bye bye 2008

early post to bid year 2008 adieu!!! cos i know once i am back in hostel, i'll have difficulty connecting to the tortoise uspot. i have not make my new year resolutions yet but i think it will be more or less the same as the year before and the year before that and the year before that year and bla bla...those stuff like doing better in academics, eat less and do more exercises which i always fail to follow. haha

no major celebration but might have some mini celebration to welcome 2009. maybe i'll fo get a few bottles of liqour...maybe~

hhm..i am now posting from the computer lab in my faculty, in the midst of attending my 1st java programming practical class. hehe. tzy chun and i plan to go to mid valley ealier. we were both counting and grumbling when time passes. wonder when the demo will let us go.

anyway, happy new year, folks!

just happy

i am very happy today.
why? because of the two naughty dogs. the breakfast in klang. the outing with kit nyin and everything. because suddenly i feel very close to my family.

having bak kut teh and tea for breakfast with family is totally enjoyable and warm. although the bak kut teh tasted so-so only, but the feeling is delicious. and, mum suddenly wanna learn sudoku. i was surprised. very surprise. then she said that she wants to exercise her brain to lower risks of parkinson and alzheimer's disease. so, now she's busy solving sudoku puzzles every night. haha

and today, i went to red box for the first time. my maiden redbox. in the gardens. i don't like singing much due to inner-complexity reasons like-i can't sing well. i am monotonous. i can't read chinese. i am not familiar with english pop songs and etc. i made my discovery today. singing is quite fun although most of the time, i sang off key, wrong tunes and goes nananananaa....really, actually i have no idea what i am singing. i am just having fun. i croaked as i like.

another discovery. hotel costes albums are damn expensive. 100+. not an album a student like me can afford. i'll have to go on bread for all three meals. too bad. eh, this is nothing to be happy about.

oh, and another discovery. i can get satisfied and happily easily too. i am not such a bitter guard that i think i am, or am i?

good morning, ohaiyou gozaimasu, guten morgan

another beautiful morning has risen again. nothing is more enjoyable than watching the two naughty dogs running around the house. really thanks god for all the nice things that i can see and touch. hero and danson are simply too adorable. i think i will miss little danson's small paws, will miss watching the two dog having fights and will definitely miss watching the two dogs running after my uncle...for food. haha

just now, someone left danson in the middle of the staircase. poor guy. the pup's afraid of height. he could only wagged his tail and stare at you. he was too afraid to move upwards or down the stairs. haha. naughty dog! yesterday he was caught biting away food from the altar. twice. and this smart pup hide under the table, chewing until an aunt saw him. he was caught red handed on his second mischief though. aha!

the dogs sooooooo cuteee...

i wonder...

if it's ok to peek at people's blog as anonymous.
there's a blog which i've enjoy sneaking up on for months and it's now a private blog. i can no longer read it. too bad. i wanna read the blog while still upholding the anonymity. *sigh*

from bad to "badder"

oh, no! i lost my temper again. and the outburst was witnessed by a father of a friend who happened to be repairing our roof top. now, i've earned myself a smellier reputation. but actually, things are not as it seems. i didn't just erupt suddenly, it's for a reason. i hate this-trying hard to be good, and get all efforts broken down by one single mistake. yarghhhhh! if only i could heighten my bloody boiling points and heat capacity!!! i hate this! i hate this! i hate this!

or, maybe i should just be me. trying to be good is just not-so-me. i cease to be myself when i try to be too good and too obedient. everytime. *sigh* whatever done's done, whatever said's said. no turning back. i'll just need to check my temper next time.

i am optimistic that things are going to change for the better soon. yes! go! go!

still not fine

things are still not going well. oh, what should i do now? i am sorry that i caused so much disappointment. fabulously exciting plan went awry. no barbecue grill, no skewers and no trips. promises flowing down the drains. i wonder if they will ever trust my words anymore. when will my holiday "wars" end?

To mummy

mummy's not feeling well and i am feeling very bad. sometimes, i wonder if she gets sick because she's not happy? because she's still angry with me? i want to help but she doesn't want it. this makes me feel depressed. will she ever talk to me again? i am really worried that our future conversations would be only nods and nos. initially, i drew this picture as a get-well-soon-card for mum. i hope it will be able to cheer her up again. but then, i am worried that she might not want to see it. then when i decided to print it out, alas, it came out in blue, black and white. dreadfully ugly.

so. mum, drink more fluid and rest more. get well soon


and ermm...mum? i'm sorry. i'll go hillwalking with you next time. ok?

my monday

hm...how should i describe today? it's monday yet i felt like sunday. i felt lazy yet i helped mum to clean the house. not very willingly, though. just do not feel nice being the only person in the house to relax. *oops!* we are cleaning the house because new year's approaching soon. dad used to joke about our house looking like a "house for human to stay" only during new years. meaning, in all the 365 days, there are only 7 days where the house is really neat and tidy. it's clean during cny and back to "normal" before chap goh mei. so, i wiped the cobwebs and the spidey away from the windows. it's lucky that the weather is nice. cloudy and cool for the whole day. it would be nice to switch into hibernate mode but no. the day was spent, instead, by wiping windows and wiping lizzards droppings that stick on the skirtings. damn the lizzards! shit so much and so randomly. you think my house is public toilet?! i hurt a finger and got minor backbone ache scrubbing off your by-products. hurted another finger while trying to shift some stuff. a sharp edge cut into the skin right under the lower nail. bleed immediately. @#$#% auch!

then,ealier, i got frustrated that my laptop suddenly doesn't carry out tasks as quick as it used to be. is it being overloaded? or i left it on for too long? or it catches a flu? but, thanks god! it's back to normal again. still, something bad happened. i thought i've made a dvd data disc. so, i deleted all the movies that i thought were transferred into the dvd. and, when i checked the dvd again...it's blank. @$#%^
arghhh! my darling movies! i lost my whole season of pushing daisies, the ratatouille and the zohan movies. sad! it took me a few days to finish downloading. "easy come, easy go..."

uhhhh...i miss the pie maker, cod, chuck and olive...

the late-nite "tok"

it's the wedding season. couples are taking vows to become husband and wife. pokok manggas at the juction of the road. bridal shop, restaurants and confectionaries having a boost of economy. dad's receiving a lot of red invitation cards a.k.a the red bomb. getting a lot of invitations means two things. one-you are a man with reputation, two-you are remembered by your friends, i mean close enough to get invited and three-getting ready to fork out $$. it's ironic. you get invited but you need to give red packet, which indirectly means you are paying too. dad said some host would prefer not to be given any but it's the tradition. so most will do that. haha..dad's like santa clauss this few days. nah, it's not the money really. i believe my father's a man who values his friendship.

but, one thing i can't "tahan" whenever he receives a "bomb": he and mum will start saying, "aiyo...when is my turn to distribute these cards ar?" or "when can i distribute "lou poh" biscuits to my friends?" funny, haahaa. pa, ma, faster ask sis to find a bf. your dream will come true. haha. if sis sees this, she will kill me. ><

mum and dad attending wedding dinner in haewaytian today, so sis and i went shopping in ipoh parade. except for parkson, i can't feel the christmas mood in parade. i thought i will be hearing christmas choruses echoing from the shop lots but what i heard instead were chinese new year songs! already? i told sis that maybe during cny they will be playing christmas songs. not that i am anti cny songs, but it's christmas!!! uhmm, maybe christmas's not the fashion in parade.?

yeah, and i've finally know what to get for amy this birthday.*happy!* i thought of d.i.y stuff. found the fabric dyes but can't find a blank t-shirt. just thought of this yesterday. but, when the t-shirt is washed, will the colour goes off? never did this before. someone, please give me advise!!! thought of finding the iron-on paper but not sure where to get it and i don't have adobe. arggghhh...

oh, and mum's calling me again, though it's just that one time. yipee! which means, her anger subsided. it really feels bad when mum doesn't ask me to do housework or help her in the kitchen anymore because it makes me feel useless and my days become gradually boring too. and it's sad to see that all my friends are good with their mum except me. hope that the darks clouds will dissapear soon. totally looking forward to the all-laughter-and-smile-days, uh,,perhaps until the day my final results are announced. *finger crossed*

be grateful and thankful

yee leng's right. what she said to me during the short conversation this afternoon is something i should not forget. i really felt ashamed of myself. all these years, i always complain about a lot of things, dislike a lot of stuff and being (still) jealous a lot of time. i always complain that i don't have this or that, lacking a lot of life's pleasures but i seldom take time to think about how lucky and wealthy i am, being blessed with a good family, responsible and caring parents, a sister and a brother, being given the opportunity to enrol in music classes, art classes, being dressed in kikilala during my childhood, being showered with gifts of barbie dolls, enid blyton books; and cool creative mp3, cellphone and laptop. i don't even need to spend a single cent on my laptop while some of my friends have to use their loans for their laptops. how lucky am i? if i did not learn music, i would not have proper music foundation, will not be able to read scores, play my favourite pieces and jazz. a lot of people wanted to learn piano, but they do not have the opportunity due to the expenses and parents factor. a lot of people envied me that i can play the piano(though not a pro) and if they discover that i am such an ungrateful brat, i think they will kill me.

knowing that i always complain about staying at home during the holidays, mum and dad always suggest that we go to pantai remis and penang, but i always complain that penang is plain boring and i've already been to pantai remis. i always forget that some people don't even get the chance to step out of their houses and that i am so fortunate that my parents took me to different states during every year-end school holidays. and, yet i will still feel jealous that some students, the same age as mine went overseas for vacations. i am so immatured.

when i complain so much about not getting to eat nice and luxurious food, i should remember that not everyone gets the chance to enjoy steaks in chilli's and the "fine" food in indulgence. at least, i've been to these places once. i should feel grateful.

sometimes when i complain that mum didn't cook this for me or do something, it seldom occurs to me that i seldom do things that she wanted me to too. maybe that's why the relationship between me and mum is not like any other family's. i seldom take time to understand mum and i don't think mum understand me too. me and my mum quarells very often. yeah, i dissapointed mum and dad lotsa times. they are sure sad. oh, i am not a good daughter...

so, from this day onwards, i wanna be more grateful, more thankful to god, for everything that i have, the people that i love and the stuff that i enjoy(that includes the streamyx..haha)


yeah...regarding friendship too. (confession: i use to think that my friends kinda few and i am always isolated) ok, i might not have a lotttttttt of friends, not popular among the guys and the girls but, i do have friends that i cherish, that love and remember me. for that , i am thankful too. peeps, i love you! (now, does this make your hair stand?)

james bond vs agent86

wadyahahaha! i've just finished watching an old movie, get smart. ooh...it's damn hillarious. it got my legs swinging in the air as i laughed at all the slapstick humour and fighting scenes. yaya, even the fighting and kicking scenes are funny. it's like watching a 007agent comedy, minus q and money penny, yeah, and the love scenes. i can't help comparing 86 to 007 all the way..haha

1) unlike all the generations of james bond who speeds gadget-modified aston martin, lotus, sunbeam alpine and bmw, max(agent86) didn't have a specific car until he "steals" and drives a sunbeam, out of the museum's main entrance. oh, well, at the beginning, he did steal and drive a ferrari too...

2)agent007 is rather the type of man that makes his speeches short and informative. agent86 is talkative!

3)agent007 will do things in a very precise manner, meaning chances for mistakes are slim. agent86 always makes funny mistakes that eventually ends well, accidental. budden, it's his maiden mission.

4)oh...i have more while watching just now. short of it now

haha, and some of my favourite scenes:
1)he used his mini harpoon for the 1st time in the airplane and got all the arrows fired back on him. one even went through his nostril and through the toilet's door!
2)him dancing with the plump lady. OMG!
3)agent99 and him do acrobatics to dodge the laser sensor grid
4)oh, the one part where he "innocently" he scanned left eye at the biometric security system and later heaved the guy he defeated earlier onto a table that a passer by thought they were having anal sex.
5)his two loyal sidekicks
6)the part where he eavesdropped on the two russians in the toilet. lol! he was urinating and whenever he tried eavesdropping, he stopped urinating., not reliasing that he is making his intention sooooo obvious!
7)the part where a big guy smashed into someone's living room while the residents are watching an action movie. the funny part is one of the resident saying,"see, mom? surround sound kicks ass, it's like it's right in the room!". wakaka!
8)the part where he bowed before the audiences and the orchestra members not knowing that his buttocks are exposed! haha

after watching this movie, i am suddenly interested in bombs and security system. weird. but, i've always like trivial knowledge like steam from your breathe sticks to nothing except the old fingerprints. whoa! is that true? it would be nice if i can pick locks...
found an interesting article.

oh, my dear friends, if you haven't watch this movie...quick!quick! watch it!

oh, i wanna add one more thing to my christmas wish list : Swiss army penknife. wanted that a long long time ago but couldn't afford it then..uhm..now too.


*laughing off~*

woohoo~Yuletide's in the air

the christmas atmosphere is here! advertisements with christmas themes are already adorning the daily papers. can't wait for christmas eve. can't wait to go "celebrate" in kl, can't wait to see the kl shopping malls' christmas decoration!!! i love going shopping malls during christmas because i enjoy the music they play, the decoration and the live performance by a string quartet. kyaaaa! actually, i would love to go some other places, like s'pore for christmas but $$'s the problem!

every year, during christmas, i'll ask mum to buy me christmas hats, christmas ornaments, santa's beard, mistletoe and christmas tree. i have the hat and the ornament, a treble but when i asked them to buy christmas tree, mum and dad would say, everytime, "buy for what? we are not christians, we do not celebrate also, so, what's the point". then when i asked again, they will say, "aiya, our house don't have space to accomadate the tree". then i told them that we can get a smaller tree, their answer, "aiya, later will collect lotsa dust!" ...=.= Ok...

my parents don't celebrate christmas, but i do! erm...in my own way lar..build my christmas wish list, listen to christmas songs(broadcasted on radio and tv) and getting myself a little gift.

speaking of my wish list: i want...
a Partridge in a Pear Tree
2 turtle doves
3 french hens
4 calling birds
5 golden rings
6 geese a laying
7 swans a swimming
8 maids a milking
9 ladies dancing
10 lords a leaping
11 pipers piping
12 drummers drumming

hahaha...kidding. influenced by the 12 days of christmas

i would love to have:
mistletoe
christmas jazz piano book
christmas jazz albums (jazz and blues are always special. christmas jazz is definitely better than the usual version, no?)
casio didital watch (puma also not bad, budden, i love the vintage look of fossil...oh! rolex's oyster perpetual! *greedy pig*)
canon digital camera
locittaine perfume
adidas bag & adidas shoes
stylish laptop bag
a pair of crocs & clarks
a super packet of imported chocolates & pepperidge farm's macademia chocalate chunks cookies.
christmas tree ( a small one to cheer up my study table^^)
john grisham's book
adobe creative suite 3
ticket to mpo
vacation to s'pore, thailand(despite the chaos), japan...
holiday cruise
dinner at the chilli's
ah! swim suit
diesel jeans
jumper(i've always wanted a knitted wear)
backpacking activities

my dear friends, if you happen to be reading this, this is my wish list..ehehehe. it's versatile, useful for christmas and birthday too. *wink* you do not need to crack your head thinking what to get for me.

i am thinking how long it takes to clear this list of mine before i grow more and more greedy, expanding my list like a list-maniac.

merry christmas in advance, dearie friends!


*humming off to a "Rudolph, the red nose reindeer" tune*

My Indulgence Experience

if it's not told by mum, i would not have know that the little white bungalow located next to Ipoh Specialist Hospital is actually a restaurant. i've passed by that place countless time, i saw the house but incredibly, never the name of the place...until we went there last night, only then i realised the name at the entrance: Indulgence, with a small caption beneath: restaurant & living.

i was like, ooooooo...so "this" is the place!!! very very excited because when mum mentioned this place few days ago, i went to google for this indulgence and turn out, it's a fine dining restaurant and boutique hotel. my typical perception on fine dining then were :

exquisite, luxurious, soft music, cosy seats, bottles of wine, small food portion served on larggggeee plate, raw fresh oysters, lobsters, foie gras, truffles and...$$$ ! true or not?

anyway, this restaurant really befits the name. nice ambience, be it for families or couples, accompanied by lounge music and nicely decorated. yes, to me and sis but no for mum, dad, and uncle. they were saying that the soft yellow light makes it hard for them to read the menu. lol!

actually, we didn't know what we should order. maybe fine dining's menus are always full of text and pictureless. i dunno. so, some terms are unfamiliar and we have no idea what's the signature cuisine in the house. what we should taste..than, the waitress came and she gave us a few suggestions. (phew! or we would be sitting there, still unable to decide while other customers coming in later than us begin cutting and sipping..haha..utter nonsense) so, mom ordered pasta and lemon freeze, dad's taking rib eye beef and magnolia ugly, uncle's having lamb rib and pineapple mint, sis's puffed chook(i think it's smoked pumpkin-stuffed-chicken) and ice honey lemon and i ordered salmon trout and passion mango. nobody order wine though.

the dishes arrived, yes, as expected, the plates are big but surprisingly, the portion served is quite large. but dad and uncle are big eaters so, it's not enough for them. (later of the day, both gulped down a bowl of curry mee, dry curry mee and satay...)

although what we ordered yesterday can be found in any western food restaurant[at cheaper price too!] but there's a big difference on how the beef, the salmon and the accompaniments are laid on the plates.

in "normal" eateries:
accompaniments/side dishes=slices of tomatoes, mashed potatoes, french fries, 1 or 2 pieces of lettuce, coselaw(neh, the type i always eat in kfc wan), jacket potatoes
main actor(s): overcooked(sometimes) lamb, beef, chicken, overfried(sometimes) fillet
gravy: mushroom, black pepper, mint, barbeque?
lay out: main actor in the middle, accompaniments beside. artistic arrangement :3/8

in "fine" places:
side=purple lettuce, small sized potatoes(dunno it's baby potatoes, ruby red, gourmet potatoes or what but it's the sized of cherry tomatoes), capsicums(i think might be one of the species), avocado balls, carrots strips, brocolli, corn, jacket potatoes..etc
main actor(s)=nicely cooked and grilled. i mean it's more standard and qc-ed and consistent...
gravy: avocado gravy, those cremes and english sauce...olive oil with herbs...etc..etc..
layout=nicely decorated, nice colours, beautiful and artistically arranged...

too bad i didn't bring along the camera to snap pictures. my cellphone's camera is not good enough to take pictures in dimly lit environment even though i've switch to night mode and turn on the flash light. the output is either to bright or to dark. sad...sad...

5 of us ate rm334.40 including service charge and tax. once back in the car, sis read out the bill. mom was saying the other day that i always order the most expensive food. yeah...it's true. my salmon trout is rm62.00. mom was laughing, "see, i am correct leh?! haha". then, sis announced the most expensive drink's rm18...passion manggoooo...*claps* i won again! haha.

so, my "new" perception of fine dining? pretty much the same although we didn't order the oysters, the lobsters, the chardonnay, the foie gras, and the truffles...

well, some said that this indulgence has been over-rated, but some said it's great. hm..i think it's ok lar...it satisfies my taste buds. dad, who hates western food and sushi, is not a fan. mum doesn't really like outside food but she wanna try. i, on the other hand, enjoy the experience.

this dinner really spark my interest to go savouring other luxury food. i think i am growing to like expensive food. geezzzz...too bad, my economy is limiting me, my budget is constraint because i want so many stuff-books, camera, shoes and watch. that makes me *the poor girl who likes expensive food*

sighhhhhing off~

Do i noe u?

today, i finally learn the consequences of :
1) saving contact number in my cellphone with only one random alphabet. e.g, abc's no. is saved as A's. bcd's no as B's.
2) "deserting" my cellphone too often.

my cellphone is always left alone on my bed. i always go out for lunch, dinner and outings with family without my cellphone, unless i want to play games and do some random shoots with the camera.

so, when i checked my cell, i've got 11 missed calls, from the same person whom i've saved as A.
11? wow, who's looking for me so desperately? (makes me feel so important...haha)

the problem is, who's A???

i called back but nobody answered. so, i just sent a message to this A, pretending i still remember who's A.

me : yes? was not around just now. sori.
*new message came in. it's an unsaved number*
dunno-who: may i noe who r u?
*i thought :this might be the same A. if not, why sent such message?*
me: yee hieng. n u r? did u miss called me this afternoon?

then...

dunno-who: do i noe u?

i was like, "BOMB!" can't describe how i felt then...like wei leng always say, " zha dou!"
it's not funny but i can't help laughing at the silly mis-erm--dunno what-you-call-that.

haiya...so much for being a narcissist

My calculus days

Found this picture of my calculus lecturer in my hp. Can't really remember his first name (oops! I always have trouble remembering names)but we usually call him Ibragimov. A kind and polite lecturer he is. Always make us laugh whenever he speaks his "fluent" bahasa malaysia. Oh, really mìss his funny expressi0n when he says, "kalau ada soalan, sila bertanya" and "jumpa lagi khamis ini". Aww. .he looks so cute and innocent! And, whenever i look at him, i am reminded of my grandpa, the pleasant smile and all that i so so so wanna hug him. One more interesting fact to share..he's d 0nly lecturer who's generous enough to give clues on the white board during quizzes and exams. There's one time where i've totally forgotten 'bout sandwich theorem and he gave us a hint! Really lucky. Haha. Well, proffesor, thanks ya! 


*actually i am trying to blög using my cellphone. For fun. Apparently, ìt's not that convenìent because sek550i's keypads are small.

Of ants and laptops

ants do me no harm. when i am in good mood, i spare their lives, letting them go even though they have been lurking around my favourite muffins, egg tarts and milo. when i am in semi good mood, i squash them softly but not deadly enough so that i can still see them scurry away zig-zag-ly. but i will squeeeeeeezzzeeeee them kow kow when they crawl out from my laptop.

red ants have been crawling out of my keyboard and speakers for quite some time. at first i thought, there must be crumbles of biscuits somewhere on the table near my laptop which attracted ants. so, everytime when i see ants crawling out, i'll clear and wipe my table but the problem still persists. and this stupid-ant-crawling-out-of-my-lappie problem annoys me alot especially when i am watching movie. imagine you watching a movie, a few ants crawl out of your speaker, two or three crawl out from your keyboard every 5 minutes and a few more ants crawling on your screen which makes you wonder why the heroine grows a mole all of a sudden and dissapear the next second.

then today, having nothing better to do, i google for "ants in laptops" and voila~i'm not the only one having this problem. ants have been found crawling out of the keyboards of compaqs, acers and macbooks! apparently, ants LOVE warm surroundings..geeze..anyway, some forums suggested having the laptop dismantled, clean the components and essemble the parts. some solutions are rather funny.

one guy suggested shaking the laptop for about 1 minute to stimulate earthquake for ants before placing the laptop on the floor and placing a cube of sugar near the ventilation hole to attract the ants. another suggested placing a cup of honey to bait those ants. sounds weird but it might work. who knows? another funny answer: bring your laptop to the zoo and throw it to the tenuk(ant eater) because tenuk eats ants..lol! in that case, i'd rather trade in my "infected" laptop and buy a new one, ngam boh? then, i read somewhere a solution that involves placing the laptop in an air-tight enclosure to deprive those ants of oxygen. yeah, everyone knows living things respirate with oxygen. that's logic.

another interesting post:
title :damn ants creep into my laptop
post: my laptop has encountered a dangerous situation....etc etc...
reply: I would have thought it was more dangerous for the ants

lol! hahaha! true! initially, i thougth the same thing too. those ants are not afraid of the heat wan meh? don't they worry if they got fried up, all shrivelled up in the heat?

these ants are surely high-end ants. they choose to live in my toshiba instead of their usual habitat. luxury taste.

hopefully my laptop won't explode while i am engrossed in movies and surfing. shoo! shoo! ants..quit gnawing at my speakers and wires..this is no hansel and gretel story, y'know? ah...and please dun breed in my laptop,ok?!





*3.21am already? wow! my sis's already asleep on her bed with the portable dvd player on. so much for the advise and complains that i waste lotsa electricity. boo~*

Come on...

have you ever been asked "what's your favourite school subject(s)?" during your primary school years? what was your answer then?

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i noticed an interesting misconception today while helping to guide the first years' class today. the students are asked to form simple sentences for words such as "matapelajaran" and "cita-cita". for the word "matapelajaran", the teacher wanted the students to write about their favourite subjects. so, the students busied themselves by forming sentences except for a few naughty students who simply will not want to stick their buttocks on the stools.

then, one of the student wrote, "matapelajaran yang paling saya sukai ialah pendidikan seni dan pendidikan jasmani". a very straight and normal sentence. but the teacher commented, "hah?! you like arts and physical education? everyday don't need to study lar!!!". 12 years back, when i was in my 4th year of schooling, i was asked about my favourite subject and i answered Arts. the teacher then said, "that's what lazy person like to do".

my point here is, why do people often perceive children who like arts and physical education more than any other subjects as lazy bums? what's wrong with having interest in drawing and painting, and doing physical exercises? how exactly is laziness linked to interest in arts and p.e? this is called prejudice! most parents hope that their children will have more interest or better, talent in more popular subjects such as math and science. from the parents' perspective, their children will have better future if they do better in math and science. is that so? i still remember, when i was still a little girl, i love drawing. although mum and dad encouraged me a lot, that they even enrolled me in drawing class, they dislike the idea of me dreaming to become a fashion designer. all they said is, "there's little future in the fashion line".

parents and teachers really need to change their perception. they should. if arts and physical education is so unimportant, why are we taking arts and p.e from primary school up to secondary level, and why the fact that if we fail arts in form 1, we fail in the overall aspect? why not abolish this two subjects in school and insert more slots for the other "useful" subjects?
yeah...i think the answer would be, "to release stress, to nurture the creative skills in students...bla bla bla...".

i think that even though these children might be too young to determine their own interest and their own path, but i believe it is not in the adults' right either, to determine for the young ones, about what they are interested in. wrong ideas should not be created in order to avoid forming more clouds and mist.

i believe that it is to early for the adults to label or to judge them. people do change.
remember how we need to fill in the 3 choices of ambitions when we were in standard 1? most of us will fill in -teacher, doctor, policeman, nurse, lawyer, fire fighter, postman...all the common and basic occupations taught to us. then, we have no idea of other occupations such as coroner, broadcaster, radio dj, anesthetist, actuarist and other "canggih" occupations. how many year one students will write down anesthetist for their ambition? but, when these students grow up, they will open their eyes to a wider view. a lot will end up doing different stuff from what they wrote years ago. what i mean to say here is that, interests are similar to the "occupation scenarios".
interests might change over time too, right?

Instant post...as instant as instant noodles

my present lifestyle is very very normal. i still haven't discover any treasures, have not jump from an aeroplane or do hula loop skips on the roof top, still eating two plates of rice every meal, still yawn at the right time but sleeping at the wrong time (i started yawning at 10 pm but for internet's sake, i stay awake until 4 am), still blogging aimlessly etc etc etc ... the only abnormal thing is that i quarrel less with mom and dad. no bombs exploded so far. the landmines are safely marked.

because my everyday life is as normal as [butter and bread], i sometimes find myself imagining:
at this moment, when i am walking around leisurely, what are my friends doing?
when i am still sleeping, who discovers what, a new decision has been made, a new law has been constructed, an agreement has been signed ... and, i always get carried away. i dunno why.
a lot of things happen every minute.
when i am laughing here, someone in another part of the world might be crying.
when i am having supper, someone out there might be starving.
when something/someone wither away, a new life is delivered, a new bud grow, flowers bloom~
when i am watching tvb dramas, some wizards and witches in hogwarts might be concocting new potions, casting spells and hexes over some bogey trolls...frodo and his uncle bilbo are dancing somewhere in the meadows...uhh, if only fictions are real.

and right now, while i am typing these very words,....i wonder...how many cheese cakes had been eaten worldwide? (sorry...that's what coming out from my head now *sweat* ) eh, speaking of cheese cakes now, people do surveys on issues like, "how many guys will use condom during sex" and "what is the amount of waste produced by humans" but i never hear people surveying on "how much cheese cakes are consumed per year" or "the amount of profit generated by sales of the cheese cake industries per year in every countries". oh...but then, maybe these surveys exist but i am just too ignorant. anyway, i am not so keen in economics lar...



isshk...dunno what i can type in anymore. i wanted so much to end this post with an appriopriate ending but those stuff that i've typed above, it's hard for me to do a related end. at this point, i feel like deleting this post but then i've typed so many words. a bit waste lar. after all, i spent 15 minutes typing this post ! hnnggh, now, i don't feel like deleting "that" 15 minutes.

yeah...i am looking forward to swimming tomorrow. i miss swimming! and double happiness, dad promised to bring us out for steamboat tomorrow night. yipee! i am happy! no matter how many times i have steamboat, i'll never get tired of it. i am easily satisfied by steamboats....







what i am currently doing:
listening to rachmaninoff's piano concerto no.2

found a video at youtube.
a touching and beautiful piece, impressive opening
awesome conductor and pianist
i enjoy looking at conductor's expression while he waved his baton
love the virtouso pianist too...so allegro and vivace!

What makes my day

...breakfast!

my hands twitching to play with pots and pans again.

continuing the spiral episode, today, i tried spiral salad. i am no cooking pro so the output is just like what i've expected, ok, a wee bit better.

this time, i played around with mum's organic apple cider vinegar and olive oil.

mum and dad's precious morning routine drink. it's good for health but i don't like it, even when mixed with honey.


the magical olive oil can be used as salad dressing, and marinating ingredient and hair oil...

i have the tomato slightly toasted with olive oil before mixing them into the bowl of cooked spirals. then i added a light dash of olive oil and apple cider. shaked in some oreganos and mixed the whole lot.

the output:

my "cincai" spiral salad

why cincai? because it's cincai-ly prepared lar!

it looks empty...and it taste like i've poured wine into the bowl..

but still edible!

my own rating : partial failure...*sigh*



side dish...chocolate moist cake

yummy!

of course, yummy food like this is not prepared by me.

how i enjoy this cakes...

pour some coffee into the bowl, allowing the spongy texture to soak up the coffee.

eat!

the cake now taste half chocolaty and coffee

rich in flavour!




*tomorrow i think i wanna try omellete!*

Sudden poppin'

wow, i admire them, the doctors.

truly what i felt when i accompanied mum to the hospital for her eye check-up this morning.
them walking in their white coats, the stethoscopes hanging around their neck, the pens in their pockets, the torch lights and gloves...them(the housemanship doctors) walking in groups, performing morning drills...

i do not know why, all of a sudden, i have this awe towards doctors and pharmacist, especially today. i wonder if the reason lies on the fact that i will never be a doctor in this life, while deep in, i have a certain degree of yearning to become one.

since young, dad had been telling me and my siblings over and over again, that grandpa would be very happy if one of his grandchildren manage to become a doctor. he (grandpa) would be smiling in heaven. as if still fresh in my ears, i can hear him imitating grandpa's expression, "Ahh...there's a doctor among the Tan family." sometimes, i felt that dad was really hoping that one of his children will be able to fulfill this ambition. his children on the other hand, will laugh his ideas away and, when i grow up, i was very certain that my ambition is not to be a doctor because i always thought that that's my father's ambition, not mine.

now that his children is older, and with each one deviating far from the path of doctorhood, he never speak about the grandpa's-dream-comes-true talk, only that he will still tease us occasionally, whenever they went for medical check-up. "see? if you are studying medicine, papa and mama can consult you when we are having health problems!" *haha*

sometimes, i felt sorry to dad because up till now,his children have nothing to be bragged about while he listens to his friends and colleagues talking about their children's success and achievements. "wow, mrs. zz's son is going to London to study medicine", "mr's xx's son got the jpa scholarship", "mr. aa's daughter's pay per month is rm6000!", "mrs. kk's daughter is sent to oversea for work..." *sigh* it's parents' nature to compare their children with the others. but then, this is not entirely a bad thing if you convert it into positive motivation.

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my best interest is in forensics but i am not a brilliant chemist. by chance, i was offered to study computer science majoring in software engineering, not really the type of field i am interested in. but, i decided to give it a try. a try, driven by the obstinate mind rather than passion. sometimes, i do get agitated by knowing some of the things and jobs i can do in the computer science stream, giving me a momentary motivation. i really must preserve this encouragement, etch them firmly in my head and put in more interest. "tak kenal, maka tak cinta" isn't it?

whatever the outcome might be, i would, one day, make my parents proud. well, hopefully^^

time for actionnnnnnnnnnn!

The Chef in Me~

::warning::
you are about to read a post containing [explicit] material.

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a girl who's zero at cooking (unless it's maggi) had just finished her nasty cooking in the kitchen...

dramatic, huh?

i can't cook, but i love to experiment with cooking ingredients and most importantly, i love to eat.
i've got the sudden itch to cook when i saw tricolor spiral pasta and cans of tomato paste in jusco yesterday. so, at last, dad bought the pasta and the tomato paste...and today, since i am "home alone" for the whole morning, i decided to create my own breakfast.

so, cycled back to grandma's house to pick some tomatoes, capsicum, garlics and brocolli.
(mom does her cooking over at grandma's. so, all the ingredients are at grandma's place whereas our place are stocked mostly with instant noodles, and some organic stuffs.)
then, i realised that i didn't bring the keys along. went back to my house and searched for the keys but to no avail. so, forget about the veggies.

then, i saw a can of campbell's chicken soup. *ding! dong!* i've got an idea!
i am going to cook my spirals with campbell's chicken soup!
the messiness starts here. again, my house doesn't have a "modern" can opener, the simply-twist-turn-can-opener, instead, we have here a very antique piece of tool. so, when life gives you lemons, make plenty of lemonade! alas~i spent 20 minutes operating the can. unbelievable.
the rest is normal...cook and stir, prepare the tomato paste and boiling the spirals.

and tadaaa...

my breakfast!

imitation of the twin sauce dish from Food&Tea restaurant.

i name this Chaotic Spirals..because it taste a bit like chaos.

lol, i actually have chicken creamed soup to go with pasta...

just to praise myself abit, the dish looks presentable and edible. not that bad yet, rite? rite?



if i cook this for my mum as her birthday treat, i think she will be touched..and she will tell me

"aiya, ah mei...i can't finish this lar..."

i think, i am going to try something new for breakfast tomorrow. i've got some [crazy] ideas coming up again. wee~

and i'll see which recipe can be used as mum's surprise breakfast.

hopefully, she won't say

"aiyoyo...ah mei...please dun ever ever cook pasta again..."

haha!

holiday schedule

my typical holiday schedule :

8.59 a.m[so precise...] : wake up to a sunny morning, stare at the time on my cell phone. What?! still early? uhh..sleep for '15' more minutes lar...

9.30 a.m : really awake now. brush teeth, breakfast cum surfing cum playing piano

11.30 a.m : surfing and piano

12.30 p.m : surfing and piano ...

1.30 p.m : shower

2.00 p.m : lunch

3.00 p.m : helping mum in the kitchen

4.00 p.m : movies and laptop

6.00 p.m : dinner

9.00 p.m : surfing again

3.00 a.m : put my brain and eyes to rest

sigh...my daily routine so "routined".

my "dream" schedule :

wake up, brush teeth, scrambled eggs sandwich-ing

activities: any of these *hehe*
take off to an island, go surfing, water skiing, yatching, parachuting, diving (and discover hidden treasure map or some treasures or some new aquatic species yet to be discovered by mankind, and get the species named after me...but then, the species must be cute. haha!)

taste new cuisines...challenge myself to eat things that i've never put into my mouth before. (fried insects...*shudders*)

then, if i have enough money and a decent camera, i would love to go on a solo travelling, exploring places new to me, exploring new landscapes, observe, experience and adapting to cultural shocks, etc.
of course, it won't be that easy. lotsa factors to be pondered. but, still feasible.


i would love my holidays to be a bit more adventurous..more surprises, like last minute vacation plans (the suddenly oh-let's-go-pack-bags-off-you-go vacation~lovely!) or a treat to 3 days 2 nights cruise...climb up the roof top, jump from one chimney to another the mary poppins style or...


...the mario style! ( i know it's seriously impossible unless, i am hancock?)

okok...that's not feasible of course. i'll fall off the clouds or the chimney. break my bones.

wait! wow! that's quite an "adventure" too, isn't it?

however, i dun wish that any of my bones break . "be careful of what you wish, for it may comes true"

Motivation

final's around the corner. in fact, i'll be doing my first two papers this thursday.

and, i am really glad that i've found a new source of motivation to push me.

hoping that i am doing better in my finals compared to the last two tests.

really hoping that i'll be able to grab the opportunity that i've long for.

will i still be given the chance?

i am working on it...wait for me! Motivation, please stay with me, always and forever.

Today's the last day...

...of swimming curriculum! woohoo!

very tired. spent 6 hours in the pool today. but, i enjoyed myself tremendously. yes, swimming has always been fun!

previous semester, i took tennis as my co-cu, just because i think that tennis's a popular sport and people who play tennis are COOL. basically, tennis players wear all whites, from head to toe...with exception for the under wears...

then, whenever me and my friends walk to the court, we can feel the people that we pass by on the way looking at us. kinda glamorous...like a super star

i still remember what our tennis coach told us, "mesti ada gaya dulu, tak dapat sambut bola, lain cerita". hahaha! damn true. i definitely pick up more balls than hitting balls. *doink*

now, swimming is a different story.

swimming is an expensive sport, swimming suits are costly!!! squeezed my wallet dry.
but, i am glad that a lot have been learnt throughout the semester.

and i get to jump on the spring board. niceeeee!

we were in the pool, looking at the others doing their bottle jump from the spring board and we were like "wow! that's fun! i wanna try too..."

and finally, when we have the opportunity to do the pseudo-commit-suicide-jump, we were like so anxious...

it's funny how we change from being heroins, who cheers on people to "jump! jump! just jump!" to trembling little girls, who constantly check if the swimming class assistant is down there with the float to save us before we jump!

anyway, i tried the compact jump, where i am supposed to jump up, and curl my body into a compact ball shape in mid air but, i guess gravity's a lot faster than my actions.

i only managed to hug my legs before i fell into the water like a giant watermelon!
aww...wrong techniques, painful stinging butts! =.="

it's a pity that mobile phones aren't made to be water proof.

i have not a single picture by the pool. or the pseudo-corpse-floating-on-surface picture.


yeah, and one more thing...
swimming makes people slimmer...but, how come i am still so plump wan?!!!

The Liar

#so...

you are the jerk, i am the "stupidee"

why? because i trust you..

" harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi " #

there's this guy whom i asked to help to hand-in my data structure 4th assignment. it was friday, before the raya break. i was in a hurry because i was going back to ipoh in my friend's car, at a promised time.

i was desperate, frantically looking for a friend who's in the same class to help me, and i saw him...he seems to be a responsible guy. "don't worry," he said. and, i was relieved, thinking that my assignment will reach the demo's pigeon hole.

that was 3 weeks ago.

then, last wednesday, our demo handed back our assignment papers.
i was shocked to see that my 4th assignment scored only 3/10!!!
on top of the cover, the demp commented :

Late 15/Oct
6/10 -------------------> 3/10
late 50%

this means that my paper is either handed in on the 14th or the 13th!

how can this happen?!

i told the demo that i handed it in on time. and the demo replied "really?"
i think he doesn't really believe. i mean, who will?!
but, he still make an asterisk near my name on the score sheet.
*sigh* poor demo...

now, come to think of it...DON'T WORRY MY ASS!!!
pardon me for my rudeness but this guy, i tell you is a LIAR!

i asked him, very politely, about his score for 4th assignment.
he said " forgotten. why?"
and i said nothing..but then, i really cannot TAHAN anymore!
i ask him straight to the point " when did you pass my assignment?",to which he answered :

"THAT DAY"

fullstop. i asked no more...

running in my mind at that moment : that day...it could be any day!!! OMG!
i STRONGLY SUSPECT that he didn't pass up mine.

the moral of the incident:
1) don't do things last minute
i admit that i didn't print out my assignments earlier...my own fault

2)hand in your own assignments...that's a 100% guarantee

3)don't trust people to do things for you (only if he/she's someone you can really really trust)

4)if HE ever ever ask me to help handing in his assignment, i'll BURN his!!! muahahaha!
revenge is swweeeeeet~!

"no-title-i-wanna-talk-bout-anything"

finally...

the sim4200 database implementation is done. many many thanks to almaz! Banzai!

i get to play a few rounds of spider solitaire before i start on the other three assignments. =.=

i get to surf the net! i have not been surfing for weeks due to the poor line. uspot, ich hasse dich!!!
(me and my friends taking german class this semester and 'ich hasse dich',meaning i hate you is the most famous line among us, thanks to kai leng. she likes to add 'ich hasse dich' at the last line of every messages she types. kai leng loves to abuse it! haha!)

i get to check my mail box, delete junks and replying '' mrs. grace johnson's '' hoax mail.

i get to blog...the best place for me to crap endlessly.

so goodd..wahaha!

yea...and i dunno why i am getting more and more forgetfull these days.
this afternoon, i went to my HCI class at 3.00 pm. thinking that i've reached on time, i walk in very casually (selamba, they say...) than, suddenly i felt some sudden silence hitting the room. i turned around and found the others staring at me, and the lecturer suddenly ask me if i've forgotten today's class. i was like 'huh?'. then, hoo keng said that today's class is at 2.00 pm! i was still blur then, thinking that the lecturer started our class earlier.

then, suddenly henry said 'today's monday' and a great pang hit me. WTH!!! i've forgotten that HCI class is at 2 every monday and in fact, HCI class never start at 3! i was 1 hour late and i walk in such a..*sigh*..manner=.="

damn 'paiseh' lar!

geez...what a day.

EMHO!

went to mid valley with wei leng yesterday because i wanna buy my grocery stuff (kononnya...and why i want to buy groceries at, of all places, mid valley? *haha*)

yeah, i know that i can buy biscuits and chocolate drinks at the local convenient stores. save time and cost. BUT i simply love to go to shopping centres and spend money on food and some inedible stuff despite me knowing that my wallet is already as dry as salted fish. call me the ignorant and imprudent consumer, but i am still loving the bad money squandering habit of mine. after all, that habit occurs only during certain period...(however, i don't have pre-shopping+eating syndrome. it comes suddenly!)

so, out of the blue, i asked wei leng to go shopping with me. thanks wei leng!

went sushi-ing at sushi king. nah, not all sushi king's good though. somehow, those sushi that we ate are just normal, can't make us fly and explode while eating them.

oh, but i love dinner!

it's my first time being in this eatery. awesome.

picture #1 : the clue
this is actually part of the table!
but, when captured this way, it looks more like the dancing floor of some olden days disco to me.
...or those wall tiles from someone's house.

it's chilis! i finally get the chance to dine here.
but why's the name? chilis?
why not tomatos?

those normal eateries i've been to use maggi chilli/tomato sauce
and, while hawker stalls provide you sambal belacan/kimbal chilli sauce/cili padi,
chilis provides you with heinz chilli/tomato sause

heard the brand but never taste the chilli sauce before

this is my drink. must be wondering of-all-drinks, why lipton yellow label tea?
it actually felt a bit weird to drink tea at such place

anyway, this "mug" of tea cost me RM5.xx
(my thought : wah! so expensive!!! tea only mah!)
i am not a fan of tea and i don't buy tea sachets. therefore i have no idea regarding the market price of lipton's.

mental note: must remember to check those super markets for the price!

my plate. lamb shoulder.
interesting colour. there's protein, carbohydrates and greens.

except for the greens being slightly-too-soft, the rest is ichiban!
love the mashed potato and the gravy.
it's mashed and yet you will still be able to bite on some soft cubes of potatoes.

garlic toast...ok..it tastes like garlic toast lar...

lamb. just nice. tender and juicy.
oo la la!
it doesn't smell bad!

actually, i wanted to order that "portabella(?)" stuff because it looks delicious, and so is the price!

mental note(again): must try that dish on next visit...no matter what

wei leng's plate. forgetten the name but it's chicken breast something something

the corn has some salt and herbs sprinkled onto it
i planted some bites(not kisses) onto the corn
woo la la!
it's buttery...i like.

so? both us ate a total of 72 ringgit.
well, i think that's the value if you really want to taste quality
it may be much more than that in some other place, rite?

Who's This?!

my dear friends, i am now a changed person.

i changed my identity, but my i will still remember you people...*sob! sob!*

ok...seriously i love my own id.

but, everytime i login with my id, this ALIEN id is displayed!!!

who the hell is this???!!!


this system limits us to 40 hours of internet per week

look at the time remaining, 00:00!

and it's just two days from the reset-point day.


something is wrong with the system...
*can you please add more hours to my account? please*

Ich habe hunger!

i am currently facing the "grey" side of my life

why ?

1) because there's no food since the food court's still not opened yet.
(walked to putra and found out that it's closed. went to ktdi's. was given a glimpse of hope by the bright pendaflours lighting the ktdi cafeteria only to find that it's food-less too!)

2) because i skipped my breakfast this morning. (i eat slow and i have a bus to catch)

3) because i have not eaten a single grain of rice today...=.= (my root is china and rice is staple. typical "fan-tung" (rice cooker) haha!)

4) because the stupid and foolish me did not bring mom's luncheon meat sandwiches back to uni. (i thought i could survive on my own nerves...foolish!)

5) because i only get to munch on the 2nd half of my "zhu zhai peng" (piggy biscuit?) and that's all that's keeping me the whole day.

6) because i refuse to bring food stocks(milo, mooncakes, biscuits and fruits) from home back to uni. regretted when i stare at the "un-interesting" food shelf. my food shelf now has only an empty honey bottle, empty tupperwares, a pack of instant noodle with "euuw" flavouring(get me? get me?), empty milo tin, cereals and legumes powder.

7) because it's too late to order McD now. T.T and McD's expensive!
(Serdang's McD branch does not operate 24 hrs, i checked this from the McD Malaysia site)

8) because i am getting more and more hungry while reading food blogs.

9) because i am really hungry.

apart from food and groaning stomach : nope...all i can think right now is FOOD.

i have never been in such crisis before...the worst is because i don't have enough money to buy food and me skipping meals because i wanna sleep...

it's just one day and yet i am already feeling so bad. those african kids and kids from some other countries where food crisis is prominent must be suffering. of course, one couldn't really understand the devastation by just starving for a whole day. so, i am still a fortunate and lucky girl! thanks God!

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to mum and dad, sorry for being ungratefull.

i know mum purposely prepared the sandwiches this morning(although you're still recuperating from your eye surgery) so me and brother would be able to have something to munch on in case food stalls are not opened. i know mum and dad packed some fruits because i have unhealthy skin but i refused just because i my bag's already crammed. i know that dad bought wanton mee because breakfast's important.

mummy, hope you become well again. i love you and dad.

Let me crap!!!

today's colour is dark brown. my feeling's down.

got annoyed by somebody and later got into a quarrel with her, over something so trivial.

is this a routine in my daily life or what? can't pass a day at home without eating some bombs and stepping on landmines. *sigh*

for the first time in my life, i used the phrase "Don't FORCE me. Just leave me alone! i wanna be alone! i dunwan to be out with the crowd!!!". it's like i am clearing off everything in my chest. i thundered through my cell so loud.

then, an old friend messaged me:

#pls wear sexy n nicely tomolo. i will bring the professional camera to pizza hut. tomolo i'm becoming the photographer, so only i can wear casual wear #

somehow i think the message is funny. my emotion alleviated.
thanks sze teng, you have no idea how much this sms means to me, just when i need something to cool me down. kiss you!

oh~shall stop here. must sleep early to reduce puffiness in eyes.

two more days, and i'll be back to uni again. very unsure of how i feel. neither happy nor sad.
Neutral, pH 7.0.

ok...really must stop myself from crapping further.

Curse YOU!!!

this kick ass & drop ass guy really PISS me off!!!

sudah lah spoilt, some more so mengada-ngada!

think you very good ah? very clever ar? WTFFFFFFF!


you think you can scold with vulgar words, I dunno meh...go eat shit lar!!!

if you are made of gold, i will burn you, melt you until you become some useless shitting liquid!!!

so what, gold don't melt easily, than dun worry..i will take my own sweet time KILLING YOU!

in my eyes, you are not more than important compared to a piece of charcoal.


always also rely on other people to do stuff for you. damn useless.

always leave embarassing decission for others to make...smash you kow kow!


think you very great ar? people wanna take your second hand stuff...

you think you so important? like without you, it's the end of the world.

i wish that your laptop go flat under the tractor, got burnt, kena virus until it can no longer operates.

WTH...

i SERIOUSLY hope that you read this post. i DARE you!

Exercising My Stomach

when i say exercise, it's not about training my abs, no push-ups', no sweat...not the physical and external training. it's training to my intestines...in a delicious way.


introducing my breakfast!!!

this is the super curry mee. red and fiery. worth waking up for.^^
early morning eat curry...hebat!
actually, this bowl of curry mee is quite healthy. no santan, got prawns(proteins), mint leaves and taugeh(can prevent constipation? consider veggies wat...), taufu pok(properties unknown=.=). a well balanced bowl.

oh...i have not eat curry mee for a long long long long longggggg time.

curry mee close-up shot. purposely shot to annoy people with the prawn, taufu pok and the taugeh.^^
ipoh is famous for her big fat taugeh. should add one more description - short.

this curry comes not from ipoh but somewhere near ipoh, maybe the cook bought taugehs from ipoh?

ate and dug further, *GASP!* got siew yuk(roasted pork) and si ham(cockles) wor! didn't realise it until i almost finish up the whole bowl.

i have this habit of leaving all the best things for the last. noodles almost finished up but the prawns and other favourites were left "unharmed".

the end of the curry mee. bye bye prawns, taufu pok, siham, taugeh, siew yuk and mint leaves.

never waste my food^^

slurped the soup till the last drop

this is my traditional [belated] birthday meal.
being a hokkienese, every year mum cooks mee suah for the birthday boy/girl/man
this is mine. very delicious and nutritious.
Gee! thanks, mummy!


she always joke that every member of the family gets to eat his mee suah every year except her.
why?
because her daughters and son cooks only instant mee. better, with egg...
so...
i always tell her that i can cook her a bowl of chicken soup maggi + egg + seaweed + crabstick
hahaha!



and, this half-bitten round thingy is "yu pei kok"
the outer layer is made of 90% fish, 10% of other ingredients.
fillings are fresh and bouncy prawns!!! parsley and oh-i-dun-remember

ultra loving the prawns. so juicy and crunchy!

i gonna go back to uni with excess kg's and expended "spare tyre"
i gonna miss the food at home

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conclusion. my intestines are perfectly good food storage.

okok...biologically, intestines do not store food. that was literally. blek!

Food for Thoughts

#1 :

this is a story about 4 people, named Everyday, Somebody, Anybody and Nobody.

there was this important task to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it.

Anybody could have done it but Nobody did it.

Somebody got angry about that because it was Everybody's job.

Everybody thought Anybody could do it but Nobody realised that Everybody wouldn't do it.

it ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody could have done.


#2:

a middle eastern mystic said...

i was a revolutionary when i was young and all my prayers to God was :
"Lord, give me the energy to change the world."

as i approach middle age and realise that my life was half gone without my changing a single soul, i changed my prayer to :
"Lord, give me the grace to change all those who come into contact with me, just my family and friends. i shall be satisfied."

now that i am an old man, my days are numbered, i have begun to see how foolish i have been. my one pray now is :
"Lord, please give me the grace to change myself."

if i had prayed for this right from the start, i would not have wasted my life.


#3 :

(this piece of poem originated from the Nov 2004 issue of digital family of mexico)

when i turn old

when i turn old, when i am not the original me,
please understand me and have patience with me.

when i drip gravy all over my clothes, when i forgot to tie my shoelaces,
please remember how i taught you what to do, and how to do many things by hand.

when i repeatedly tell you things that you're tired of hearing,
please be patient and listen to me.
please do not interrupt me.
when you were young, i told you the same story over and over again until you were sound asleep.

when i need you to help me to bathe,
please do not scold me.
do you still remember how when you were small i had to coax you you to take a bath?

when i do not understand new technology,
please do not laugh at me or mock me.
please think how i used to be patient with you to answer your every "why".

when my two legs are tired and i cannot walk anymore,
please stretch out your powerful hands to lend me a hand, just like when you were a baby learning to walk, i held both your hands.

when i suddenly forget what subject we are discussing,
please give me a little time to recollect.
actually, it does not matter what we are talking about; as long as you are by my side, i am so contented and happy already.

when you see the old me, please do not be sad.
please understand me and support me, just like how i was with you when you were young and were learning to face life.
at the beginning, i guided you to the path of life.
now, i ask you to keep me accompany to finish this last leg of my life.
give me your love and patience, i will give you a grateful smile, and crystallised in this smile is my endless love for you.



mum showed me these articles which she copied from dunno-where and i thought it's worth sharing.

have a nice day;)

Home Suss Home

there's no place better than my own house, my own room...currently treating myself to my softy bed and cushy pillows. ah...the bliss~

so glad to be at home. gosh! i miss my piano sooooo much! every time, when i come back, the first thing i always do is to play the piano. it has become a routine since my first home-coming from uni. okok! i miss my mum and dad too lah...

i also miss mum's cooking. got fed up with "outside" food especially those from putra food court.

reasons:
1. putra has about 8 stalls, including 1 mamak food stall BUT their menus are like copy cat of each other. nasi goreng kampung, nasi goreng thai, nasi goreng pattaya (Uhh...bet every unis' food court cook the same food too =.="). the difference is mamak stall has an extra to it's menu...ROTI CANAI, another new stall offers sizzling noodles and claypot noodles. a mary brown coming up soon..

2. price. not cheap you know! it is more costly to eat in the food court than to eat outside the uni area.

3. "appearances" of food. as usual malay food are related to spicy-ness and sort of "creamy" (lotsa coconut milk). no bias and racism here. i just think that the food court's food are always either greenish yellow, orange and red. e.g : curry chicken, curry fish, veggies in santan, eggs in chilli sauce...etc. i want more LEAFY GREENS!

so, i started to appreciate mum's home cooked food. they are filled with love! the best thing is...i don't need to pay for the food at home. Yay!

today, when i came back, mum and dad was busy. so, mum prepared a simple dinner comprising of boiled lady fingers with BBQ sauce, a fried veggie and fried luncheon meat with egg plus sweet potatoes "tong sui". simple yet delicious. i took second helpings!

the last piece of luncheon meat...and it's mine!!!
shmeckt fantastisch!

sweet and gingery "tong sui"

so happy~i stuffed myself crazy until i felt terribly full. oo la la!

To whom it may concern

hmm...can we talk?

what happened? what went wrong between us?

we used to laugh, and chat...about lotsa stuff

but now, our friendship took a twist...

it's not the same as before

the feeling's strange, so far apart

please, i don't want you to be my "hi-and-bye-friend"

do you understand?

Malaysia's Public Transport

as usual, if you are to wait for a public transport in malaysia, you need one vital attitude...PATIENCE. and there is a LAW that you need to understand : the bus that you want to get on board is always the hardest to wait for compared to the other buses. and when finally you see the bus coming and you start to continuously flap your arms, signalling for the bus to stop, the bus just zoom off in front of you. ARGH...! so PISSED off lar!!! then, no choice. you have to wait and wait and wait patiently again...

and FINALLY, another bus came, you boarded the bus and ~Voila!~a whole new world! the bus is sooooooo crammed, or like what my friends will always say, "packed like sardines". and yet, when the bus stops at another bus stop, new passengers will keep on squeezing their way into the already-packed-bus. that's when everyone in the bus gets so "intimate" with each other. bodies jostling and hands here and there, searching for support(be it intended or accidental, you know what i mean). also, you can have "aromatherapy" session...for FREE! though most of the "aromas" are weird and hard-to-find, mostly sour...salty?

haih...what to do? public bus is cheaper mah...and nobody likes waiting since they have to wait like hell for the next bus. you can't blame them, really! i am like that too!

well, that's the public bus. the commuter train is almost the same too. the commuter trains during peak hours are really...uhmmm...

once the train stops and the door slides open, everyone will be pushing forward in such a "kiasu" manner that outgoing passengers are often stucked. then, the "compact-ness" in the train allows you to stand steadily meaning that you won't fall down even when the train is taking a turn because everyone is so tightly squeezed to each other that there is hardly any room for you to fall down. yeah...you can breathe in various "bodily scents".

haih...that's our beloved public transports.;P

Addicted to You~

addicted? to who?! hehe...no lah..i am not into a person lar...

lately, i am getting more and more addicted to jazz.

i have always been a fan of jazz. love the syncopated rhythm, the creative improvisations, the "jazzy" chords, the running blue notes, the softness, the calmness and the sexiness it echoes, down to the instruments used...instruments? yeah, speaking of instrument, i think that the sexiest instrument must be the SAXOPHONE! i was like WOW! whenever the music enters into the saxophone solo part. What about piano then? well, piano is not sexy, it's about ELEGANCE. piano jazz are very nice, sometimes playful, it emits an air of peace and tranquility. AHHH...i am going crazy!!!

i always imagine rainy days, lying down on a soft comfy sofa, sipping a cup of hot latte or a glass of the finest wine while listening to the ever-soothing jazz. ah...the blissfull feel. or coming back from a tiring work, then retiring to the cosy sofa, legs stretched on the coffee table with the jazz on..you will fall asleep without bathing that day...oh! or another scenario: you dip yourself in a jacuzzi, closing your eyes, you immersed yourself into the jazzy tunes (then, you fall asleep?)

ok ok! these are very old fashion scenarios indeed. but, this is how i really wish to enjoy music.



surf through the internet for some nice jazz and stumbled upon live-piano.com, which at the moment is featuring a German pianistin gitta hauenherm. sie spielt sehr gut klavier! too bad that all the audio clips are just for preview. anyway, i love her version of "girl from ipanema" and a few others too. then, there's this musician who compose jazz pieces, aaron goldberg. after listening to his album, i felt like running off to the nearest video store to grab his album. i want gitta's album too! going NUTSSS!

Hey, me...listen

it is unbelievable how fast time passes by. i've just finished my second exam for the fifth subject this afternoon, followed by calculus this sunday and a last paper on next friday. there goes my second exam and soon, we will all be sitting for our finals. and, that marks the DOT to our third semester.

come to think of it now, what have i achieved and what did i do in my first year? and, with my third semester coming to an end, have i been progressing compared to last semester? so many question marks plastered to my head. am i really fit to face the world and its society? how ready i am?

gosh! i have been to playfull, lazy(gotta admit that), pampered, spoilt, immature! i have to admit that i am pampering myself too heavily that i am so unwilling to step out of the comfy zone, have been too timid to make a brave decision, have been so "unbothered" to shoulder responsibilities. i have been too "into" my own ideal world.

i've always hope to be able to graduate out as a brilliant and quality graduate that shines brightly among the large quantity of fresh graduates. even when i was still a little girl, i have very high hopes and expatation for myself. i was greedy. i wanted all the best. dreamt that i was granted the scholarship to study in UK, white collar job, live in big banglo with a Steinway&Sons grand piano standing proudly in the spacious room, speeds the coolest car and mom and dad having a nice life. but, where am i standing now? i am nowhere...i am going downhill...

i wonder what makes me change so drastically? from someone who have been giving top most priority to her academics to someone who scores just a mere passing in her subects now? where has all my motivation gone to? my grades in uni sucks!(well, my habits kill me).

i still can't see what's lying ahead of me. i am struggling in my own confusion...(in this case, my stubborness is what that's stopping me)

yee hieng, please do something! WAKE UP!!! DREAM NO MORE!

I WANNA STAND UP AGAIN!!! I WANNA BE STRONGER!!!

My Little Secrets

hm...i wonder if my friends know that~

i had two crushes? well, that's ages ago...i don't think my family knows either!

i hate bras with wire? euuuww....

i admire yundi li very very much to the point that i started imagining things? i imagined him being my brother/neighbour/classmate so that i can listen to his playing LIVE!!! learn from him...

i still do not know how to pay electric bills...?

i felt uncomfortable watching kissing or those love dovey scenes in movies with other people? hm...i prefer watching alone, in that case

i like pleated and scottish-style skirts?

i have about five different skirts in my wardrobe but have never wear them, even once?

i always buy books that i can't finish reading? or stuff that i don't need?

i feel a bit embarassed to walk at the lingerie section/shop?

i pick my nose when no one's watching...ahaahaha!(when my nose feels desperately itchy!)?

i doubted my best friend a few times?(forgotten why it is...)

whenever i am angry with a person, i imagine karate-ing him/her?

i get jealous easily? (i am at a better control now, though. Phew~)

i have not tasted beverages with alcoholic level more than 5%? i wish i can try one...

i wanted to know how it's like to be drunk? wierd, huh?

i think beethoven's fur elise is scarry?

i've said a mega vulgar word to scold someone? well, at that time, i have no idea what that word means...

i cursed someone important to me? (i am so so so so so Sorry)


hm...it feels light~it's sure nice to break free, to vomit out some of those stuff hidden in your "closet", once in a while. isn't it? :)

Oh, NOOOoo! not you again , Mr As Sign Ment

since the day i came back from hometown, i have been mugging at my assignments.

and, yesterday, our lecturer said he would be giving us new assignment. Tadaa! and to think of it, i have yet to even start the previous assignment he gave us last week!

why assignments keep on piling and piling when i still have the old ones? why doesn't this condition happens in terms of financial? why money do not keep on piling up like assignments do? it takes so much effort to produce a piece of assignment but so effortless to spend money.

ok...stop with this money issue.

i think this week, i have been quite "hardworking" already(judging by the fact that i have been watching less episodes of anime;p) hm...maybe my speed is too slow.

i don't mind having to do assignments every week but this week feels busy. so for now, i think i have enough assignments to keep me busy. i don't need new ones!!!

dear assignment, i don't wanna see you...boo~!

Hairy Feedbacks

i went to calculus class today. i dunno how to describe my feelings as i walked into the lecture hall. i felt like hiding somewhere...gosh! it takes a few minutes for me to get use to the situation.

i think my latest haircut has made me unrecognisable. yes? no? well, i think that's the case for mien may. hahahahaha!

the way my friends response really tickles me!

mien may couldn't recognise me on the first glance. she looked a second time and went "Ehhhh!"

then the others came in....here's some of their responses:

chun ann : wah...you cut your hair! normally, this hairstyle can be seen in anime only...
(actually there's some truth to the statement. i like the gundam seed destiny guy, rey! i wanna immitate his hairstyle)
henry : so sharp...can i cut my hair like yours?
por shen : are you sure the right fish came back? (hahaha!)

well, my friends said that my head look bigger. yeah! damn true! i've got to admit that i feel the same thing too, since the day i had my haircut.

nothing can be done now. i'll just wait until my hair gets "bushy" again. then, i'll go experimenting on another style! *evil laugh*

Argh...time to do assignments AGAIN!!!

i am back from my lovely home sweet home...

...and now i am back in my hostel, typing at the keyboard, munching biscuits while surfing for my assignments. serve me right! i've forgotten to bring my assignment papers home. oh~but i doubt if i will ever do my assignments at home even i have the papers with me.

i never have the motivation to start my assignments until the day before the due date. but, i always have EXTRA motivation to sleep, eat, watch anime and play spider solitaire. why am i so lazy ar?

now, in the midst of searching for info, i am crapping here! actually i wanted to post photos taken during steamboat and the sunway pyramid outing. mana tau, fail to upload wor...*sigh*

ok! ok! focus! back to assignments...