing them into the bowl of cooked spirals. then i added a light dash of olive oil and apple cider. shaked in some oreganos and mixed the whole lot.

the output:

my "cincai" spiral salad

why cincai? because it's cincai-ly prepared lar!

it looks empty...and it taste like i've poured wine into the bowl..

but still edible!

my own rating : partial failure...*sigh*

side dish...chocolate moist cake

yummy!

of course, yummy food like this is not prepared by me.

how i enjoy this cakes...

pour some coffee into the bowl, allowing the spongy texture to soak up the coffee.

eat!

the cake now taste half chocolaty and coffee

rich in flavour!

*tomorrow i think i wanna try omellete!*

Sudden poppin'

2008-11-12T01:08:00.005+08:00

wow, i admire them, the doctors.

truly what i felt when i accompanied mum to the hospital for her eye check-up this morning.
them walking in their white coats, the stethoscopes hanging around their neck, the pens in their pockets, the torch lights and gloves...them(the housemanship doctors) walking in groups, performing morning drills...

i do not know why, all of a sudden, i have this awe towards doctors and pharmacist, especially today. i wonder if the reason lies on the fact that i will never be a doctor in this life, while deep in, i have a certain degree of yearning to become one.

since young, dad had been telling me and my siblings over and over again, that grandpa would be very happy if one of his grandchildren manage to become a doctor. he (grandpa) would be smiling in heaven. as if still fresh in my ears, i can hear him imitating grandpa's expression, "Ahh...there's a doctor among the Tan family." sometimes, i felt that dad was really hoping that one of his children will be able to fulfill this ambition. his children on the other hand, will laugh his ideas away and, when i grow up, i was very certain that my ambition is not to be a doctor because i always thought that that's my father's ambition, not mine.

now that his children is older, and with each one deviating far from the path of doctorhood, he never speak about the grandpa's-dream-comes-true talk, only that he will still tease us occasionally, whenever they went for medical check-up. "see? if you are studying medicine, papa and mama can consult you when we are having health problems!" *haha*

sometimes, i felt sorry to dad because up till now,his children have nothing to be bragged about while he listens to his friends and colleagues talking about their children's success and achievements. "wow, mrs. zz's son is going to London to study medicine", "mr's xx's son got the jpa scholarship", "mr. aa's daughter's pay per month is rm6000!", "mrs. kk's daughter is sent to oversea for work..." *sigh* it's parents' nature to compare their children with the others. but then, this is not entirely a bad thing if you convert it into positive motivation.

***

my best interest is in forensics but i am not a brilliant chemist. by chance, i was offered to study computer science majoring in software engineering, not really the type of field i am interested in. but, i decided to give it a try. a try, driven by the obstinate mind rather than passion. sometimes, i do get agitated by knowing some of the things and jobs i can do in the computer science stream, giving me a momentary motivation. i really must preserve this encouragement, etch them firmly in my head and put in more interest. "tak kenal, maka tak cinta" isn't it?

whatever the outcome might be, i would, one day, make my parents proud. well, hopefully^^

time for actionnnnnnnnnnn!

The Chef in Me~

2008-11-10T10:39:00.002+08:00

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a girl who's zero at cooking (unless it's maggi) had just finished her nasty cooking in the kitchen...

dramatic, huh?

i can't cook, but i love to experiment with cooking ingredients and most importantly, i love to eat.
i've got the sudden itch to cook when i saw tricolor spiral pasta and cans of tomato paste in jusco yesterday. so, at last, dad bought the pasta and the tomato paste...and today, since i am "home alone" for the whole morning, i decided to create my own breakfast.

so, cycled back to grandma's house to pick some tomatoes, capsicum, garlics and brocolli.
(mom does her cooking over at grandma's. so, all the ingredients are at grandma's place whereas our place are stocked mostly with instant noodles, and some organic stuffs.)
then, i realised that i didn't bring the keys along. went back to my house and searched for the keys but to no avail. so, forget about the veggies.

then, i saw a can of campbell's chicken soup. *ding! dong!* i've got an idea!
i am going to cook my spirals with campbell's chicken soup!
the messiness starts here. again, my house doesn't have a "modern" can opener, the simply-twist-turn-can-opener, instead, we have here a very antique piece of tool. so, when life gives you lemons, make plenty of lemonade! alas~i spent 20 minutes operating the can. unbelievable.
the rest is normal...cook and stir, prepare the tomato paste and boiling the spirals.

and tadaaa...

my breakfast!

imitation of the twin sauce dish from Food&Tea restaurant.

i name this Chaotic Spirals..because it taste a bit like chaos.

lol, i actually have chicken creamed soup to go with pasta...

just to praise myself abit, the dish looks presentable and edible. not that bad yet, rite? rite?

if i cook this for my mum as her birthday treat, i think she will be touched..and she will tell me

"aiya, ah mei...i can't finish this lar..."

i think, i am going to try something new for breakfast tomorrow. i've got some [crazy] ideas coming up again. wee~

and i'll see which recipe can be used as mum's surprise breakfast.

hopefully, she won't say

"aiyoyo...ah mei...please dun ever ever cook pasta again..."

haha!

holiday schedule

2008-11-07T12:00:00.001+08:00

my typical holiday schedule :

8.59 a.m[so precise...] : wake up to a sunny morning, stare at the time on my cell phone. What?! still early? uhh..sleep for '15' more minutes lar...

9.30 a.m : really awake now. brush teeth, breakfast cum surfing cum playing piano

11.30 a.m : surfing and piano

12.30 p.m : surfing and piano ...

1.30 p.m : shower

2.00 p.m : lunch

3.00 p.m : helping mum in the kitchen

4.00 p.m : movies and laptop

6.00 p.m : dinner

9.00 p.m : surfing again

3.00 a.m : put my brain and eyes to rest

sigh...my daily routine so "routined".

my "dream" schedule :

wake up, brush teeth, scrambled eggs sandwich-ing

activities: any of these *hehe*
take off to an island, go surfing, water skiing, yatching, parachuting, diving (and discover hidden treasure map or some treasures or some new aquatic species yet to be discovered by mankind, and get the species named after me...but then, the species must be cute. haha!)

taste new cuisines...challenge myself to eat things that i've never put into my mouth before. (fried insects...*shudders*)

then, if i have enough money and a decent camera, i would love to go on a solo travelling, exploring places new to me, exploring new landscapes, observe, experience and adapting to cultural shocks, etc.
of course, it won't be that easy. lotsa factors to be pondered. but, still feasible.

i would love my holidays to be a bit more adventurous..more surprises, like last minute vacation plans (the suddenly oh-let's-go-pack-bags-off-you-go vacation~lovely!) or a treat to 3 days 2 nights cruise...climb up the roof top, jump from one chimney to another the mary poppins style or...

...the mario style! ( i know it's seriously impossible unless, i am hancock?)

okok...that's not feasible of course. i'll fall off the clouds or the chimney. break my bones.

wait! wow! that's quite an "adventure" too, isn't it?

however, i dun wish that any of my bones break . "be careful of what you wish, for it may comes true"

Motivation

2008-10-21T14:58:00.002+08:00

final's around the corner. in fact, i'll be doing my first two papers this thursday.

and, i am really glad that i've found a new source of motivation to push me.

hoping that i am doing better in my finals compared to the last two tests.

really hoping that i'll be able to grab the opportunity that i've long for.

will i still be given the chance?

i am working on it...wait for me! Motivation, please stay with me, always and forever.

Today's the last day...

2008-10-18T21:53:00.007+08:00

...of swimming curriculum! woohoo!

very tired. spent 6 hours in the pool today. but, i enjoyed myself tremendously. yes, swimming has always been fun!

previous semester, i took tennis as my co-cu, just because i think that tennis's a popular sport and people who play tennis are COOL. basically, tennis players wear all whites, from head to toe...with exception for the under wears...

then, whenever me and my friends walk to the court, we can feel the people that we pass by on the way looking at us. kinda glamorous...like a super star

i still remember what our tennis coach told us, "mesti ada gaya dulu, tak dapat sambut bola, lain cerita". hahaha! damn true. i definitely pick up more balls than hitting balls. *doink*

now, swimming is a different story.

swimming is an expensive sport, swimming suits are costly!!! squeezed my wallet dry.
but, i am glad that a lot have been learnt throughout the semester.

and i get to jump on the spring board. niceeeee!

we were in the pool, looking at the others doing their bottle jump from the spring board and we were like "wow! that's fun! i wanna try too..."

and finally, when we have the opportunity to do the pseudo-commit-suicide-jump, we were like so anxious...

it's funny how we change from being heroins, who cheers on people to "jump! jump! just jump!" to trembling little girls, who constantly check if the swimming class assistant is down there with the float to save us before we jump!

anyway, i tried the compact jump, where i am supposed to jump up, and curl my body into a compact ball shape in mid air but, i guess gravity's a lot faster than my actions.

i only managed to hug my legs before i fell into the water like a giant watermelon!
aww...wrong techniques, painful stinging butts! =.="

it's a pity that mobile phones aren't made to be water proof.

i have not a single picture by the pool. or the pseudo-corpse-floating-on-surface picture.

yeah, and one more thing...
swimming makes people slimmer...but, how come i am still so plump wan?!!!

The Liar

2008-10-17T19:55:00.002+08:00

#so...

you are the jerk, i am the "stupidee"

why? because i trust you..

" harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi " #

there's this guy whom i asked to help to hand-in my data structure 4th assignment. it was friday, before the raya break. i was in a hurry because i was going back to ipoh in my friend's car, at a promised time.

i was desperate, frantically looking for a friend who's in the same class to help me, and i saw him...he seems to be a responsible guy. "don't worry," he said. and, i was relieved, thinking that my assignment will reach the demo's pigeon hole.

that was 3 weeks ago.

then, last wednesday, our demo handed back our assignment papers.
i was shocked to see that my 4th assignment scored only 3/10!!!
on top of the cover, the demp commented :

Late 15/Oct
6/10 -------------------> 3/10
late 50%

this means that my paper is either handed in on the 14th or the 13th!

how can this happen?!

i told the demo that i handed it in on time. and the demo replied "really?"
i think he doesn't really believe. i mean, who will?!
but, he still make an asterisk near my name on the score sheet.
*sigh* poor demo...

now, come to think of it...DON'T WORRY MY ASS!!!
pardon me for my rudeness but this guy, i tell you is a LIAR!

i asked him, very politely, about his score for 4th assignment.
he said " forgotten. why?"
and i said nothing..but then, i really cannot TAHAN anymore!
i ask him straight to the point " when did you pass my assignment?",to which he answered :

"THAT DAY"

fullstop. i asked no more...

running in my mind at that moment : that day...it could be any day!!! OMG!
i STRONGLY SUSPECT that he didn't pass up mine.

the moral of the incident:
1) don't do things last minute
i admit that i didn't print out my assignments earlier...my own fault

2)hand in your own assignments...that's a 100% guarantee

3)don't trust people to do things for you (only if he/she's someone you can really really trust)

4)if HE ever ever ask me to help handing in his assignment, i'll BURN his!!! muahahaha!
revenge is swweeeeeet~!

"no-title-i-wanna-talk-bout-anything"

2008-10-13T18:38:00.005+08:00

finally...

the sim4200 database implementation is done. many many thanks to almaz! Banzai!

i get to play a few rounds of spider solitaire before i start on the other three assignments. =.=

i get to surf the net! i have not been surfing for weeks due to the poor line. uspot, ich hasse dich!!!
(me and my friends taking german class this semester and 'ich hasse dich',meaning i hate you is the most famous line among us, thanks to kai leng. she likes to add 'ich hasse dich' at the last line of every messages she types. kai leng loves to abuse it! haha!)

i get to check my mail box, delete junks and replying '' mrs. grace johnson's '' hoax mail.

i get to blog...the best place for me to crap endlessly.

so goodd..wahaha!

yea...and i dunno why i am getting more and more forgetfull these days.
this afternoon, i went to my HCI class at 3.00 pm. thinking that i've reached on time, i walk in very casually (selamba, they say...) than, suddenly i felt some sudden silence hitting the room. i turned around and found the others staring at me, and the lecturer suddenly ask me if i've forgotten today's class. i was like 'huh?'. then, hoo keng said that today's class is at 2.00 pm! i was still blur then, thinking that the lecturer started our class earlier.

then, suddenly henry said 'today's monday' and a great pang hit me. WTH!!! i've forgotten that HCI class is at 2 every monday and in fact, HCI class never start at 3! i was 1 hour late and i walk in such a..*sigh*..manner=.="

damn 'paiseh' lar!

geez...what a day.

EMHO!

2008-10-08T00:53:00.000+08:00

went to mid valley with wei leng yesterday because i wanna buy my grocery stuff (kononnya...and why i want to buy groceries at, of all places, mid valley? *haha*)

yeah, i know that i can buy biscuits and chocolate drinks at the local convenient stores. save time and cost. BUT i simply love to go to shopping centres and spend money on food and some inedible stuff despite me knowing that my wallet is already as dry as salted fish. call me the ignorant and imprudent consumer, but i am still loving the bad money squandering habit of mine. after all, that habit occurs only during certain period...(however, i don't have pre-shopping+eating syndrome. it comes suddenly!)

so, out of the blue, i asked wei leng to go shopping with me. thanks wei leng!

went sushi-ing at sushi king. nah, not all sushi king's good though. somehow, those sushi that we ate are just normal, can't make us fly and explode while eating them.

oh, but i love dinner!

it's my first time being in this eatery. awesome.

picture #1 : the clue
this is actually part of the table!
but, when captured this way, it looks more like the dancing floor of some olden days disco to me.
...or those wall tiles from someone's house.

it's chilis! i finally get the chance to dine here.
but why's the name? chilis?
why not tomatos?

those normal eateries i've been to use maggi chilli/tomato sauce
and, while hawker stalls provide you sambal belacan/kimbal chilli sauce/cili padi,
chilis provides you with heinz chilli/tomato sause

heard the brand but never taste the chilli sauce before

this is my drink. must be wondering of-all-drinks, why lipton yellow label tea?
it actually felt a bit weird to drink tea at such place

anyway, this "mug" of tea cost me RM5.xx
(my thought : wah! so expensive!!! tea only mah!)
i am not a fan of tea and i don't buy tea sachets. therefore i have no idea regarding the market price of lipton's.

mental note: must remember to check those super markets for the price!

my plate. lamb shoulder.
interesting colour. there's protein, carbohydrates and greens.

except for the greens being slightly-too-soft, the rest is ichiban!
love the mashed potato and the gravy.
it's mashed and yet you will still be able to bite on some soft cubes of potatoes.

garlic toast...ok..it tastes like garlic toast lar...

lamb. just nice. tender and juicy.
oo la la!
it doesn't smell bad!

actually, i wanted to order that "portabella(?)" stuff because it looks delicious, and so is the price!

mental note(again): must try that dish on next visit...no matter what

wei leng's plate. forgetten the name but it's chicken breast something something

the corn has some salt and herbs sprinkled onto it
i planted some bites(not kisses) onto the corn
woo la la!
it's buttery...i like.

so? both us ate a total of 72 ringgit.
well, i think that's the value if you really want to taste quality
it may be much more than that in some other place, rite?

Who's This?!

2008-10-07T20:17:00.004+08:00

my dear friends, i am now a changed person.

i changed my identity, but my i will still remember you people...*sob! sob!*

ok...seriously i love my own id.

but, everytime i login with my id, this ALIEN id is displayed!!!

who the hell is this???!!!

this system limits us to 40 hours of internet per week

look at the time remaining, 00:00!

and it's just two days from the reset-point day.

something is wrong with the system...
*can you please add more hours to my account? please*

Ich habe hunger!

2008-10-05T00:05:00.006+08:00

i am currently facing the "grey" side of my life

why ?

1) because there's no food since the food court's still not opened yet.
(walked to putra and found out that it's closed. went to ktdi's. was given a glimpse of hope by the bright pendaflours lighting the ktdi cafeteria only to find that it's food-less too!)

2) because i skipped my breakfast this morning. (i eat slow and i have a bus to catch)

3) because i have not eaten a single grain of rice today...=.= (my root is china and rice is staple. typical "fan-tung" (rice cooker) haha!)

4) because the stupid and foolish me did not bring mom's luncheon meat sandwiches back to uni. (i thought i could survive on my own nerves...foolish!)

5) because i only get to munch on the 2nd half of my "zhu zhai peng" (piggy biscuit?) and that's all that's keeping me the whole day.

6) because i refuse to bring food stocks(milo, mooncakes, biscuits and fruits) from home back to uni. regretted when i stare at the "un-interesting" food shelf. my food shelf now has only an empty honey bottle, empty tupperwares, a pack of instant noodle with "euuw" flavouring(get me? get me?), empty milo tin, cereals and legumes powder.

7) because it's too late to order McD now. T.T and McD's expensive!
(Serdang's McD branch does not operate 24 hrs, i checked this from the McD Malaysia site)

8) because i am getting more and more hungry while reading food blogs.

9) because i am really hungry.

apart from food and groaning stomach : nope...all i can think right now is FOOD.

i have never been in such crisis before...the worst is because i don't have enough money to buy food and me skipping meals because i wanna sleep...

it's just one day and yet i am already feeling so bad. those african kids and kids from some other countries where food crisis is prominent must be suffering. of course, one couldn't really understand the devastation by just starving for a whole day. so, i am still a fortunate and lucky girl! thanks God!

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to mum and dad, sorry for being ungratefull.

i know mum purposely prepared the sandwiches this morning(although you're still recuperating from your eye surgery) so me and brother would be able to have something to munch on in case food stalls are not opened. i know mum and dad packed some fruits because i have unhealthy skin but i refused just because i my bag's already crammed. i know that dad bought wanton mee because breakfast's important.

mummy, hope you become well again. i love you and dad.

Let me crap!!!

2008-10-02T23:46:00.006+08:00

today's colour is dark brown. my feeling's down.

got annoyed by somebody and later got into a quarrel with her, over something so trivial.

is this a routine in my daily life or what? can't pass a day at home without eating some bombs and stepping on landmines. *sigh*

for the first time in my life, i used the phrase "Don't FORCE me. Just leave me alone! i wanna be alone! i dunwan to be out with the crowd!!!". it's like i am clearing off everything in my chest. i thundered through my cell so loud.

then, an old friend messaged me:

#pls wear sexy n nicely tomolo. i will bring the professional camera to pizza hut. tomolo i'm becoming the photographer, so only i can wear casual wear #

somehow i think the message is funny. my emotion alleviated.
thanks sze teng, you have no idea how much this sms means to me, just when i need something to cool me down. kiss you!

oh~shall stop here. must sleep early to reduce puffiness in eyes.

two more days, and i'll be back to uni again. very unsure of how i feel. neither happy nor sad.
Neutral, pH 7.0.

ok...really must stop myself from crapping further.

Curse YOU!!!

2008-10-02T15:33:00.003+08:00

this kick ass & drop ass guy really PISS me off!!!

sudah lah spoilt, some more so mengada-ngada!

think you very good ah? very clever ar? WTFFFFFFF!

you think you can scold with vulgar words, I dunno meh...go eat shit lar!!!

if you are made of gold, i will burn you, melt you until you become some useless shitting liquid!!!

so what, gold don't melt easily, than dun worry..i will take my own sweet time KILLING YOU!

in my eyes, you are not more than important compared to a piece of charcoal.

always also rely on other people to do stuff for you. damn useless.

always leave embarassing decission for others to make...smash you kow kow!

think you very great ar? people wanna take your second hand stuff...

you think you so important? like without you, it's the end of the world.

i wish that your laptop go flat under the tractor, got burnt, kena virus until it can no longer operates.

WTH...

i SERIOUSLY hope that you read this post. i DARE you!

Exercising My Stomach

2008-09-30T22:49:00.018+08:00

when i say exercise, it's not about training my abs, no push-ups', no sweat...not the physical and external training. it's training to my intestines...in a delicious way.

introducing my breakfast!!!

this is the super curry mee. red and fiery. worth waking up for.^^
early morning eat curry...hebat!
actually, this bowl of curry mee is quite healthy. no santan, got prawns(proteins), mint leaves and taugeh(can prevent constipation? consider veggies wat...), taufu pok(properties unknown=.=). a well balanced bowl.

oh...i have not eat curry mee for a long long long long longggggg time.

curry mee close-up shot. purposely shot to annoy people with the prawn, taufu pok and the taugeh.^^
ipoh is famous for her big fat taugeh. should add one more description - short.

this curry comes not from ipoh but somewhere near ipoh, maybe the cook bought taugehs from ipoh?

ate and dug further, *GASP!* got siew yuk(roasted pork) and si ham(cockles) wor! didn't realise it until i almost finish up the whole bowl.

i have this habit of leaving all the best things for the last. noodles almost finished up but the prawns and other favourites were left "unharmed".

the end of the curry mee. bye bye prawns, taufu pok, siham, taugeh, siew yuk and mint leaves.

never waste my food^^

slurped the soup till the last drop

this is my traditional [belated] birthday meal.
being a hokkienese, every year mum cooks mee suah for the birthday boy/girl/man
this is mine. very delicious and nutritious.
Gee! thanks, mummy!

she always joke that every member of the family gets to eat his mee suah every year except her.
why?
because her daughters and son cooks only instant mee. better, with egg...
so...
i always tell her that i can cook her a bowl of chicken soup maggi + egg + seaweed + crabstick
hahaha!

and, this half-bitten round thingy is "yu pei kok"
the outer layer is made of 90% fish, 10% of other ingredients.
fillings are fresh and bouncy prawns!!! parsley and oh-i-dun-remember

ultra loving the prawns. so juicy and crunchy!

i gonna go back to uni with excess kg's and expended "spare tyre"
i gonna miss the food at home

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conclusion. my intestines are perfectly good food storage.

okok...biologically, intestines do not store food. that was literally. blek!

Food for Thoughts

2008-09-27T22:51:00.002+08:00

#1 :

this is a story about 4 people, named Everyday, Somebody, Anybody and Nobody.

there was this important task to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it.

Anybody could have done it but Nobody did it.

Somebody got angry about that because it was Everybody's job.

Everybody thought Anybody could do it but Nobody realised that Everybody wouldn't do it.

it ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody could have done.

#2:

a middle eastern mystic said...

i was a revolutionary when i was young and all my prayers to God was :
"Lord, give me the energy to change the world."

as i approach middle age and realise that my life was half gone without my changing a single soul, i changed my prayer to :
"Lord, give me the grace to change all those who come into contact with me, just my family and friends. i shall be satisfied."

now that i am an old man, my days are numbered, i have begun to see how foolish i have been. my one pray now is :
"Lord, please give me the grace to change myself."

if i had prayed for this right from the start, i would not have wasted my life.

#3 :

(this piece of poem originated from the Nov 2004 issue of digital family of mexico)

when i turn old

when i turn old, when i am not the original me,
please understand me and have patience with me.

when i drip gravy all over my clothes, when i forgot to tie my shoelaces,
please remember how i taught you what to do, and how to do many things by hand.

when i repeatedly tell you things that you're tired of hearing,
please be patient and listen to me.
please do not interrupt me.
when you were young, i told you the same story over and over again until you were sound asleep.

when i need you to help me to bathe,
please do not scold me.
do you still remember how when you were small i had to coax you you to take a bath?

when i do not understand new technology,
please do not laugh at me or mock me.
please think how i used to be patient with you to answer your every "why".

when my two legs are tired and i cannot walk anymore,
please stretch out your powerful hands to lend me a hand, just like when you were a baby learning to walk, i held both your hands.

when i suddenly forget what subject we are discussing,
please give me a little time to recollect.
actually, it does not matter what we are talking about; as long as you are by my side, i am so contented and happy already.

when you see the old me, please do not be sad.
please understand me and support me, just like how i was with you when you were young and were learning to face life.
at the beginning, i guided you to the path of life.
now, i ask you to keep me accompany to finish this last leg of my life.
give me your love and patience, i will give you a grateful smile, and crystallised in this smile is my endless love for you.

mum showed me these articles which she copied from dunno-where and i thought it's worth sharing.

have a nice day;)

Home Suss Home

2008-09-27T01:43:00.007+08:00

there's no place better than my own house, my own room...currently treating myself to my softy bed and cushy pillows. ah...the bliss~

so glad to be at home. gosh! i miss my piano sooooo much! every time, when i come back, the first thing i always do is to play the piano. it has become a routine since my first home-coming from uni. okok! i miss my mum and dad too lah...

i also miss mum's cooking. got fed up with "outside" food especially those from putra food court.

reasons:
1. putra has about 8 stalls, including 1 mamak food stall BUT their menus are like copy cat of each other. nasi goreng kampung, nasi goreng thai, nasi goreng pattaya (Uhh...bet every unis' food court cook the same food too =.="). the difference is mamak stall has an extra to it's menu...ROTI CANAI, another new stall offers sizzling noodles and claypot noodles. a mary brown coming up soon..

2. price. not cheap you know! it is more costly to eat in the food court than to eat outside the uni area.

3. "appearances" of food. as usual malay food are related to spicy-ness and sort of "creamy" (lotsa coconut milk). no bias and racism here. i just think that the food court's food are always either greenish yellow, orange and red. e.g : curry chicken, curry fish, veggies in santan, eggs in chilli sauce...etc. i want more LEAFY GREENS!

so, i started to appreciate mum's home cooked food. they are filled with love! the best thing is...i don't need to pay for the food at home. Yay!

today, when i came back, mum and dad was busy. so, mum prepared a simple dinner comprising of boiled lady fingers with BBQ sauce, a fried veggie and fried luncheon meat with egg plus sweet potatoes "tong sui". simple yet delicious. i took second helpings!

the last piece of luncheon meat...and it's mine!!!
shmeckt fantastisch!

sweet and gingery "tong sui"

so happy~i stuffed myself crazy until i felt terribly full. oo la la!

To whom it may concern

2008-09-22T18:03:00.004+08:00

hmm...can we talk?

what happened? what went wrong between us?

we used to laugh, and chat...about lotsa stuff

but now, our friendship took a twist...

it's not the same as before

the feeling's strange, so far apart

please, i don't want you to be my "hi-and-bye-friend"

do you understand?

Malaysia's Public Transport

2008-09-22T02:46:00.000+08:00

as usual, if you are to wait for a public transport in malaysia, you need one vital attitude...PATIENCE. and there is a LAW that you need to understand : the bus that you want to get on board is always the hardest to wait for compared to the other buses. and when finally you see the bus coming and you start to continuously flap your arms, signalling for the bus to stop, the bus just zoom off in front of you. ARGH...! so PISSED off lar!!! then, no choice. you have to wait and wait and wait patiently again...

and FINALLY, another bus came, you boarded the bus and ~Voila!~a whole new world! the bus is sooooooo crammed, or like what my friends will always say, "packed like sardines". and yet, when the bus stops at another bus stop, new passengers will keep on squeezing their way into the already-packed-bus. that's when everyone in the bus gets so "intimate" with each other. bodies jostling and hands here and there, searching for support(be it intended or accidental, you know what i mean). also, you can have "aromatherapy" session...for FREE! though most of the "aromas" are weird and hard-to-find, mostly sour...salty?

haih...what to do? public bus is cheaper mah...and nobody likes waiting since they have to wait like hell for the next bus. you can't blame them, really! i am like that too!

well, that's the public bus. the commuter train is almost the same too. the commuter trains during peak hours are really...uhmmm...

once the train stops and the door slides open, everyone will be pushing forward in such a "kiasu" manner that outgoing passengers are often stucked. then, the "compact-ness" in the train allows you to stand steadily meaning that you won't fall down even when the train is taking a turn because everyone is so tightly squeezed to each other that there is hardly any room for you to fall down. yeah...you can breathe in various "bodily scents".

haih...that's our beloved public transports.;P

Addicted to You~

2008-09-21T00:30:00.001+08:00

addicted? to who?! hehe...no lah..i am not into a person lar...

lately, i am getting more and more addicted to jazz.

i have always been a fan of jazz. love the syncopated rhythm, the creative improvisations, the "jazzy" chords, the running blue notes, the softness, the calmness and the sexiness it echoes, down to the instruments used...instruments? yeah, speaking of instrument, i think that the sexiest instrument must be the SAXOPHONE! i was like WOW! whenever the music enters into the saxophone solo part. What about piano then? well, piano is not sexy, it's about ELEGANCE. piano jazz are very nice, sometimes playful, it emits an air of peace and tranquility. AHHH...i am going crazy!!!

i always imagine rainy days, lying down on a soft comfy sofa, sipping a cup of hot latte or a glass of the finest wine while listening to the ever-soothing jazz. ah...the blissfull feel. or coming back from a tiring work, then retiring to the cosy sofa, legs stretched on the coffee table with the jazz on..you will fall asleep without bathing that day...oh! or another scenario: you dip yourself in a jacuzzi, closing your eyes, you immersed yourself into the jazzy tunes (then, you fall asleep?)

ok ok! these are very old fashion scenarios indeed. but, this is how i really wish to enjoy music.

surf through the internet for some nice jazz and stumbled upon live-piano.com, which at the moment is featuring a German pianistin gitta hauenherm. sie spielt sehr gut klavier! too bad that all the audio clips are just for preview. anyway, i love her version of "girl from ipanema" and a few others too. then, there's this musician who compose jazz pieces, aaron goldberg. after listening to his album, i felt like running off to the nearest video store to grab his album. i want gitta's album too! going NUTSSS!

Hey, me...listen

2008-09-20T01:24:00.000+08:00

it is unbelievable how fast time passes by. i've just finished my second exam for the fifth subject this afternoon, followed by calculus this sunday and a last paper on next friday. there goes my second exam and soon, we will all be sitting for our finals. and, that marks the DOT to our third semester.

come to think of it now, what have i achieved and what did i do in my first year? and, with my third semester coming to an end, have i been progressing compared to last semester? so many question marks plastered to my head. am i really fit to face the world and its society? how ready i am?

gosh! i have been to playfull, lazy(gotta admit that), pampered, spoilt, immature! i have to admit that i am pampering myself too heavily that i am so unwilling to step out of the comfy zone, have been too timid to make a brave decision, have been so "unbothered" to shoulder responsibilities. i have been too "into" my own ideal world.

i've always hope to be able to graduate out as a brilliant and quality graduate that shines brightly among the large quantity of fresh graduates. even when i was still a little girl, i have very high hopes and expatation for myself. i was greedy. i wanted all the best. dreamt that i was granted the scholarship to study in UK, white collar job, live in big banglo with a Steinway&Sons grand piano standing proudly in the spacious room, speeds the coolest car and mom and dad having a nice life. but, where am i standing now? i am nowhere...i am going downhill...

i wonder what makes me change so drastically? from someone who have been giving top most priority to her academics to someone who scores just a mere passing in her subects now? where has all my motivation gone to? my grades in uni sucks!(well, my habits kill me).

i still can't see what's lying ahead of me. i am struggling in my own confusion...(in this case, my stubborness is what that's stopping me)

yee hieng, please do something! WAKE UP!!! DREAM NO MORE!

I WANNA STAND UP AGAIN!!! I WANNA BE STRONGER!!!

My Little Secrets

2008-09-11T20:23:00.005+08:00

hm...i wonder if my friends know that~

i had two crushes? well, that's ages ago...i don't think my family knows either!

i hate bras with wire? euuuww....

i admire yundi li very very much to the point that i started imagining things? i imagined him being my brother/neighbour/classmate so that i can listen to his playing LIVE!!! learn from him...

i still do not know how to pay electric bills...?

i felt uncomfortable watching kissing or those love dovey scenes in movies with other people? hm...i prefer watching alone, in that case

i like pleated and scottish-style skirts?

i have about five different skirts in my wardrobe but have never wear them, even once?

i always buy books that i can't finish reading? or stuff that i don't need?

i feel a bit embarassed to walk at the lingerie section/shop?

i pick my nose when no one's watching...ahaahaha!(when my nose feels desperately itchy!)?

i doubted my best friend a few times?(forgotten why it is...)

whenever i am angry with a person, i imagine karate-ing him/her?

i get jealous easily? (i am at a better control now, though. Phew~)

i have not tasted beverages with alcoholic level more than 5%? i wish i can try one...

i wanted to know how it's like to be drunk? wierd, huh?

i think beethoven's fur elise is scarry?

i've said a mega vulgar word to scold someone? well, at that time, i have no idea what that word means...

i cursed someone important to me? (i am so so so so so Sorry)

hm...it feels light~it's sure nice to break free, to vomit out some of those stuff hidden in your "closet", once in a while. isn't it? :)

Oh, NOOOoo! not you again , Mr As Sign Ment

2008-09-04T11:27:00.004+08:00

since the day i came back from hometown, i have been mugging at my assignments.

and, yesterday, our lecturer said he would be giving us new assignment. Tadaa! and to think of it, i have yet to even start the previous assignment he gave us last week!

why assignments keep on piling and piling when i still have the old ones? why doesn't this condition happens in terms of financial? why money do not keep on piling up like assignments do? it takes so much effort to produce a piece of assignment but so effortless to spend money.

ok...stop with this money issue.

i think this week, i have been quite "hardworking" already(judging by the fact that i have been watching less episodes of anime;p) hm...maybe my speed is too slow.

i don't mind having to do assignments every week but this week feels busy. so for now, i think i have enough assignments to keep me busy. i don't need new ones!!!

dear assignment, i don't wanna see you...boo~!

Hairy Feedbacks

2008-09-02T14:26:00.003+08:00

i went to calculus class today. i dunno how to describe my feelings as i walked into the lecture hall. i felt like hiding somewhere...gosh! it takes a few minutes for me to get use to the situation.

i think my latest haircut has made me unrecognisable. yes? no? well, i think that's the case for mien may. hahahahaha!

the way my friends response really tickles me!

mien may couldn't recognise me on the first glance. she looked a second time and went "Ehhhh!"

then the others came in....here's some of their responses:

chun ann : wah...you cut your hair! normally, this hairstyle can be seen in anime only...
(actually there's some truth to the statement. i like the gundam seed destiny guy, rey! i wanna immitate his hairstyle)
henry : so sharp...can i cut my hair like yours?
por shen : are you sure the right fish came back? (hahaha!)

well, my friends said that my head look bigger. yeah! damn true! i've got to admit that i feel the same thing too, since the day i had my haircut.

nothing can be done now. i'll just wait until my hair gets "bushy" again. then, i'll go experimenting on another style! *evil laugh*

Argh...time to do assignments AGAIN!!!

2008-09-02T14:10:00.000+08:00

i am back from my lovely home sweet home...

...and now i am back in my hostel, typing at the keyboard, munching biscuits while surfing for my assignments. serve me right! i've forgotten to bring my assignment papers home. oh~but i doubt if i will ever do my assignments at home even i have the papers with me.

i never have the motivation to start my assignments until the day before the due date. but, i always have EXTRA motivation to sleep, eat, watch anime and play spider solitaire. why am i so lazy ar?

now, in the midst of searching for info, i am crapping here! actually i wanted to post photos taken during steamboat and the sunway pyramid outing. mana tau, fail to upload wor...*sigh*

ok! ok! focus! back to assignments...

I love them!

2008-09-02T02:13:00.000+08:00

~S.T.E.A.M.B.O.A.T~

i've always LOVE steamboat-ing and being with these lively friends!
the biggest crowd in the house for the day!

my besties!

my 'big sisters'.

TEH advertisement. rasa KOW, ada Ommph~!
support TEH!

almaz : Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....i wanna jump down!!!
our after-steamboat antics

the mess we created

~kp and pauline~
haha...they look like a couple, agree?

aiyo..aswin, you haven't kenyang ar?

~S.U.N.W.A.Y P.Y.R.A.M.I.D~

i love group photos!

yummy food..can see, cannot eat *sob!*
they are inedible...fakes
too BAD!

skating...Aloha~!
after all the loud thuds and injuries, we can still pose for the camera. not bad, eh?

ah..i have to declare that i enjoy skating although i can barely skate. =.="
after skating, legs, arms and buttocks ached like hell! thanks to all those falls~

we snap pictures everywhere! wherever we like...even in front of the notice board

our skating master. sifu, let us be your 'tou tai'(cantonese)
now i know pauline can skate quite well

woohoo! dicmun slashed his pants with skating blade
he said no one in upm will know about this. haha! now you know. dun care~he doesn't know about me blogging this anyway. lalala!

our 'dinsup'(dinner+supper)
we are godzillas'

taking this oppurtunity to say how much i enjoy being with you guys!
i LOVE you, pals!

i wish that time freeze at moments like this
how i wish that time don't fly
i realise that everyone will have to go on their parting ways, eventually

when the day comes,
i just wish that we won't forget each other

for the present, i will cherish and appreciate all the good times together

Oops! What HAPPENED to ME?!

2008-08-31T17:24:00.000+08:00

I can't believe it! i just had my most expensive haircut!(well...normally, i won't spend so much on my hair)

now, let me tell you some "history" about me.
i used to go to a perm parlour simply because it's CHEAP! and whenever i go for a haircut, i won't make a lot of demands. i'll just let the hairdresser aunty do whatever she wants with my hair. however as a formality, she will still ask me what i want, and my answer will be forever the same: oh~just cut it short, make it neat, cut whichever way you think would be suitable on me.
the output? i have had the same hair style for amazingly 8 years!!!

this year onwards, instead of going back to the aunty, i went to a hairdresser saloon. i wanted to try something new mah! so, today, i told the hairdresser that i like the japanese funky hair and she suggested some styles and fringes, saying that she might need to apply some hair straightening treatment to my hair. i was reassured that it's not rebonding so i gave it a try...

finally, the result!!! : to say the truth, i am really not used to seeing my hair sticking flat on my head. but i love the light feel and the side burn. the flatness is not permanent, though. the price was what that shocked me. RM110! hm..maybe some will consider it reasonable but for me it's abit too pricey. i will be able to but lotsa nice food or a new watch. will be living "moderately" after this *><*

effects : judging from the looks from my mum, dad, and brother, i wonder how my friends will react. my brother gave me that *yer* look. he said that he can have about 37 haircuts with the price. Blek! girls and guys not the same lar!

Keep 'un'-tempted!!! Don't BUYYYY!!!

2008-08-27T19:27:00.000+08:00

i saw an Adidas bag that day!!!

it has this sporty look. well, it's a blue sports bag. not too big nor too small. just nice for me.

peeked at the price tag...RM89.90! at one point, it seems affordable because those adidas stuff that i saw normally is 100++ and above. SOooo tempted to buy it. then, i peeped into my wallet...sigh* T.T

my self-conversation section:-
angellic side of me : NO!!! don't buy! don't buy!
devil side of me : Go on! just buy it! it's nice...it's a treat for yourself

i made the final decision-to bid the bag sayonara. but then, i wanted the bag so badly that i smsed amy.

this how part of our conversation went~
me : ...i'm still fighting of d adidas devil!!!
amy: ...wait till u see nick(i think she mis-typed). then u will be crying...lol, all branded stuff are evil...

****a few minutes later, rain started pouring down****

me : kenot tahan! tahan!! oh..crap la amy! raining heavily...d rain is evil too! it makes me stay near to the shop.
amy : lol. we shall declare adidas n rain evil! upmost evil! u mus tahan! tahan!!

haha~! i have been putting blames on the bag, the rain and everything except...ME! i am the devil myself.

finally, i dashed out to the bus stand with drops of rain tickling me.

adieu~baggy! *.*