day 8 and day 9

#can i do it?#

yesterday, a friend told me in her own subtle way that i complain too much and i don't have much initiative, after i launched my episodes of bad results, bad cgpa and unhappy training. i couldn't take it very well, at first but later at night, i started to feel a lot of what she said about me.

not exactly inspiring, and not exactly the way i would like to be comforted but at some point, it's true that i need to get out of my comfort zone.

but, one thing i disagree with her is that to let myself handle the tasks all by myself. i am not willing to let a group tasks being renamed into "individual tasks". and, i really would like to try to trust my group members despite how i always bad-mouth them. another reason is that, i don't know whether i can handle it alone. or, should i?

anyway, updates on my training. like i said, the supervisor's nice. she gave us too many hints and is strict at the same time. but, the guy just would not take it nicely. she already said not to use power point, TWICE. and, he kept doing it. by then, i was already too "dead" to "sound" him.

so, the interface's still NOT ready yet. the supervisor was a bit like " ... ". you know what i mean.
i don't think they will ever bring their work home with them. ah, that's just healthy.

as for me, i am looking forward to going to pahang this evening. maybe i should do a schedule like, when i'll go sight-seeing with mien may and when i should continue my work while in pahang since next presentation is due on tuesday. i can't bear to have the unbelievable-you-are-still-doing-the-same-page-since-friday look from the supervisor. i really hope not to dissapoint her too much, yeah my parents and me too.

she(supervisor) said something that motivates me a while..haha..(ya, i don't stay motivated for long). "your academic result does little matter, it's your skills that counts".

so, wish me luck that i will be positive for the next 8 weeks and the following.

till then, cheers from me.



#see, i am writting less gloomy stuff!#