Day 4

#sorry, you gotta face it.#

i am really depressed. my application for a transfer had been rejected. looks like i will be stucked here for 10 weeks, will have to endure pointless discussions with my teammates. i dunno. after the phone call, i just can't help feeling very bitter. tears start swelling in my eyes. the coordinator is very nice but she just wouldn't permit my transfer despite how i reason with her.

**teammates**
i think i have a bit of issue with them.
this team is really unbalanced in terms of skills and expertise-all very blur (including me).
and some really have a different eye on "standard". you would think an ERD comes with attributes, but some just think attributes are unnecessary in ERD. the leader of the group himself is quite unsure of what he's doing and writing. (and he's an ex-dip! isn't he supposed to be good-or at least knowledgeable?!) i am not born a leader, so don't ask me to lead the discussion as i am more comfortable in giving opinions! and, despite me telling him that the two entity that has the same attributes should be grouped into one, he still seperates them. come on!!!

i have to say there are no cohesiveness and bonding in this group at all. i think part of the reason is that i don't feel like bonding too. so, my bad.

what i regret very much is that i couldn't choose the right choice - going under Dr. Fatimah's wing (working in FSKTM) and instead, i agree to a place so far from my hostel. i am sooooo stupid!!! so, practically, i am doomed here.

very unhappy here. negative.


"yeah, you are right. it's part of learning."