Day 2

#sorry that i am not very cooperative#

*** what we did today ***
we had our first discussion. it's a good start. at least we are going through the first phase of the project. i can't say that we are very productive but nevertheless, we came up with something. from this discussion, i can see that everyone's attention is not at the right place. one is eager to get back into the air-conditioned lab-and that's me, another is eager to get off to town for his "minum" session and the last girl seems very busy. well, at least the second guy puts in initiative to start the discussion, jot down details and give opinions. i just couldn't bear with the last person. her cellphone keeps on ringing, and the ringtone's noisy. it's just annoying and irritating. can't she just put her phone into silent mode? i find it irritating when somebody distracts the discussion.

another thing is that we are all "going to different directions". we do not own the same goal. i mean disagreements do happen, in fact, all the time, in group discussion but this is somehow different. how should i put it? hm...never mind. maybe it's just me.

maybe i am the problem. i am the kind who talks big, but do little. i admit that.
i am also very dependent on my programming-expert friends, but that doesn't apply now. the girl doesn't even understand html despite her taking java classes with us. not wanting to sound ego, but really, i thought i am the weakest, and here, i really do not know whether i should feel relieved that i will not be intimidated by the geniuses, or i should be worried that our project will be a mess, worst-a failure. right now, i think it would be incredible, if we manage to deliver the result in the end. it's looking bleak.

i just hope that i'll "grow up" from this training, stop relying too much on people and starts putting words into action.

*** lunch ***
after the tiring and exhausting walk from the faculty to the old flat, i am an inch wiser now. my resolution to having a good and healthy lunch is to become a brown-bagger. i am bringing my own lunch box. so, yay! no longer need to waste energy and money. say no to smelly armpits. hahaha. well, decided to alternate between chocolate sandwich, scrambled-eggs and sardine. the only downside is that, i need to wake up earlier to prepare them. *grumble*

so, that's day 2 for me.

i'll try to look optimistic.