for day 10 and day 11

still working on it. very clueless on many things. i kept on thinking that the project would be easier to handle if only i paid attention in java and database class. i hope i'll gain something after this, or else the 10 weeks will be a futile effort.

the last trip to pahang with mien may was nice and enjoyable. her family is very generous. i had to say i ate quite a lot during my stay with them. i'll remember the simple meat-wrapped-in-egg dish. i love it tremendously. not exaggerating. also, not forgotten, the astro channel! kbsw! wah lai toi! and that spooky series-the strange tales of Liao Zhai! i would love to express my gratitude towards their generosity and great hospitality here.

during my stay, i found a lot of resemblance between mien may's family and mine. her mum's styles are just like my mum's. her dad's are like mine. i started to miss home, miss my sis and bro. sometimes, i think i dare not go home because i am scared that i'll have to leave again in the sunday afternoons.

there were days, when i went into total depression, weeping silently during lunch (lucky that no one's around at that time). i was having too many thoughts, negative mostly, missing home, worrying about the project which seems to progress slower than ever, being lonely without some close friends and etc. i really hate myself for being a pessimist, weak and slow.

well, i think that will be all for today. oh, God! i pray to thee that thou will shower me with courage and perseverance and that thy child would be more optimistic. (very shakespeare-nt?)